Today, I got up early for work. Mindless of the other stuff that I should be focusing on. I need to do better in my job.. the only sole thought thats been bothering me all night.

As the day went, I had a heated argument with someone who has always been there for me all this time, but then furry ruled over me and I just let things pass by with out realizing how I was building the wall between us. Thought after thought occupied my being then I began counting the things I did for him... I hate him.

Another day is passing by, and I lay here completely pre occupied by the anguish I'm feling inside. I miss him. I don't understand why I'm sometimes stubborn when it comes to him. I love him but things are different now. I learned from my past. I have given my heart to someone before that I can not afford to take another risk and let my heart be fooled and break into pieces again.

Fight is sometimes healthy in a relationship. But why do fight always bring long forgotten pain? I don't understand!