My Agony - Poem

Bad Romance

Your Anger

Your anger crashes over me like a violent wave

Knocking me off my feet and washing away any hope of survival.

It pounds on me again and again

Sucking the very breath from my lungs.

Your anger tears through me like a flash of lightening

That rips the very marrow from my bones.

It dashes any hope of happiness I may have had

On the rocks of despair

You Used Me

 

You needed to validate your masculinity,

And erase the fears of your family.

You had to quiet the whispered rumors of childhood friends.

So, you used me.

 

You wanted to expand your portfolio,

And increase your assets.

You wanted to acquire things, things you never had before.

So, you used me.

 

Have you ever loved me at all?

I don’t believe you have.

 

Do you notice the little things I do for you?

You’ve never shown me that you have.

And I wonder if you even care.

 

I think you simply use me to your advantage, when it’s convenient.

 

Would you miss me if I were gone?

Would you mourn if you ever lost me?

I don’t believe you would cry one tear.

 

I think you would simply wash your hands of me

And shed my memory from your mind like a worn out garment.

You would move on with your life because . . .

You used me up.


Comments 18 comments

Mimoma 6 years ago

WOW! Kim U R so brave to express these feelings.. I never realized we had so mauch common ground..


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miss_jkim 6 years ago Author

Well, it's my way to let it out.

I'm one of those stuffers. But it's not always good to stuff and I know there are others out there who suffer like I have. And maybe, just maybe, it will help someone to realize they are not alone.


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Nellieanna 6 years ago from TEXAS

You can be kinder to yourself, dear miss_jkim. I hope you will!! Hugs.


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miss_jkim 6 years ago Author

Sometimes the clouds are gray, and sometimes the sun is shinshine.


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epigramman 6 years ago

......this is a pure poetic and honest expression - you are writing from the heart and you are thinking and feeling - and your loyal readers are too!


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miss_jkim 6 years ago Author

Thank you for your post. And you are right, this was written from the depths of my heart.


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creativeone59 6 years ago from Gold Canyon, Arizona

Thank you Miss_JKim, for a beautiful poem, I have been there and done that. Thank you for sharing. Godspeed. creativeone59


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louisxfourie 6 years ago from Johannesburg, South Africa

This is real from the heart, your true feelings. "That rips the very marrow from my bones", I was ALSO there ....I love your poems.


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miss_jkim 6 years ago Author

Thank you creativeone59, there is some comfort in knowing that I have not felt this despair alone.

Yes Louis, this was written from the very depths of a very broken heart. I am saddened that you have had to endure anything like this. I wouldn't desire these emotions to be felt by the worst of humanity.


Forgetmenot18 6 years ago

Wow, what a powerful and heart-fell poem. And you are so brave to express your inner feeling so well. I do feel how you felt as I have been there before myself. Still life must go on if you so choose. Thank you very much for sharing. I will be publishing my first hub soon. Hope to see you again soon.


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miss_jkim 6 years ago Author

Thank you Forgetmenot18,

Life has indeed gone on. I am glad you stopped by and read my hub. I look forward to reading yours, and welcome to Hubpages.


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relaltionsoup 6 years ago from Spring

Thank you for having the courage to express what a lot of us are scared to admit. You used me!!


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miss_jkim 6 years ago Author

Thank you for reading and commenting. I think we all have times when we feel used.


NikiiLeeReyes 4 years ago

this reminds me of the Mya song

"If you died I wouldnt cry cause you never loved me anyway."

and she says

"You could get struck by lightning washed away by the sea,

burned in a fire- just dont bring it back to me,

cause if you died I wouldnt cry, cause you never loved me anyway."

This is lovely.

humbling actually.

-Nika


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miss_jkim 4 years ago Author

Thank you Nikii. I am humbled to have my poetry compared to a song by such talent as Mya.


NikiiLeeReyes 4 years ago

I had to read it again!

Its so beautiful,

I love it.

"....You wanted to expand your portfolio,

And increase your assets.

You wanted to acquire things, things you never had before.

So, you used me..."

So real....

I had to quote you :)

-nika


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miss_jkim 4 years ago Author

Thanks for the repeat visit.


NikiiLeeReyes 4 years ago

Anytime dahling' anytime :)

-nika

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