A Message To My Mom

I miss you mom.
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I caught myself dialing your number today.

I just wanted to say hello.

It’s been a while since I’ve heard your voice.

I miss our little chats about nothing in particular.

They seemed so unnecessary, and sometimes even a bother when my days were hectic.

I wish I hadn’t taken them for granted now, wish I had not been annoyed by those interruptions.

I got on Facebook this morning, like I do every day.

It told me that I haven’t been in touch with you for a while; that I should send you a message.

How I wish I could!

I miss our little IM chats in the afternoons, when we talked about silly things.

The kind of flowers you bought to put in your flower beds, the crazy weather.

What you were planning to cook for dinner which, was always something yummy sounding.

The various projects you were busy with, you were never still for long.

I pulled your picture up on my computer and sat – looking at your image, remembering the many things we’ve done together, places we’ve gone throughout the years.

I realized that those times are gone now – gone forever, but the memories still linger.

I sat alone, looking at your picture, wishing I could call, or IM, or send you a message – because I just want to tell you – I miss you mom.

 

To Billie, my surrogate mother, my friend, and a beautiful person.

                                       I miss you very much,

                  but I know Heaven is blessed to have you there.

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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California

This made me cry omg, I am sorry for your loss. I do not know what I will do when my mom passes. I bet this was kinda difficult to write. Thank you for sharing.

smiles :)


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you for reading and commenting. I hope you take from this the desire to call your own mom and tell her you love her. No one is promised tomorrow.


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Minnetonka Twin 5 years ago from Minnesota

You knocked me out with this beautiful piece of writing. I know how it feels to go dial the number. I still go to call my dad at night and it's been 12 years now. I don't do it as often as I did in the first few years but I still forget at times. Our love for loved ones will always remain with us. God Bless you dear


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

It has been just a little over a month since she passed away. Some days it seems like it's just a bad joke, other days it becomes almost unbearable. Some days I'm just lonely without hearing from her.

Thanks for stopping by Minnetonka Twin, It's nice to have the comfort of someone who knows.


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epigramman 5 years ago

...this is a poetic masterpiece my friend - mainly because it comes from 'you' and your memory of your 'mum' - but also because it does what great writing should do - and it touches something very deep inside of me - because my mum was my best friend - and I wish she were here for me to say it (although lucky for both of us - she did hear that many many times )


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thanks for such kind words Colin.

I am so happy that you were able to let your mother know how much she meant to you while she was still living. We should never take those we love for granted, but sadly, we do.


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Big Brother 5 years ago from Earth

I write this comment and i will call my mum. Sorry for your loss...

Thanks a lot my friend.

All vote up!!!

Alexander the Macedon / Greece


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you Big Brother. So glad that you were inspired to call your mum. And thanks for the vote up.


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VividImage 5 years ago from Chandler, Arizona

Your words touched my soul. I cannot imagine not having my mother around - yet she was nearly taken from us in late November last year when she was broadsided by a Hummer H3. This is a very intimate "picture in time". Thank you for opening up to share your pain and grief with us. God bless you......


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Vividimage,

Thank you for such kind comments, and for becoming a follower. I am happy to hear that your mother is still with you, despite such a horrible accident. I'm sure the love and care of her son helps her enormously as she recovers.


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daydreamer13 5 years ago

This is so touching! I'm sure she heard you. She always will.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you daydreamer13,

I know she is, and always will be, in my heart.


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Moment in Time 5 years ago

I am so sorry for your loss. My mother in law passed away this past September and it is so true that you never know what you have until its gone. May your memories give you comfort.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you for such kind words.


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daywriter 5 years ago from USA

I do not know you and I do know you because we have a point in common, a common ground - a place where we can talk about our feelings and about the love for someone we lost and we are longing for. Your writing is beautiful as it comes straigh from your heart not just from your pen. I relate to your loss I am sorry it happened. Hope by Grace will get the strenght to keep going on your life/journey doing exactly what your sweet mom would like you to do. Many Blessings and much love. xxxx


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

daywriter,

You have shared such profound words here. Thank you for your sympathy and encouragement.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

kethyjewel,

I cannot, and will not forget my mom. Although, this is a difficult and sad time, it is part of the normal grieving process, and a way I remember and honor her. She was such an important part of my life, and what she deposited within me through her kindness and friendship, molded me into the person I am today.

I will indeed continue on in life, and I hope that all that I do can reflect the beauty she added to it.


awesome games 5 years ago

It’s been a while since I’ve heard your voice.


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Tammy Favata 5 years ago

I lost my Mom to Cancer a year and a half ago. This hub hit a nerve. Well done.


