Memories And Blossoms.

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Hello one and all ;today's hub comes from my heart !!

Over the past three years on here I have now and again shared the grief of losing my sister Val, then ten years later my beautiful baby; my youngest daughter Erin.

By today I also love to share my wonderful memories as well as tall he love and beauty that both of them still bring to my days.

Erin passed over on April 4th 2009 and if I had had an inkling that this was going to happen I would have imagines myself slipping into a deep depression ;not being able to cope at all.

However one way and another we do cope ;all of us in different ways and we should never tell anyone else how to cope because this is such a deeply personal process.

When I came to terms with losing my lovely sister Val in 1999 I somehow found the strength to leave my abusive marriage of 26 years. Val as well as being a very talented musician was also a truly beautiful person and I will always believe that she was with me and gave me strength to a very difficult time .

Uncannily Erin had also inherited the beautiful singing voice of her Aunty Val and I know today that they are two beautiful angels singing up in heaven. I know that the beauty which I see all around me tells me clearly that they are both with me as caring as ever.

I have a strong spiritual faith and this has deepened over the past few years. Two of my daughters have been to see a medium and Erin came through strongly and they try to persuade me to go too. However my inner being tells me I don't need to as I know they are with me ;I know they are both free of pain and also want me to share their memories forevermore.

The song I have chosen today is one we played at Erin's funeral and at the start I could not listen to it , but over time this has become so much easier and I now enjoy listening to this version by Beyoncé.


Back at the end of 2009 I opened a trust fund in Erin's name with our only Children's hospice her in Wales Ty hafan and have raised over £4,000 since. 'Erin Jones Friend Of Ty hafan ' can only grow from strength to strength. Erin loved babies and little children so this was the best way to cherish her memory.

Erin and Val's garden with some of the image I have created using the Rock Rose.

Also as many of you know we have planted a mini garden on our patio consisting of Hebe, Azalea , Forest Flame and a Rock Rose .

The Rock Rose quickly took the stage as a leader and soon over shadowed the other three plants ;this is why the first book of poems I had published was called 'My Beautiful Rock Rose'. Erin always had to be the star of her show. She had such a vibrant personality and at times when I am sad I can hear her voice "Goodness me mam get a grip !!!"

Of course we have to cry and feel sadness but there is also love and beauty surrounding us all. At time it may be a little more difficult to find than others.

Today I have three very important words etched in my heart.

I accept what has happened .

I expect there to be times of sadness.

No matter how sad I may feel I also appreciate all the happiness and beauty that surrounds me .

Here my  loved ones are not apparent!!!I do not feel their warm presence.
Here my loved ones are not apparent!!!I do not feel their warm presence. | Source
Here my heart lifts as I know they are both with me in the beauty of my world.
Here my heart lifts as I know they are both with me in the beauty of my world. | Source


Today's poem I hope is a trail of my journey since losing loved ones up to the present day.

I can remember feeling so guilty if I laughed or was enjoying myself but we have to remember that our loved ones would not want us to be sad.

I hope I have captured this in both images.

Let the laughter and beauty into your heart once again.

This is what they wish for us.

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When each dawn is dark

spirits bleak and low;

Grasping in the dark

for that guiding hand

to tell you where to go

Bruised emotions

so coldly leap

from moments so high

hurtling to way down deep.

The sunshine's gone

the clouds apprehend

but fight your way along

determinedly to the end.

fight to the end

a promise of bright dawns

a strong guiding hand

just round the bend.

How we change

to find strength anew;

follow each lead

this could be you.

A songbirds tune

shows you the way

darkness cast aside

to find a new today.

The beauty a flowing

each promise anew

In the sunshine and blossoms

I see my loved ones too.

To cast away darkness

allowing beauty to stay

Here are my loved ones

forever and a day.







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My Little Angel Flying On A Star

I looked out on a starry night

to see an angel flying high

a beauty beyond

a breathtaking smile

a heart a-glowing.......................

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I know it is you

My dear sweet baby.

I know it's you

My heart so happy.

x

I looked out on a starry night

to see an angel

glowing

on the brightest star of all

sprinkling her

love

sharing her compassion

her pose so wondrous

her love eternal.....................

x

I know it is you

My dear sweet baby.

