Random Poetry, Poems, & Verse About Looking at Life From My Random Mind - Reflections of Me and Who I am

"Worthy of Reflection" From the collection of Walfrido Garcia,  At the Genesis Gallery, Hawaii
"Worthy of Reflection" From the collection of Walfrido Garcia, At the Genesis Gallery, Hawaii | Source

Reflection

Alone at the precipice

The wind blows cold

I'm looking down from above

On my weary heart

And ragged soul

Knowing the truths

Did they come to late?

Will I find that deceit

Has sealed my fate?

Who am I now?

Who was I then?

If I don't know now,

Will I know in the end?


Questions

Will anyone notice

When I'm not around?

When a heart shatters

Does it make a sound?

Can you love someone

Give all that you've got,

Still never finding

The love that you sought?

What do you do

When everything isn't enough?

Do you throw in the towel

Because the going got tough?

When you know in your heart

You love someone more than they love you,

Do you stay anyway,

Ignoring the truth?

Should you allow yourself to settle

Into something less?

Come to believe

You deserve less than the best?

Do you fade into the shadows

Until you cannot be found?

Still wondering if a breaking heart

Actually makes a sound?

Staying your course,

Knowing where you're bound,

Wondering all the time who will notice,

When I'm not around?

Because, Because, Because......
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Because

It awakens again

That searing pain,

To singe my heart

With burning flame.

It came tonight

To steal my dreams,

Reminding me

Nothings is ever as it seems.

With its razor tongue

Piercing talons and claws,

Ripping away at the peace

It's only reason because.

Because,

I forgot the lesson,

I began again to hope,

This is the reason my sanity

Now dangles from this precarious rope.

Because,

I listened to my heart,

Wanted so much to believe,

I am getting this slap in the face

I so very much deserve to receive.

For the countless times

I just didn't learn

I am getting the prize

I've so painstakingly have earned.

It came again tonight

Scarring my heart and soul,

Damaging half

So that I am not whole.

Never again will I......
Never again will I...... | Source
I don't want to be disposable!
I don't want to be disposable!

Disposable

I've grown tired of being

The disposable one,

So carelessly discarded

Pushed off to the side,

For everyone's sake

Ignoring the pain that I hide.

I've grown weary

Beneath my smile

Of total indifference

Of the games people play,

Of looking for self-worth

In the words they don't say.

I've exhausted my spirit

Giving until I am empty

Yet somehow giving again,

They take more than I offer

While I wait for life to begin

I've depleted my soul

And my courage,

My patience, my strength,

My now tattered heart,

Desperate for this family

Of which I'll never be a part.

I've worn out my faith

On this cross that I bear,

Sacrificing all that I have

All that was me,

Upon the altar of a dream

That just never could be.


Never Again

I've been here before

Though I've said, "never again."

My heart and my soul

Are jagged and torn,

My faith and ideals,

Are threadbare and worn.

There is no one who sees me

Out here in the dark,

There's no one who knows

The pain that I hide.

The days and the years

The tears that I cry.

Betrayal after betrayal,

When is enough truly enough?

Who will it be?

The one who decides,

Will it be you?

Or will it be me?


A Declaration Of Self

Who am I now?

Who was I back then?

Are they the same

From beginning to end?

Are they two separate beings

One innocent, one jaded,

By promises broken

Illusions now faded?

And what of you?

Faith and loyalty you swore,

When your honor is tested

You slide out the back door.

If it is true that I've changed

How dare you despair

At my life rearranged?

What gives you the right

To throw up your hands

Now that i will no longer

Jump to your commands?

Why is it now

You seem to find me so crucial

When you've said all along our allegiance

Was purely superficial?

Why do you believe

You can sit in judgement of me

When the weight of your own sin

Leaves you unable to see?

The venom you spew

Taints everything in your life,

So I ask you again,

What gives you the right?

I am who I am

Different of the same,

I've found my own voice,

I won't be part of your game!

I'll live my own life

By the rules that I've set,

By the things I believe,

Principles I cannot forget.

I will not apologize

For the things that are real,

For honor or for truth,

For the things that I feel.

For my understanding

Of things both wrong and right,

For ways that I've changed

Or battles I deem worthy to fight,

My decisions are all mine

My mistakes, they are too

This is my life to live

It doesn't belong to you!

