A House Of Dreams

A Touch Of Magic

Today was the day

Bitter Sweet

My mothers house was sold

I really wanted to keep it

No matter what I tried it didn't change the outcome

The new owner passed papers at ten o'clock today

Then I got to thinking

Why do I love the home I grew up in so much

For the past two years I have spent much time cleaning it out

A flood of memories have rushed in

Mostly good and a few bad ones to keep things balanced

I have taken the time to compare my childhood and my life now

How I have grown

What I didn't know then but know now

In my mind I have done a full circle

I call it a loop to loop

Where I say things that made mom and dads home so special

With both parents gone

I look at their home now

Needing some tender loving care

It is showing it's age

My eyes can not see

I am blocked by the beauty hidden under the old coat of paint that is peeling off

The front stairs that have to be fixed

The rose bush that I trimmed because it became over grown

I travel back in my mind

Reliving all that I once had

Then came back to todays date and time

I seem to over look the spider that found it's way out of the cold

A cob web that I walked into that caught me by surprise

The old refrigerator that is now empty

That use to be full of food for the week

The freezer that use to carry the extra ice cream and enough meat for the month

My moms cleaners stacked high in the corner

Ready and waiting for the next job and task to do

How could I not see the front walk way that had a small rise

If you are not careful you could trip

The morning glory's that lined the fence

Have now traveled to far

Taking over the grass in the yard

The best neighbors anyone could want

Always looking out for you

Offering a helping hand when you needed it the most

Then there was the chain link fence that still had the dent from an old car accident when I was small

The roof was recently replaced five years back and the furnace was almost new

The plumbing is old and needs to be updated

The house is small and cozy

Not anymore

It is silent and cold in the winter from the heat turned down low

Too hot in the summer from being closed up all day

There is our tree in the back yard and years ago we had a screen house

Off to the side there was our shed

That now has a few empty cabinets and the old air conditioners out of date

We use to have a little garden on the side of the house

With tomatoes and string beans

Now filled with really tall weeds

The birds use to hang on the wires under the corner of the house

My mom would feed them every morning

In the winter the squirrels would try to take their suet hanging on the fence

My moms washer and dryer left empty

For years I heard the washer going every day

Now you see how I blended my past

Seeing what I wanted to see

So my memories would last

Now let me move ahead two years

The new owner loved something about the house

It had charm

He kept some things and changed the rest to make it his new home

Fixing things that needed to be fixed

Coming home from a hard days work

Finding comfort and a great place to relax

Maybe he will paint every room

Fill all the beautiful wooden cabinets in the kitchen with food

Changing the old light in the kitchen

That I never liked

New kitchen faucets and the bathroom done over

A modern flat screen t.v.

Taking out the drafty windows in my old bedroom

Replacing them with a sliding glass door that leads out to a back deck

I can't wait to see

How he makes his home grand

I use to think

Maybe take down the front fence and put in a gravel driveway

This way you can drive right out in the street

In the winter the plow always plowed us in

I can see good times once again fill every room

With new memories and a magic that only you could bring

So as I watch and discover a new generation

Wishing you a world of happiness in the future

Begin by making this rainy day go away



Comments 9 comments

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snakeslane 23 months ago from Canada

Hello Dream On. how lovingly and with great care you share your dilemma. I wonder all the time about the importance of memories and how they shape who we are, and how we shape who we are through our selected memories. Sometimes I just want to say Stop! and read a book.


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DREAM ON 23 months ago Author

snakeslane I am glad I had the past two years to deal with my moms passing and what to do with all her things and the house I called my home. It is not easy to deal with emotions and thoughts that get jumbled in my head. I could go to work and forget but it was not long before my past and present collide. I can't hide. Dealing with things that some people do so easily. I pushed forward searching for answers. My biggest fear is if I made the wrong choice there is no going back no do over. Thank you for helping me move ahead and appreciate all I have had before. Have a wonderful night.


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Sweets21 23 months ago

This was absolutely a beautiful read! It brought me back to a time that I sometimes forget is there. I remember my childhood home, I remember the day we moved. Before that I thought we would live there forever. My heart aches to be there again with my mom and sisters, my neighbors who were more like family but has since drifted apart because of the move. This hub rings bittersweet for me. It brings with it so many good memories I just wish sometimes I could live in that place again, just for a little while.

Thanks for the amazing read, and the good memories it brought with it!


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snakeslane 23 months ago from Canada

Thank you Dream On. I was immediately drawn to your story because it is so similar to my own experience with losing my Mother, and all the difficult moments around that loss. It is truly life changing, and no we can't go back and do it over...


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DREAM ON 23 months ago Author

Sweets21 As the first day goes by the thoughts in my head are fleeting.I know all I have to do is think of all the good times and they can play like a video as long and often in my head. Each time making me feel at ease and peaceful. Seeing you share your thoughts and memories helps me with mine. To let these thoughts go would be an injustice and down right sad. In time all things change. We may not see it or feel it because it happens so slowly. It is the only way we grow. snakeslane You never realize what people go through until you experience it yourself. In time the hurt will heal. The pain will disappear. New joys will replace the sad times. Best of all I feel better reading each of your comments and putting all things in a different perspective. Thank you both for helping me understand what I love and what I always will cherish. Pleasant dreams with all the great times dancing non stop in our heads.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 23 months ago from Riga, Latvia

Such wonderful sentiments and memories. I read and walked through the house with you. I always wished there was a family home to return to but we always lived in apartments. However I can clearly remember each and every apartment and walk through those rooms filled with so much love even today. Passing this on.


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DREAM ON 23 months ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee It has been one week and I have to be o.k. with it. I am happy someone will enjoy my childhood home and turn it around to make it exciting and fun. Living life the way it should be. Making new memories and leaving their own history. I am learning to move forward and accepting change as a good thing. Thank you so much for reading and sharing. It means so much to me.


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shanmarie 18 months ago from Texas

How bittersweeet, but beautiful and full of nostalgia.


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DREAM ON 18 months ago Author

shanmarie I often think how things could of different. Then I focus on the now. Keeping busy and thinking how to make today special. Thank you for reading and commenting.

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