A Missive to My Grandfather, Narsingh Bahadur Kaura

My Grandfather, Narsingh Bahadur Kaura 24.3.1927-29.4.2011
My Grandfather, Narsingh Bahadur Kaura 24.3.1927-29.4.2011
Pita ji's L.L.B. degree
Pita ji's L.L.B. degree

“What is this life if, full of care, We have no time to stand and stare?” – W.H. Davies

Dear Pita ji,

There has never been a single day when I forgot to utter “Pita ji” or forgot to see your portrait while waking up in the morning. Today was a peculiar day. I know it has been over four years since you left to God’s abode, but I still feel your presence at times. I don’t allow anyone to open your wardrobe except your granddaughter. I’m a bit selfish, right? Well, what can I do? Your fragrance still resides in that wardrobe and I do not want it to fade away. Some of your tailor-made suits and dhotis are still there.

I really missed you today as your favourite Hindi song, ‘Gham diye mustaqil…’ was being played in the television. I couldn’t resist myself. So I made my way to your cupboard and saw your accessories calmly sitting there. I saw your spectacles… your diary… your accolades in law and politics and some old photographs. It abruptly pulled me to a different world as I traversed the flood of memories. I miss your robust voice, your presence and your aristocratic personality. Your dastaar, raftaar, guftaar (way of dressing, way of walking and way of talking) is unparalleled. Whilst I endeavour to do any task, I follow your principles and teachings. Whilst I face any challenge or fear, I hear your voice deep in my Heart, reminding me to stand up again and get ready for the race.

The humanitarian nature, excellence and valiance you had carried throughout your life stands in my mind as the quintessence of an indomitable warrior. I feel so fortunate that I was able to be with you during your last days. You have been a bit strict throughout your life, but the last days of your life introduced me with a new friend – the child inside you. I have enfolded those Golden memories in my Heart. Thank you for teaching me that life should be lived on our own set of principles, sweat and tears, because others’ shoulders are only needed for coffins to bear.

I come across many people who gladly remember your name till date. It widens my Heart with pride. I can proudly lift my head up and salute to your demeanour in the legal profession as a seasoned lawyer of Jalandhar, Punjab, India, and as a great human being overall. Your adages… your gestures… your postures… were remarkable! Sometimes, Dad and I have a competition that who would best mimic you, and we both end up losing. There was neither one before you nor one after you. You were the King of our Hearts! How I wish today you were here with us! There are times when I see your reflection in Dad. Good were those days… watching old Hindi cinema movies, listening to K.L Saigal ji’s songs, having long discussion of cases, Shakespeare, proverbs and phrases! I treasure our journey. My reverence to you is evergreen. Cheers!

I love you very much. I still feel like you’ll come out of the photo-frame and give us a hug. One day, I will make you proud. One day…

Your Loving Granddaughter,

Surabhi Kaura

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Frank Atanacio 11 months ago from Shelton

what a wonderful dedication ...


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Jodah 11 months ago from Queensland Australia

A lovely dedication to your Grandad. Well done Surabhi.


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Surabhi Kaura 11 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Frank,

Hello! Nice to meet you here. I appreciate your kind feedback. Much thanks.

Jodah,

Actually I wanted to pay him a tribute from a long time. So I though why not today :)

He has been my inspiration and my role model. So whenever I feel blue, I turn to his picture and it provides me immense tranquility. I… I miss him. Oh well… thank you for your kind sentiment. I appreciate it. Love and Peace.


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swalia 11 months ago

A lovely tribute to your grand father! I am sure he would really have been proud of his beautiful and talented grand daughter.


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Missy Smith 11 months ago from Florida

Such a great and loving dedication to your grandfather. So now I see whose footsteps you follow Surabhi. I remember you saying you were studying a law profession. I know you will make your grandfather proud. I know you do make your grandfather proud. He is your guardian angel after all. That is evident in this dedication. Beautiful!!


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Surabhi Kaura 11 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Shaloo,

Thank you very much. I have a lot to learn. I am just beginning to grasp how this world works. He was a ray of Light to me. I cherish the time we had spent together. He passed away at the age of 85 and he lived like a King. He was very close to my heart, so it is natural for me to miss him. I appreciate your visit here. I never allow ego to eneter into my Heart.

This is what I have learned from my Pita ji:

When you fall, learn to crawl. When you crawl, learn to stumble. When you stumble, learn to walk. When you walk, learn to run. It's part and parcel of our natural growth cycle. When you run and reach to the peak of success, learn to be HUMBLE. Do not forget to uplift others at the time of their adversities. Do not forget your yesterday. You were once in the same boat. It is far more important to understand than to be understood. Integrity is your asset at the time of failure and success. Jai Bhole.

Missy,

I loved your sweet comment. Yes, I am a law graduate now, but still I am not even near to his robust attitude (ha ha). I am a soft-hearted person in the legal profession, which could be my weakness. I am working on it right now to turn it into my strength. My Grandfather was a highly qualified and a renowned personality backhome, and yet his humbleness was above all. Thank you for dropping by, my dear friend :)


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manatita44 11 months ago from london

My Sweet Surabhi,

A most beautiful tribute to your grandfather, and yes, he will be most proud of you. I had so many beautiful memories with mines, and in his own quiet way, he taught me a lot!