© 2011 Kristen Burns-Darling

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Ruchira profile image

Ruchira 5 years ago from United States

Beautiful poems and heart rendering indeed :)

Voted up!!


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

All praise worthy! BECAUSE really hit home for me not so much the way I feel now but back when I was in an abusive relationship. I was convinced I deserved every bit of the pain. All touched my heart - very heartfelt writing.


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Dexter Yarbrough 5 years ago from United States

Great poetry! Each one touched my heart! Thank you so much for sharing.


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writer20 5 years ago from Southern Nevada

You are a very warm person writing these beautiful poems


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b. Malin 5 years ago

What a "Treat" for the eyes K. Burns, such Beautiful, and Heartfelt Words of Poetry.


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Thank you. Your poetry is intense and warms the heart. Thank you.

Cheers


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Ruchira - How very sweet of you to say so! These poems are a hodgepodge of my orphan poetry which literally spans decades, and was chosen randomly from amongst my various

journals, I am so glad that you enjoyed these pieces and I thank you for the generosity of your time, kindness, and comments, they are always welcome here and always appreciated!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@poohgranma -I am glad that you enjoyed them Sherry, they are really a hodgepodge assortment of pieces that span decades, which I randomly chose. On this page alone I have a poem that I wrote in 1991, another from 2002, and yet another from 1986... I have all of my journals going back to the very first one from fourth grade, and there is lots of poetry in them, so you can probably look forward to seeing more random pages from me. As always my friend, I am honored by your presence, your kindness, and your support...Thank you for all of it!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Dexter Yarbrogh - Thank you so much for the generosity of your time, your kind words, and your support, they are always welcomed and appreciated here! I too have had a peek at your work, and was not only impressed, but I am honored that someone of your caliber has such nice things to say about my poetry. I am looking forward to reading more by you, and am happy to say that I am now following you as well! Thanks again!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ writer120 -I am so happy that you enjoyed them, and thank you so much for your kindness, and for the generosity of your time, they and you are always welcome and appreciated here!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ b.Malin - It is always so nice to see your name pop up in my comments, and you always say the nicest things! These are really just a hodgepodge of poetry written across the decades and chosen rather randomly by me from random volumes of my journals. As I have every one of my journals since 1976 (4th grade) and as there is a plethora of poetry throughout them all, you can safely bet that you will be seeing a few more Random Poetry pages. Thank you, as always, for the generosity of your time, your kind words, and your comments, they are always welcomed and appreciated!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ always exploring - You are most welcome, and thank you so much for the generosity of your time and for your kind words, and for the follow, they are always welcome here, and always appreciated!


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Chatkath 5 years ago from California

Wow, K. each one better than the next. Stirring, heartfelt and genuine and I can feel each line.

Thanks for sharing!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

You are quite welcome Chatkath....and thank you for the generosity of your time and your comments! :-)


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota

Wow K.Burns-This is a wonderful compilation of great poetry. So much pain and sadness in the words which touched me deeply. Hit many buttons.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Minnetonka Twin - I am sorry that I made you sad!:( These are all random orphan poems that I pulled out of my various journals, some of them were written as far back as high school, I tried to group them so that there is some consistency in their subject matter...the next group will be happier, I promise! Thank you for the generosity of your time, and your kind comments, they are always welcome and appreciated here!


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

Wonderful heartfelt poetry. Your words had me totally enthralled. Thank you.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

Hi Kriss, lovely, beautiful poems. I sit in awe of your prose, so deep and heartfelt words. Thank you.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ acaetnna - I am so glad that you enjoyed them, Thank you so much for the generosity of your time and your kindness, they are always appreciated!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@thebluestar - You are quite welcome, I am glad that you enjoyed them, and thank-you for the generosity of your time, your kind words, and your support, they always mean so much to me, and they are always deeply appreciated!


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

"This is my life to live

It doesn't belong to you!'

There is a refreshing and candid voice to your poetry that is compelling, warms the heart, and is inspiring. Well done!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Genna East - Thank you so very much for the generosity of your time and kindness, it is always welcome and very much appreciated here.


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Sylvia's Thoughts 5 years ago from Southern California

Your poetry is beautiful. You have vented a lot. I think a lot of us can identify with what you have written.


