My Hero Dad
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MY HERO
I found an old picture today,
in it I am about 3 years old.
sitting on your knee looking up at your face with unconditional love in my eyes.
you were my hero and I worshipped the ground you walked on back then.
But things changed between us as I grew older,well not things,you changed.
Jeckyl and hyde you became,
sober you were the hero
but the alcohol brought the demon in you out.
soon it became clear that you loved the alcohol more than you loved your family.
and the demon of the drink came to visit us every night.
thats when I lost you,
thats when to me you died.
I never got to see the real you again.
The strange thing is that you became more popular when you were drinking,
every where I went I met one of your cronies,
" oh your Sammies boy yer da`s a great man."
to them he was but they didnt know about the beatings,
the tantrums,
the urine soaked world that we were subjected to.
oh yes my dad what a great man.
You went to the doctor
cyrosis of the liver we all thought,
we were wrong.
lung cancer you were told.
3 months later she found your body
3 empty bottles at your feet.
what we all said would happen the drink killed you.
I Still remember that innocent time
sitting on your knee
not a care in the world.
but i want to forget
my hero dad.
jimmy
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thanks Iðunn , im living in my own head lol and strange thoughts are coming to me today,not hearing brings strange thoughts to a usualy empty place lol.....jimmy
oh, I'd say your head is far from empty... I think it's quite cluttered with bizarre and intriguing thoughtz and lucky us, you share them with hubz. : )
Jimmy this piece is so heartfelf and your pain comes across in every line of it. I'm so sorry. I'm not close to my Dad either and he didn't drink, as a matter of fact he didn't start ailing until over the last 5 years are so from heart problems and depression. Now I don't think he even knows he is in this world right now...but I love him anyway even though he is an old fool. It was really sobering to read this.
Dearest Jimmy,
What a moving and heartrending piece. Alcohol destroys so many families, everywhere, everyday. Know that he DID love you, but his love for the liquor kept that part of him hidden away--completely out of his control. This does not excuse what he made you and your family suffer. No wonder your heart is so big and generous and comfortable--you went through hell, and now every day of "normalcy" is a blessing . . .
working
Iðunn says:
2 years ago
(((jimmy)))
this is so moving and tragic...
I think you are working something out here for yourself and I don't think you are finished. my wish for you is that in the end you can face and beat the pain and distance yourself enough to where you can keep for yourself both your 'hero da' which is the potential and the one that destroyed that image. you may want that someday and the choice will alwayz be yours.
I'm going to recommend a movie for you and I'm going to let you know it would be hard to watch, in advance, but I think it might add perspective and if nothing else, it would make you feel validated. Joe the King. I cried for hours. It's a story of a boy, and it could be any one of hundreds with similar stories, who has a difficult family and has trouble coping with it. I loved this film.
read the user comment here to determine if you might find it useful:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0160672/
the equivalent side for women and which also moved me but helped me a lot was this:
Bastard out of Carolina
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0115633/
film may seem a cold comfort to offer, but if you knew how much film meant to me because I see parts of myself and everyone else in them, you would understand why I wanted to offer these to you.