. . . What's Left of Me

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So this is me. Actually, what's left of me sitting stationary squinting at the sun

Weighing the differences of things I did and those things undone.

Dreaming is harder to do now than then since I'm only able to dream now and again.

One perpetual circle in sand no vital parts. No grasping hand.


The sky is endless, so big and long. Still, I wonder if "right" was replaced with "wrong."

Waters scare these shaky old bones. God is tired of my plea's, "please's," and moans.

Should I have left in eager age? On my own, but free of cage?

Fool-like, I stayed, and prayed, for seemingly one endless day.


When all the time laboring and reaching for fruit. All I got were lies and a *liar's loot

Sweating, begetting, circling life's field hoping one day to digest all of life's yield.

But words and promises, came cheaper by day. Clinging to vows when I should have ran away.

So here I sit looking, seeking and sighing. Dreading *the step of a drab time dying.


Maybe it was planned. Maybe it was a span. Now should I dare to ask.

The durge now sinks in seeking ears stirring my heart, soaking my fears.

The stone, a crying groan, and it's finished from flesh to bone.

Now ash and dirt all silence is gone.




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MizBejabbers 7 months ago

Kenneth, this is great poetry. Such feeling, as some of the poetry connoisseurs would say. I know it's a story coming from the heart. Just remember, we love you.


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Nadine May 7 months ago from Cape Town, Western Cape, South Africa

The title of your poem: What's Left of Me....attracted me to read it. Very moving. Thanks for sharing.


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Kristen Howe 7 months ago from Northeast Ohio

Kenneth, what a beautiful and thought-provocative poem. Well done!


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kenneth avery 7 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Evening, MizBejabbers,

Thanks so very much for your sweet, uplifting comment.

I appreciate your friendship, following and comments more than you can fathom.

(((HUGS)))

Kenneth


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kenneth avery 7 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dear Nadine,

"Many thanks to you for taking time to read and comment on this hub." "Actually the feelings in this hub are the real way that I feel many days here lately. Just old age I assume."

"Might as well capitalize on it, huh?"

Thanks for stopping by and write me anytime.

Kenneth


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kenneth avery 7 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Dear Kristen,

My sincere thanks to you too for the sweet input. I tried to not put as much abstract (thinking) into this. I felt it was not needed.

I wish you an evening of peace and sanity.

Write me anytime.

Kenneth


Megan Sheufelt 7 months ago

I'm not sure this belongs in the Prose Poetry section, since prose implies a respect for traditional grammatical structure, and usually the absence of overt rhymes, unlike other forms of poetry. Otherwise, nice piece. From the beginning, the reader might think this to be a confessional poem, but the poet has veiled so much of the literal meaning that it is difficult to tell much beyond how he feels.


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kenneth avery 7 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Thank you sincerely, Megan,

for the analysis. And for the record, you are correct.

Write me anytime you like. Your comments will always be welcomed.

Kenneth


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Jennifer Mugrage 7 months ago from Columbus, Ohio

Wow. This is very dark and deep compared to your usual Hubs. Congratulations.

I hope the despair in the poem is not something you are feeling all time these days. Truly, all of us have been there from time to time.

"... the step of a drab time dying" has such a great ring to it. Reminds me of Poe.


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kenneth avery 7 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Hey, Jennifer,

You are so sweet to read and leave me this interesting comment. I will not lie to you, DEAR Friend, I do get feelings like life is oozing out of my spirit each day. Then it departs. I just have to put these dark feelings into words. Great therapy.

And it reminded you of Poe? Wow. Besides Dr. Hunter S. Thompson, and J.D. Salinger, Poe was one of my favorite writer/essayist and sometimes-philosopher.

Poe's philosophying could make Mark Twin bow his head in shame.

That is my opinion.

Write me at anytime and be blessed with His peace, sanity and protection.

Kenneth


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Jennifer Mugrage 7 months ago from Columbus, Ohio

I am so sorry to hear that but it's certainly understandable. Hang in there my friend.

I have not read any of Poe's philosophy. Am I missing out? I do know Mark Twain was a misanthrope. :)


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kenneth avery 7 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Hi, Jennifer,

And a good evening to you.

Thank you for the sweet comment. And your understanding of my situation with the grief and emptiness with my daughter's passing.

Poe's philosophy, as it were, was a bit edgy even for his time. A blend of darkness which included his appreciation for his dark thoughts that he translated into literature.

Now Dr. Thompson was the man who founded "Gonzo Journalism," and one important person described him as being, "the Best writer who never gets his facts correct, but he spins them so well, they sell."

I actually love Mark Twain and his works.

And I actually love hearing from you.

You are welcome to write anytime.

(((HUGS)))

Kenneth


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bravewarrior 6 months ago from Central Florida

Kenneth, your poetry never fails to amaze. Your choice of words and the emotions you portray are far beyond "roses are red". Your poetry comes from a very deep place. You do it so well.


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kenneth avery 6 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

My Dearest bravewarrior,

"My heart-felt, sincere thanks to you, My Dear, Dear FRIEND, for your very kind, sweet comment. I do not know if I am even worthy of such sweet words that come from a very talented person: YOU.

I love abstract/prose and just prose when certain feelings begin to surface and lately, these feelings are surfacing more and more.

Thanks again and write me anytime."

Love you, Kenneth


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Sneha Sunny 6 months ago from India

This is a great poem! Every word straight from heart. Will check out more of your poems. :) I hope you are doing good.


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kenneth avery 6 months ago from Hamilton, Alabama Author

Sneha Sunny,

Hi. And Thank YOU so sincerely for your wonderful comment. I do appreciate you so much.

Write me anytime about anything you like.

Peace to you.

Kenneth

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