I know it's you

My heart so happy.

x

I looked out on a starry night

to see an angel

looking after

each heavenly babe

her heart for all

her care neverending.........................

x

I know it is you

My dear sweet baby.

I know it's you

My heart so happy.

x

I looked out on a starry night

to see an angel

I blew her an angel kiss

which tenderly floated upwards

and landed with all the others

on her dainty angel wings....................

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I know it is you

My dear sweet baby.

I know it's you

My heart so happy.

x

I will always look out on a starry night

to see my angel

sprinkling her love

as she flies around

on the most beautiful

and

brightest star of all................................

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I know it is you

My dear sweet baby.

I know it's you

My heart so happy.

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My sweet sweet baby

On those tender angel wings

Always in my heart.

Beautiful baby

Forever deep in my heart

So strong our love.

Below I am sharing some of the many collages I have made; each one created from the beautiful blossoms we grow in pots on our patio .

I end with the three words which have and continue to ease my heartaches at the times when sadness come rushing through and so often with no warning at all.

Today I have three very important words etched in my heart.

I accept what has happened .

I expect there to be times of sadness.

No matter how sad I may feel I also appreciate all the happiness and beauty that surrounds me .

Here's to wishing you all a wonderful weekend and lots of love from Wales.

Eddy.

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DDE 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

Memories And Blossoms. incredible photos and I like beautiful gardens


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bravewarrior 3 years ago from Central Florida

Eddy your memories and collages are full of love and beauty. I'm sure Val and Erin are smiling down on you at this very moment. I know they will share your heart forever and ever until you are once again joined.


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sallybea 3 years ago from Norfolk

May you continue to see beauty in everything which touches you Eddy - such a lovely tribute your loved ones Eddy. They would be so proud of you. Have a beautiful day - you deserve it.

Sally


DJ Anderson 3 years ago

Such a lovely tribute to your loved ones.

May yesterday's tears continue to bring the

blossoms of tomorrow's flowers.

Wonderful hub filled with incredible pictures of

loved ones and flowers.

Have a blessed weekend.

DJ.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much DDE and here's to wishing you a wonderful weekend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

We have spent many a day now Shauna reading and sharing !!I think we understand each other and I know that my tributes to both my angels will intermittently be published from now to the end of time. They are both still a great part of my life and always will be. Lots of love to you my very dear friend.

Eddy,.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you also sallybea and here's a great big thank you to you for this warm and caring comment. Lots of love to you from Wales.

eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much my dear friend DJ and as always so greatly appreciated. Here's wishing you a great weekend and lots of love from Wales.

Eddy.


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ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

Eddy,

You serve as inspiration. You show us how to face the sadness in our lives, how to accept it, how to pay tribute to it and how to embrace it.

Your pictures, your flowers and your poems all show the inner beauty and strength that is you. And that you helps all of us. Thank You!

Kim


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Kim what can I say except a very big thank you fro my heart and here's wishing you a great weekend Kim and lots of love from Wales.

Eddy.


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suzettenaples 3 years ago from Taos, NM

Eddy: Such a lovely tribute to your sister and daughter. My heart pains knowing the pain of loss you have been through. But, you have taken the right steps to heal. Raising money in Erin's name is wonderful. I breaks my heart to read this, but at the same time it is a testament to your strength, Eddy in exiting an abusive marriage. Thank God you did that! And now you have a wonderful man in your life. I wish you love and the best the rest of your days.


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janetwrites 3 years ago from Georgia country

The day your daughter passed away is the birthday of my son. A wonderful tribute to your loved ones who are now angels watching you everyday. I love the beautiful words you wrote and the beautiful images and collages you created.


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CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

My heart goes out to you. What beautiful flowers you have surrounding you and the love you had for your sister and daughter reflects in your words. Such a sweet dedication with such powerful memories.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Hi suzette you words mean more than I can say ; the sadness comes without warning at times but now I recognise it for what it is and I understand my future path. You Suzette along with many other life long friends I have made on here have done so much ; probably more than I can explain. Today I understand my legacy which is to help others when they are also finding life heavy and painful.

