1000 Tears

 I cried when I was born

Cold and solitary

No one to hold me

an unwanted child

I cried when I started walking

laying, sulking

there was only strangers to pick me up

I cried when I started talking

No one to listen

Noone to Care

I cried when he touched me

stealing my life

Robbing my innocence

I cried when I reached puberty

emotions raw

and everything is so huge

I cried when the other he touched me

Victim on my forehead

Soul crying for help

I cried when I fell in love for the first time

Could this be

that I am worthy

I cried when he left me

All alone

the only one whoever loved me

I cried when he left me

for someone else

abandoned again

sad again

I cried when I found me

Alone in a room I found me

I cried when my family died

abandoned again

In my own skin alone

I cried when I found love

and the damage from before

ran it away and I was the instrument of abandonment

I cried when I wrote this poem

at 36 knowing that I may have 63 more years

of nothing more than abandonment and tears

 

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Trish_M 5 years ago from The English Midlands

Such a very sad, but beautiful, poem.


Valerie Ellison 5 years ago

God Love you Candace, more than any man ever will. HE never abandons you or abuses you. Put all your HOPE in HIM ALONE...and your tears will dry away. HE loves YOU!


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Johnvegan 5 years ago from USA

Yeah i am crying she left me......

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