A Memory Created

When I first saw you I noticed your beautiful eyes

You said they were contacts there’s much more (sighs)

Then the attraction fell right through the cracks

There was something about me that I simply lacked

I wasn’t your type and you kept passing

I wasn’t repping the superficial or classing

I took a look in the mirror and saw an old image

In my head I went play by play with scrimmage

Where do I start with my looks my heart or my mind?

But I was the nicest I thought a woman so kind

I was missing something that everyone else had

A beautiful body and some fake a** boobies, Sad

So I took a stand and changed my appearance

Gave myself a new look boy did I get clearance

Many say I look like a star, rock a new style so fierce

A walk down the street the looks pierce

When you saw me again you couldn’t help but stare

A feeling came over me honestly quite the scare

Afraid of the rejection I might endure

Afraid of imperfection and a feeling of insecure

We sat again side by side but it was different from the last

I guess you seen a new me someone not from the past

I opened up to you and allowed you in afraid of what might be

But this chance I will take if you take the ride with me

The ride we took together was more than perfect

You left an everlasting impression with special effects

This feeling I was afraid of knowing that this would be

Something that I knew I would fall into glee

Only time will tell what this might grow into

All I know is that you got me hooked on you

I tried not to show you my loving side

Not knowing if with me you’d take a life ride

Im taking it with out a doubt in my mind

That a feeling for me you will be sure to find

It may have not been right from the get

But all I ask is if tired you grow please dont forget

Our memory created that other night

When you welcomed me into your sight


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b. Malin 5 years ago

HE sounds so Superfishal...He really doesn't deserve YOU. But, Good luck my Beautiful Friend!


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

B., At first it seemed that way which kinda turned my head the other way but he is showing me a different side of him that I never thought he possesd. But I still have that wall n guard up ya know ;) thanks B.....

smiles :)

bella


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writer20 5 years ago from Southern Nevada

We all know men can be difficult, I think they are usually attached to their mothers. This was my ex, he never left her. But, I found one so unattached that it took sometime to find his hiding love.Oh! yes I did.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

Writer20, Thank you for stopping by n you may be right I believe so :)

bella


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Enigmatic Me 5 years ago from East Coast Canada

I think freudian analysis aside, we all have many sides to us. Happenstance and chance are sometimes the only things in life that make a moment, or take it away from us. Timing in ones life can depreciate a meeting, make us less attracted, but, its how the other feels when viewed. If I felt old when I met a person - maybe I portrayed that to them... meaning I was not myself, so... they really didn't meet me... bella, you've been writing a lot about you, how you are, what you want to be like, how you are growing despite other's judgements on and about you. IF now 'he' is interested... take heart that its more about your portrayal of that in how you are, not how you look.

Guys don't only think beauty is skin deep...we've developed deep skin over times of not being credited with knowing ourselves, nor with seeing and appreciating beauty when we see it.

People see us when we allow them to.... we hide behind what we think we know and then surprise ourselves when someone sees us through the murky, foggy haze we have created.

The more you cherish yourself.. the less trouble you will have with others cherishing you... be the change. As likely you have been.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

I think you may be right but it wasn't only for him that I felt I needed a change I needed change from within once I understood that I was bitter and reflected that inner bitterness so I was just a mess when I met him and I was a bit over weight which I knew but it was me that wanted the change for myself so once I started carring about myself my whole demeanor changed with it which radiated ta da inner beauty :) Thanks a bunch for pointing out facts that I needed to read :)

bella


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Enigmatic Me 5 years ago from East Coast Canada

Change is always for us...even if prompted by temptation of others... ;)


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

:) Honestly I love change so much now before I was afraid of it but I saw what happiness it reveals....

bella


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

This one had my heart beating faster and other parts of me throbbing.....I mean that! This is so beautiful, I really hope it's real.


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California Author

I hope so too I tend to over analyze it and think to much into it then I get hurt because I get caught up IDK I confuse myself instead of letting things happen on their own... But thanks for the visit as always Sweet Lady CAr.

bella


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

He most definitely doesn't deserve you - you know what I think!! Great poetic words as always!


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Nikkij504gurl 5 years ago from Louisiana

hmm if i guy cant like you or give you a chance for who you are then you shouldnt change for him. if you want a change do it for yourself. I wouldnt have dated him after changing my appearance I would let him feel sorry for his loss. cuz it is his loss. he shoulda looked beyond materialistic things and wanted you for you, and you are a beautiful woman no matter what.


JadedLove 5 years ago

I used to view such things as,"just the way things are". Now I see that if I am not accepted for who and what I am, I would move on. I have been blessed with what I have in love, and she knows me in ways nobody else could. She loves me for all of my imperfections. I am feeling a little weepy now. Sorry. Up and across your buttons...

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