"A Dream of a Past that Never Was"

I dreamt of him last night.
Again, he invaded my dreams.
Why is this person of my past
entering my most fragile of thoughts,
of moments so serene,
so special,
so rare?
How does he dare?

Memories I never had before.
Places I've never been.
A kiss that never took place.
But so clearly,
I can see his face.
Why is this happening?
I'm quite happy with who I am with.
I'm quite in love.
Yet I dream of a past,
that never was.

Perhaps its just a fantasy.
Perhaps its nothing more.
My subconscious making up a longing
of a friend long gone.
Harmless, I'm sure.
Were we even really friends?
I dont really remember.
There was always an attraction of me to him,
but I'm sure the feelings were never returned.
A childhood, school girl crush,
nothing more.
Nothing lost, nothing earned.

But this wasn't the first time,
it happened a long time ago,
a couple times before.
Random figments of my imagination running wild,
while I sleep the night away.
Strange illusions in my head,
dreams dancing 'til light of day,
or alarm sound ringing in my ear.
Yet the memory of it stays,
when so many times I fail to dream,
or perhaps I just dont remember if I do.
I remember so little, so few.
Why do I remember him?
A simple boy of my youth,
now a simple man,
with a child that looks just like him,
with no connection, no ties to me,
except for when we were in elementary school.

© Copyright NMJ 2011

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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

A absolutly Charming memory of an innocent curiosity.;)

Johnny Love 5 years ago

Finding dreams so lovely I must say. Funny how images control our thoughts never thought of. falling up to a heavenly hell so beautiful. Up and beautiful

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Bumpsysmum 5 years ago from Cambridgeshire

Brought back memories. I have often drifted back and wondered about people in my past, lovely food for thought here :-)

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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

thank you, you guys are awesome. :)

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DarkDisOrder 5 years ago from B.A.D. (Beyond All Dimensions)

How does he dare? Oh yeah, i dare, Nikki, i dare, lol..

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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana Author

but i dont know you from my past lol...or do i?? hmm.

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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

Wow - awesome!

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