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pratoocool 5 years ago

Real emotional and heart crying hub...


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

awesome games - Sometimes the responsibilities of life keep us from the things we long to do. I am still here, keep coming back, I do promise more.

Tammy - I am so sorry for your loss. It is such a blow when we lose a parent, and for you to lose her in such a way is most difficult. Although my mom did not die of cancer, I can understand the depth of your grief. I have lost many family members and friends to the monster, which is why I have been very involved with Relay for Life for the past ten years. It has been a great way to heal. May you find solace and peace, and keep the memories of your mother alive in your heart.

pratoocool - Thank you for the read and commenting.


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smackins1974 5 years ago from UK

What a lovely hub, sorry for your loss.

Sarah


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you smackins, for both your sentiment and compliment.


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nomesnose 5 years ago from Los Angeles, California

beautiful


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you nomesnose, your comment is most appreciated.


texas555 5 years ago

such kind words wooow. I do not know what I will do when my mom passes, i can't imagine that.

Thank you for opening up to share your pain and grief with us. God bless you


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Thank you texas, I hope you will not have to find out for a very, very long time.


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corinnek 5 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

beautiful poem. I lost my mom in October of last year. We weren't super close, but I still find myself wanting to tell her things at times. I still talk to her all the time, in my head, and out loud. I talk to her about how she made me feel, whether those feelings were good or bad. I ask her to watch over my kids. I just had a baby 2 weeks ago, and I know she was so excited to have another grandchild, and it hurts that he will never get to meet her. But I know she's watching him from heaven. She's my kids' personal guardian angel.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

corinnek,

I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is a difficult thing, despite how close we are to them. I am quite sure your mother looks down on your baby and is indeed watching over him. As long as her memory is alive in your heart, she will be with you.


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GeorgeBrain 5 years ago from United States

A fox has slipped into my yard, but the little prince never followed. This cruel absence is felt as a Winter of Vivaldi down to my genes, and it bangs at the door of my elated freedom with an inconsolable yearning. Sometimes I feel like I am the drawing of an elephant that has been swallowed by the boa of history, that people confuse with a hat.


hardrub 5 years ago

im sorry for your loss...=(

but I want to thank you for making me realize that im lucky having my mom around me until this day of my life.... don't worry i know shes in good hands now with our God almighty....=)


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

hardrub,

Thank you for your kind and supportive words.

God Bless.


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Kamalesh050 5 years ago from Sahaganj, Dist. Hooghly, West Bengal, India

I have no words to console you. I am so sorry for your loss and I know how it feels like. May God be with you always and of course your mom is blessing you from Heaven and asking you not to cry.

Its a real emotional hub and written so nicely.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

Kamalesh050, Thank you for such kind words.

More often than not, it's not what is said, it is simply knowing that someone cares enough to reach out when it's needed most.


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Kathleen Cochran 5 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

I so saw myself in your Hub. They aren't gone - they are just out of reach. Blessings.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

And yet, Kathleen, we have hope that one day we will be reunited with them.

Thanks for stopping by.


riza 5 years ago

i lost my nanay in complicated deseas on july 01, 2009. i hope she will happy now in heaven. i love you nanay. we miss u.


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miss_jkim 5 years ago Author

I am sorry for your loss riza. May the memories of your nanay be a continual comfort to you.


JOHN 4 years ago

MMMM ILOVE YOU ALL


paupe chute 4 years ago

it's true mom,,,,,,


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FreezeFrame34 4 years ago from Charleston SC

Very beautifully written. Sorry for your loss, but glad you could share and touch others' lives. I live far away from my mother and I wish I could spend more time with her before it's too late!


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miss_jkim 4 years ago Author

Even a phone call is a precious moment with those we love. We don't realize how important they are until the phone is silent. Give her a call FreezeFrame34, you'll be glad you did.


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millsdelight1280 4 years ago from Hampton, VA

This poem almost bought a tear to my eye. Although my mom gets on my nerves being the way she is; she is still my mom and I do love her. I'm sure that your mom is smiling down from heaven right now & that she's proud of you.


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miss_jkim 4 years ago Author

Thank you millsdelight1280. Cherish the time you have with your mother as there is no guarantee as to how long they will be with us. The memories I have of my mom bring me great comfort.


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Joy56 4 years ago

that was beautiful, no one can ever take the place of our mum...... sorry for your loss


love you mom u r th one who undrstnd me 3 years ago

I love you maaa


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miss_jkim 3 years ago Author

Moms are special, they listen without judgment, hug without holding back, and love beyond all the mistakes and sorrow they have endured.

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