A New Year And The Old Me

Every year comes and goes and I make the same promises to become a new me

My old habits don't take long to resurface and they remind me they are not going away

New years resolution Phooey !!!

Well sometimes if I am lucky

I last a few months before I go back to the old me

I have the whole year to look back and wonder why?

I thought it through and I believed I could do it

January will come soon enough and I can try again

Then I say to myself secretly so that no one can hear

I lasted better than the year before where after a few days I crumbled

Now that should  make me feel better

Who am I kidding

No I don't feel any better I feel worse

Because I have the habit of excepting less and that is one of my old habits I have been trying to get rid of

I want to be different

I want this year to be different

I want to be better than I was last year

Just trying my best doesn't cut it

It is not good enough

I need more

Nobody cares how many times you quit smoking or drinking

All they know is you still do it

What if the problem you have is not a physical one

But a mental one

One that challanges your inner soul to do more

To accomplish things that make you proud

To follow your true desire and find the dreams that hide deep inside

That have been begging to explore the world that you see

Each day you talk about your dreams but that is only one small step and making it a reality

Other people listen with little interest or concern

You put every waking moment in what you believe is going to make the difference in your life

Other people don't affect your plan of action

Because they have their own plan and path to follow

How do we find the same people that want the same things we want

One that makes life easier for others and happier for us

We start with an idea and carry it to fruition

I am well aware that things take time

I have been patient

I have four decades under my belt

I have put my spirit and drive on center stage for all to see

I continue to reach into my Christmas stocking

Pulling out the same dreams

As other people have different wants and wishes

My dreams are the same maybe a little bit older

They have not changed as I dust them off

I don't do what others do and put their stocking away until next year

I keep mine hanging proud on my bookcase for all to see

Until why wife says put it away

No one keeps a stocking out all year long

This will be my year

When all my dreams explode

They come alive and make my life enchanting

Every day I feel the pleasure of what it is to treasure

A thought that nobody has thought

An idea that is special and unique

One that has purpose and great potential

For many people to enjoy all its benefits and rewards

I also can be pleased with what I have accompished because of all my hardwork and effort

Seeing my inner soul dance among the dancers who have made life fascinating and real

I search for those who have a passion that they know and love

To find new ways of making their dreams possible

Starting fresh from an old idea that has to much character to be put to rest

Then I looked back at many other years and I have done the same thing

So how can this year be different if so many other years I fell short

I think it is time to make ammends with my old habits and maybe they are not that bad

I could be alot worse

I have to focus on the things that I can change

So I make a new list

My good and bad habits

Then this list of things combined will carry me forward

To new heights and direction

I welcome all the help that makes success the secret that has alluded me for years