Lots of love my dear friend and enjoy your weekend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

As you tell me of your son's birthday janetwrites I remember that Erin's birthday is on the 1st of July and eighteen months ago our Grandson Kayden was born on this very day, There fore this date will never be all about sadness again. Lots of love to you too janetwrites for your kind and caring words.

Enjoy your weekend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you CarftytotheCore I love to sit out on our patio even this time of year when it is not quite as colourful as in the spring/summer months; it still holds that magical aura and I know that my loved ones are with me. As I thank you for your care and kindness I also hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Eddy.


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always exploring 3 years ago from Southern Illinois

Eddy this soo beautiful, your talent knows no boundaries! God bless you and family..Thank you..


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Susan Recipes 3 years ago from India

Wow... what a beautiful hub, full of colors. Voted up.


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old albion 3 years ago from Lancashire. England.

Another lovely hub Eddy. I am so pleased for you, your sunshine is out there. Lead on.

Graham.


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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

As I read you first few sentences I was wondering when one of your writings doesn't come from your heart? :) All of your work is a product of that beautiful heart that you have, and the love you have for all who touch your life. Many blessings and much love to you today and always.

billy


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Hi Ruby isn't it strange how I still get that lingering or hovering shall I ? shan't I? over the publish button. However when I have I feel a sense of fulfilment.

Your words as always Ruby mean the world. It seems a very ling time now since that first day I met you on here. By now I think you are my hub sis and lots of love to you from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy..


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much Susann Recipes and I now look forward to f0ollwoing you on here.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Graham what a joy it is to see you've stopped by and your words as always so greatly appreciated. Here's wishing you a wonderful weekend my dear friend.

Eddy/


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My Cook Book 3 years ago from India

So beautiful, i voted this hub UP and beautiful. Well written, good work :)


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Nell Rose 3 years ago from England

Hi Eddy, your poems collages and words are so beautiful, you make me cry, you make me laugh and smile too, your beautiful Erin would be so proud of you, have a wonderful weekend.


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Ericdierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

Wonderful Eddy. I just voted up across the board with a big thumbs up.

These guys who leave us. Dog gone it. They got no right!

But they only leave us if we are shallow, otherwise they live on in our hearts.

You truly are made of their earthliness and carry on for them. And that touches me, so they touch me. What a gift you have. And what a gift you are to me.


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BlossomSB 3 years ago from Victoria, Australia

Eddy, such a beautiful hub - the poems and all those wonderful collages. It's a lovely tribute to your loved ones who have passed on. Your faith in God shines through in all those colourful pictures of the world around you that He created and it shows both sadness for the past and hope for the future. Love it.


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Homeplace Series 3 years ago from Hollister, MO

Your creativity, depth of feelings, and selection of amazing images seem to know no bounds. Another amazing hub! ;-)


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Jo_Goldsmith11 3 years ago

This is just beautiful! The depth of your love and courage is such a blessing as I read each word. Beautiful poetry, the written words are perfectly etched together in such a heart warming way. The photos really pull this wonderful work together. So much appreciated. Voted up ++ Just beautiful!

Shared & tweeted... Blessings, light & love....

Shalom


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Billy what can I say ??On each hub you are always so kind and caring and this comes from a wonderful friend with a big massive heart. You are such an inspiration and have become a very dear friend for me. A Life long friend I must add. lots of love to you and Beth all the way from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Hi My Cook Book ;thank you so much for this comment which I can assure you is so greatly appreciated. I now look forward to so many ore hubs for you too.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Nell my wonderful friend such a long time since I shared my very first hub with you and it was all about my Erin. From this warm community you a very dear member of my hubfamily have cared and been so supportive. I cannot ask for more today than that my story will help others along their way. Lots of love to you my dear friend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Oh Eric thank you over and over again your words mean so very much and you are so right they have no right to leave us and it hurts and some day the pain is so very bad but we carry on with heads held high and again find the beauty from within which comes from the beauty around us. Lots of love to you my wonderful friend all the way from Wales.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so very much Blossom another fear member of my hubfamily and I treasure you greatly. Your words will remain within my heart and I also send you a whole load of love from Wales. Enjoy your weekend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Your comment Homeplace my friend mean so very much and is so greatly appreciated. I can assure you, Thank you for caring and here's to wishing you a wonderful weekend.

Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

From the bottom of my heart I appreciate your wonderfully kind and caring words ;thank you so very much and here's to so many more hubs for us both to share on here. Lots of love to you from my little corner of wales.

eddy.


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Suhail and my dog 3 years ago from Mississauga, ON

"I accept what has happened

I expect there to be times of sadness.

No matter how sad I may feel I also appreciate all the happiness and beauty that surrounds me."

Here is a great advice for all of us and I will memorize to pass it on to those who come to me to confide and get solace on various matters, as a friend.

Btw, April 4 is my day of birth, but it has always been celebrated somberly, because in my country of origin, one of our democratically elected PM was executed by a military dictator on April 4, 1979.

I was deeply saddened to hear about your losses, so much so that tears started flowing, but your courage didn't let me go into deep depression at all. I salute you for drawing strength from the tragic events of dear ones gone by and using that strength to continue on and to help others.


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Genna East 3 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Eddy, you ARE the heart…in everything you do. It is the gift that is the miracle of humanity. Hugs, dear one, and thank for this beautiful and inspiring hub. I will come back to visit this often.


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loveofnight 3 years ago from Baltimore, Maryland

You have some beautiful memories and the photos that are included shows that. For whatever reason, you make my face smile; although we have loses, the beauty of them lives on. Thanks for an awesome share.


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Bishop55 3 years ago from USA

This was a very beautiful thing for you to share. I am very sorry for your losses, but can relate to what you've written as I've lost people I loved very much, particularly my 7 yr old nephew. The hard part is for those that remain here on the earth plane, we wait until that moment we can be with them again, but find comfort in knowing they are surrounded by love and light and cared for eternally. Thank you again for sharing. This was beautiful and comforting to read.


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Lisawilliamsj 3 years ago

This is such a beautiful and touching tribute to the people whom you have loved and lost. I was swept away in your heartfelt words and magical pictures. I wish there was an amazing button, because that is what this Hub is, absolutely amazing! Thank you so much for sharing!


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tobusiness 3 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Eddy, a beautiful memorial, your love shines through each word and image. take care and my best to you.


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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

I can see Val and Erin smiling down at you, Eddie, as well as enjoying those beautiful flowery collages. As long as we remember those we love, they are not gone from our hearts and minds. I know!


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FlourishAnyway 3 years ago from USA

I am sorry for your losses ... and also happy for you that you found the strength to leave your abusive marriage. Beautiful flowers and a touching tribute to your loved ones. I wish you peace and resilience. May your loved ones smile upon you very day.


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mathira 3 years ago from chennai

An moving tribute to your loved ones, eddy. It was moving and I could not help gasping in wonder at the colorful beauty of your presentation.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

SUHAILANDMY DOG

GENNA

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LISA

TOBU

DRBJ

FLOURISHANYWAY

MATHIRA

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all these wonderful comments. They are so heartwarming and appreciated more than I can say. I will always share my loved ones and they are still every single day a great part of my life.

I wish you all a wonderful day and lots of love from my little corner of Wales.

Eddy.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Another lovely, picturesque and poetic journey. I know the brightest stars up in heaven are Val and Erin and they always shine and smile upon you. Passing this on Eddy.


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Your words as always so greatly appreciated Rasma.

Eddy.


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Mike Robbers 3 years ago from London

Beautiful hub of yours Eddy,as always :)

Voted up!


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you Mike.

Eddy.


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aviannovice 3 years ago from Stillwater, OK

Even though there are many miles between us, I feel closer to you every day that I learn more about you. One day we will meet, and I feel in some ways that I already know you...


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Hi Deb I can only second what you so kindly stated and I also feel that I know you also. I feel closer to so many of my friends on here than I feel with so many who live near to me. This comes from someone who stated so arrogantly that it wasn't possible to make friends over the net. Mmm guess I was wrong there. I treasure our friendship Deb and who know we may well meet up one day. Wouldn't' that be wonderful and one of my favourite mottos is Never say never. Lots of love you from Wales.

Eddy.


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Writer Fox 3 years ago from the wadi near the little river

A loving tribute to two beautiful souls, and thank you for sharing here. Voted up!


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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales Author

Thank you so much writerfox.Enjoy your day.

Eddy.

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