How many of us are striving to be all we are out here? I'm looking for the secret to success. I've been reaching for the moon so long that I'm afraid I've lost touch with earth. I continue to put myself out there for the sake of a comfortable life only to get disappointed.

Nothing lands in our laps. I've written a book and published it. I've invented a usefull device and am having it patented, but I still have a go-no-where job with no hopes of advancement. Sometimes I think it would be better for me to just go into that dead-end job, grow old there, retire and expire without ever creating another thing. What would that hurt really?

I see so many people where I work who are happy right where they are. They work that assembly line, and have no other ambition for the future other than what they're having for dinner that night. Why can't I be like that? Wouldn't I be better off, rather than having these delusions that there's a better life to be had?

I don't know if I can live my life like that though. try as I might, I still want what seems out of my reach. I'm told to have faith, believe, and ask and you shall receive. What a bunch of huey. I'm going to keep trying till I can't move anymore, and if nothing comes of it, then I know I tried. That's nothing to be ashamed of, is it?