A Bitter Bit of Honesty

Two men

In one flesh

endlessly arguing

which is best

where to go

what to see

which one will be them

or me unrelenting though

shouted down or music'd out

round after round in bout after bout.

                                      One wants darkness

danger, dispare, anger, hatred, apathy, fire,

     unquenchable thirst and burning desires

                  Unflinching caprice, sarcasm rife

      Causing deep shame when he inflicts all

                                                      even wife

                             keeping him starving yet

                                          not starving self

        Required balance, discipline and help.

The other dissatisfied

with life and the game

the rat race bores him

people's mind to bend

nothing quenches need

or desires of dominion

tight within bounds he

will never let me cross

rules must be followed

he wants to be boss.

I, caught in the middle

must speak for those two

mediate their desires

motion in favor of

what I want to do, see, feel, grieve

the argument a thing that lulls me to sleep

yet time has placed them both on my chain

a measure beyond them all

a free spirit not for lack of rules

but a whip crack crack at their back.

They know to flinch.

I cant deny my nature

why I am unique

cannot silence myself

be silenced for there

ever words to speak

the conflict within

scares the Sandman to death

lots of life lessons

and different points of view

moral or not, I comprehend and mull over

for lack a way to give those two concrete boots

I sample life's roes daily.

whether I do or don't want to.

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attemptedhumour 6 years ago from Australia

Being a bloke and not very good with 'flowery' poetry i'm not sure exactly what you mean in this poem. Are you deciding whether to choose a passive male or a dominant one? I read this twice and it is certainly well written but maybe too cloudy for someone not skilled in anything other than rhyming poetry. Cheers

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

I am me between the two but acknowledging them all the same.

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Dave Mathews 6 years ago from NORTH YORK,ONTARIO,CANADA

Jeggedfrost: I'm not sure the message in the poem, but, I enjoyed reading it all the same.

Brother Dave.

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

wow that is the second comment of this kind. I am not sure what to think about that. Perhaps it would help to know that it was attached to a question challenging writers to write about one's self.

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DavePrice 6 years ago from Sugar Grove, Ill

Ah, not to worry - good poetry can never be understood with a simple once-through. It takes time for the words to finish their good work. Anyone who reads it more than once and lets it soak in will get it; I did. Thanks for pouring out your heart once again.

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

my thanks Dave P

Restorer of sanity

knight of the word

perhaps go I on more

you twill not believe me.

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D.A.L. 6 years ago from Lancashire north west England

jagged frost you are very talented. Writing from the heart.

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

Why Thank you Dal. I appreciate the visit.

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maven101 6 years ago from Northern Arizona

The Yin and the Yang of life...Each will out when needed...like a pre programmed tomahawk missile, constantly correcting right and left, the inner battle will get you there...sometimes to your regret, sometimes to your joy...Let Janus face the past and the future at the same time...You stay rooted in the present, my friend...Nice imagery, very thought provoking again...Thanks, Larry

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

Thanks Larry for your support and reading, even critiques of my works. I do appreciate your opinion. Yeah, you are right, If I were to have a crest I would have to add the yin and yang symbol to my coat of arms just to feel honest in its expression.

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DeBorrah K. Ogans 6 years ago

Jaggedfrost, Thought provoking! Hmmm...

It appears you are loosing a bit of sleep? I get the impression you are between two opinions, and they both have qualities you like and dislike?

The beauty of poetry is it can be quite abstract and the original intent is often only known to the author...

Thank you sharing, Peace & Blessings!

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

You are right about the perspectives although it seems my lot to keep both in balance and in perspective.

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Sa`ge 6 years ago from Barefoot Island

Jag, now i understand the bantering in that other work. LOL

To be gifted with muse is heaven but two or three, one can lose it pretty fast, haha I lost a year once. Only bits and pieces do I remember. Was a grand year though from what people tell me haha. You the commander there hehe, hold them reigns :D Your work is excellent. :D hugs :D

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Jaggedfrost 6 years ago Author

lol I lost two years but my wife didn't think it was so pleasant. They are now only voices that I understand as much as I understand my own. Keeping them straight keeps me sane.

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