Your Hub is so touching, so heart-felt, and it made me a little sad to know that perhaps you were a bit lonely. Stay happy!

Spirituality is not only my Source but it colours my every move, and so when I speak of 'strength', I refer to an inner fortitude that comes from the Divine - A confidence and character, which not only reflects the personality, but guides us in our actions, towards an ever-increasing wholeness and unshakable faith in all we do.

I am always here, my Beloved. Hari Om!


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Surabhi Kaura 11 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Thank you, Manatita for your insightful feedback. Humans are bound to flow with emotions, be it happy or sad. After all, both are inevitable and necessary for our psychological growth.

I do not always have a tender Heart. There are times when I’m really hard from inside. It is wise to weigh thoughts when commencing any action, yes. Lord Shiva is often known of his innocence, but at the same time, he is also known of his third eye. It is obvious and nostalgic when it comes to remembering our near and dear ones. I am always happy to have friends like you :) Cheers and lots of love. Good night.


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swalia 11 months ago

You are really blessed to have spent so much time with your grandfather. I used to spend only a few days during the summer vacations with my grandparents.


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manatita44 11 months ago from london

Beloved,

I feel that it is so easy to tell of what we know. The beauty of life lies in dreaming of what we are meant to BE; to nurture our longing like kernels; finally taking wings like the butterfly, to fly into the realm of peerless Delight. A very, very HAPPY CHRISTMAS this day. Hugs.


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Surabhi Kaura 11 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Shaloo,

Thank you, my dear. I appreciate it. Merry Christmas! I'm heading out soon with my family for a quality time. Enjoy this festive season!

Manatita,

Thank you so much. A very, very Happy Christmas to you as well, and wishing you a great 2016 ahead. Hugs.


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word55 11 months ago from Chicago

Hi Surabhi, this is quite an honor and tribute to your grandfather. What he has instilled in you may never be forgotten. The love he granted you shall never rotten. May his spirit live on.. through the spirit in you, may you sing his song as you live and do... Happy Holidays!


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Surabhi Kaura 11 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Thank you, dear Al. I see a remarkable poet in you. Beautiful poetic feedback. Bring that marvellous poet back to HubPages! Happy Holidays to you and your family. Lots of Love.


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shprd74 11 months ago from Bangalore

Surabhi,

beautiful dedication.

It is nice to know about your grandfather and your love and respect for him.

You have written it very interesting too, like a short story. Keep going surabhi.

- Hari


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Surabhi Kaura 11 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Thank you, Hari bhai. I appreciate it! Much Joy and Peace to you.


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billybuc 9 months ago from Olympia, WA

A beautiful tribute to a person who obviously had a great impact on you. Lovely work...I could feel the emotion and love in every word.


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Surabhi Kaura 9 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Thank you, Billy Sir. You have become my inspiration. I feel like writing fictions too :) I really admire you, Sir. I appreciate your visit here. This hub is very close to my Heart. Lots of Love. Stay blessed.


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Ashish Dadgaa 3 months ago from India

One granddaughter has crafted this dedication from a heart with all innocence and pure heart. I can imagine him from your eye. I am sure he was a great man. Your relation and love towards his expressed through beautiful gold worlds. My salute to Mr. Narsingh Bahadur Kaura with lots of love and respect.


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Jodah 3 months ago from Queensland Australia

This is a wonderful tgribute to your beloved grandfather, Surabhi. Just like the one to your dad, it made me feel as though I had met him. Well done my dear.


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manatita44 3 months ago from london

A very touching and devotional letter. So much of life is meant to be lived the way you epitomise it! We forget, my Darling Japanese Doll, we forget. In this busy world of strife and rivalry; of isolation from the inner kite flying to infinitude, we sway like the zephyrs, tempted by the alchemy of modern consumerism.

There is so much beauty in your reminiscences! Jai Sri Krishna! Jai Jesus Christ! Jai Surabhi! Jai Prabhu! Jai to our Absolute Beloved Supreme!


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Surabhi Kaura 3 months ago from Toronto, Canada Author

Whoa! My Goodness. All three of you lovely gentlemen have graced this hub. Thank you for visiting.

Ashish, my Brother. I am glad that you came and read about Pitaji ji. I will send you the article that you have requested over the email once I am back to Toronto. You already know my Dear Jodah. So that’s good. Now that you have visited this hub, I would like to introduce you with Manatita. He is my Acharaya ji. You will get to learn a lot by reading his poetries. Enjoy! And, thanks once again for your gracious feedback. Pita ji would have loved you had been here with us. Blessings, Dear One.

Jodah, my Sweet. I am in Alberta on a family vacation. I will check your hub soon. Internet is not strong here. Thank you. I am glad that you came once again. You loving sentiments are acknowledged. I appreciate it. Sending you my Heart of Love on this rainy day. (smile). Hey… I made a lovely sketch on my way to the park. 1:49 pm. Playing with my nephews. I love kids. God’s grace.

Manatita, my Sweet Melody! Thanks for coming once again. You know, I have kept every item that belonged to my Pita ji… even his gift-wraps. I never threw them away. Call it love or sweet insanity, but that is how I am. (smile). When I love, I love completely. You leave very thought provoking feedbacks, as usual. My pranaams to you, Acharaya ji. How I love you! Enjoy your time in NY! Om Shanti!

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