This is my Bi Polar Disorder, not Theirs
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Let's for once, start with Hope.
Rapid Cycling Bi Polar Disorder has challenged me since the age of 14. In all my explanations from 'professionals' I still really don't know what it means,but I know how it feels and can offer some information for those suffering or those wondering.
And I am going to keep it simple
Bi Polar - Hope is Important
What is Mental Illness?
It is a disease that causes mild to severe disturbances in thinking.
Common Myths about mental illness
- children don't suffer from mental illness problems
- people who need psychiatric care should be locked away in institutions
- mentally ill persons are dangerous
- people with mental illness problems are not suitable for important or professional jobs
- a person with mental illness can never be normal
Warning signs of Mental Illness
- marked personality change
- inability to cope with problems and daily activities
- strange or grandiose ideas
- excessive anxieties
- prolonged depression
- change in eating or sleeping patterns
- extreme highs and lows
- abuse of alcohol or drugs
- excessive anger, hostility or violent behavior
Bi-Polar Disorder
What is Bi-Polar Disorder?
Well, we know it's a psychiatric disease or mental illness. In my own personal experience I define it as being either high or low. I have Rapid Cycling Bi-Polar Disorder, which simply means I switch from these highs and lows more frequently than others.
It is an imbalance of chemicals in the brain that cannot regulate a regular 'normal' mood and leaving the patient with extreme moods instead.
In my own words It feels like this;
In My own Words; My experience is............
I explain my highs and Lows with my Bi-Polar Disorder like this
My Lows; (Depression)
- It's like feeling sorry for yourself, but you don't even feel worthy of that
- It's like wanting to do so many things, and you just can't
- It's like wanting to be held,but you can't cope being around anyone
- It's like wanting to sleep the days away, but your racing thoughts won't let you
- It's like wanting to be destructive, but not having the energy
- It's like wanting to show love, but you can't feel it right now
- It's like wanting to hide, but no-one will let you
- It's like wishing to function, but you can't bring yourself to move
- It's like wanting to talk about these feelings, but they are so suppressed you can't
- It's like knowing you have to recover, but could care less to do so
My Highs; (Mania)
- It's like tingling all over, and being high
- It's like people just don't understand you
- It's like you can't talk as fast as you think
- It's like you can't do anything fast enough
- It's like wanting more of everything
- It's like needing sex, more than food or water
- It's like your superior to everyone else
- It's like never wanting to sleep again, so you won't miss out on something
- It's like driving full speed with no fear at all
- It's like being frustrated because no one else has your energy
Both are like being isolated in what you can't explain to others.
Listening and Talking at the same time
Finding Hope
Today I am heavily medicated but stable. I still experience my highs and lows but have found some peace. Peace in the means that the mood swings aren't as severe and I am better able to cope.
Medications and combinations are frustrating, sickly and many times wrong. Don't give up, the right combination of medication is there for you, and you will find it, if you can just hang in.
And for me, I no longer allow doctors to dictate how I feel.
This is my bi-polar disorder, not theirs.
Peace- finally
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Lyricsingray.. you are one of my personal heroes! I take my hat off to you. It takes guts to write something like this but you have written it so beautifully and from the heart. I never knew you were Bi Poloar. A friend of mine has it and it was really hard in the beginning but she's coping. Thank you for sharing this. You are a talented writer and an inspiration to me :)
Peace,
C.P.
Thanks for sharing this about the confusion of Bipolar Disorder..
Cisco, it's comments like yours that make all this risk of writing about it worth while.I am so glad your friend is coping and I am so glad you came by. Thanks for your support.
Dan thanks for reading about the confusing confusion! LOL, Your continual support amazes me, thank you
I agree with Cisco, you are very brave. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the way you did the highs and lows, "It's like..."
I'm sure you've touched on it in other hubs, but have you specifically addressed how you used drugs and alcohol to try to self medicate your bipolar illness? It would be great to bring attention to this. Schizophrenics and others with mental illness do this too. It's very difficult for families to understand.
RM, I'm always amazed at how much you really do know and thank you for your comment. I think now that you mentioned it I am ready to tie addiction and mental illness and how they tie together.I have been writing about each separately and they are far from that. Thanks RM as always.
never ever stop writing! You are great and the world needs more brave people like you!
Cisco, Bless you,and I have a lump in my throat-a good one thanks to you
I apologize for it is not my aim to make you cry, but to praise you as you should be praised. An excellent writer deserves to be hailed and you are one of those writers :) you have been through much and it has crafted you into the wonderful person you are today!
Thank you and only tears of gratitude friend, Bless
Now this is a really great hub, well writtien, well put together and as for standing up and write about, I only can say, "you can be pround of yourself". You are on the way of coping and recovering. Well done and thank you for this inside.
Wow! Great hub, super insightful. I love the way you described the highs and lows. And like others have said, you're very courageous. Keep up the terrific work, you're able to touch people in a way that's very rare.
Hello, what a nice comment and so supportive, I thank you and yep, coping and recovery-lots of hope.
Hello, what a nice comment and so supportive, I thank you and yep, coping and recovery-lots of hope.
Chris, thank you and yes it certainly was easy to express my highs and lows LOL Thanks for coming by and your support, as always
Don't let doctors dictate how you feel, even when you have difficulty articulating it yourself. Pills are necessary but not always so many, dictated again by them.
great ..you have put it as no one else could.. great information.. will keep this one thanks
Thanks Dorothy, I really appreciate it. :-D
lyrics--this information is complex, but very easily understandable and very easy to read. The links are also helpful. Brilliant hub--loads of necessary and needed information. Very well done.
Thanks AIDY, your support helps tons, and I'm so glad you came by, Kimberly
Great Hub indeed. And you are very brave. Your life is a commentary on courage and facing reality soberly and with clear eyes. There is no way out but through.
Have you read Kay Redfield Jamison's "An Unquiet Mind"? It is another clear-eyed look at this frightening syndrome.
Love and peace
Tony
Tony, thanks, your interest inspires me and I appreciate you coming by indeed. Kimberly
you are great at explaining in every day terms the "highs" and "lows"!!!
your life has definately been "up" and "down" but with your courage and strong fighting manner you've managed to take the negatives and turn them into positives. don't ever stop writting your stories. you inspire addicts as well as the sober.
Dina,your such an inspiration, thank you and God Bless
lyricsingray,
Even if one could not relate, your hub makes them. I understand, I really do.
hugs,
dori
Dori, Bless you and thank you, you made my day sweets :)
Thank you so much for directing me to this page, I definitely can relate to what your speaking of...i've always wanted to ask, how did your family respond to it...my family are health professionals(not mental health tho) but they don't believe it...even stranger my dad acknowledge the depressive side but didn't want to acknowledge the manic even tho others have...i believe they are in denial
Thanks Millionheir, I too got the same reception from most of my family even now after so much has happened. I think all we are asking for is a little validation. Don't see it coming so soon. So glad you came by, I'll be by soon. Thanksxo
lyricsingray says:
2 months ago
Hoped this helped somewhat -
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