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MysteriousOne 5 years ago

Very heart-felt piece! I think we can all relate to it in one way or another! Great job and voted up! Glad I stopped by and thank you for the following. I'll be right behind you! Thanks for sharing!


Aka Professor M 5 years ago

Every good writer takes from their own experiences & in doing so, presents a portrait that they allow others, to see. How these are received will tell the writer a few things that they need to know.

1/ Who their audience is.

2/ What they think of the subject matter.

3/ What they think of the author.

4/ If they should continue to write.

5/ Does anyone really care.

I am impressed with your technique and the intense passion that is dramatically displayed in the subjects that you chose, Kristen. The subject matter is very personal and commands the readers attention as it goes from a position of questioning to running a gamut of emotions which reveal the author as a person struggling to show an identity that is seeking answers which they need to be told.

You express the longing for truth and compassion to be returned as it is given. The Love you seek is that which you see as desired but at the same time out of reach.

The soul of the person appears to be restless and it doesn't understand why what has happened has been allowed to. The pain is real and is looking for both solace and guidance.

They are defiant and recognize that they have rights which demand real recognition. There is much that they wish to share and little by little they are doing so. Does anyone care? YES!

The responses are proof that those who have choen to comment are positive in their feelings about this work.

Kristen, this answers my parts 4 & 5 with a resounding yes on all counts.

I see talent, style and passion with a wealth of areas to draw from and years of experiences to relate tales that will keep your audience coming back for more!

Kristen Burns Darling You are a Poet! A very fine Poet at That. Thanks for following me and I will follow you

Regards Mike! ( Aka Professor M!) ;D


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Sylvia's Thoughts - Thank you so much for the generosity of your time, and for your comments here, they are always welcome and appreciated!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@Mysterious One - Thank you so much for the generosity of your time and your comments here, they are always welcomed and appreciated! This is a collection of orphan pieces that came from my journals and are spread over a wide range of years. I think that the earliest one is from high school, and the most recent from a year or two ago. I am glad that you enjoyed them, and you are very welcome for the follow. I only follow those who's work I truly like, and I really liked yours! Thanks again!


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Seeker7 5 years ago from Fife, Scotland

Very beautiful work and it is so easy to identify with what you have written. Excellent. Voted up + awesome.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Professor Mike - I apologize for the delay in response to your comment, my father has been ill, and caring for him has kept me away from my computer and from hub pages for sometime now. I thank you for the generosity of your time, and your very gracious comments, I am humbled by them. Once again, I apologize for the delay in response. Thank you again!

Kristen


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Seeker7 - I must again apologize for the delay in response to your comment, my father's illness and caring for him during his recovery have kept me away from both my computer and hp for several weeks now, I am glad that you enjoyed this hub, it was truly a compilation of "orphan poems" chosen somewhat randomly from my journals and literally span at least three different decades, (one of these was written in 1986, one in 2001, and another in 1991.) Thank you again for your patience, and for the generosity of your time and comments, for they are always both welcomed and appreciated! As my father's health continues to improve, and things return to normal, I am looking forward to getting back to hp and catching up on all the great hubs I know that I am missing out on.

Thanks again!

Kristen


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Troyangeluk 3 years ago from UK

beautiful work, Ive liked this up keep writing :)


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K. Burns Darling 3 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@Troyangeluk - Thank you so much for the generosity of your time and your comments, they are both welcomed and deeply appreciated.

Kristen


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Anna Haven 2 years ago from Scotland

I see from the comments that your poems spanned over many years. They all have the commonality of powerful emotions and being very expressive; nicely penned.


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K. Burns Darling 2 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@ Anna Haven, Unlike anything else that I write, poetry comes from somewhere deep inside of me and usually stems from something that I am experiencing, or something that is deeply affecting me at the moment. Thank you so much for the generosity of your time and your kind words, they are both welcomed and deeply appreciated..

Kristen


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musing randoms 20 months ago from In the mist that exists between sanity and having completely lost it

Having spent the last hour or so reading some of your works I am truly blown away with the way you weave your words and how each piece tells a story that can be realted to. The gift of the written word is indeed precious and moreso when the words are from within the writer .... thankyou


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K. Burns Darling 19 months ago from Orange County, California Author

@musing randoms, Thank you so much for the generosity of your kind words. they are both welcomed and deeply appreciated.

Kristen

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