A Poor Mother's Heart - A poem, A plea for hope

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A mother facing foreclosure of her home confesses her fears in a rhyme....

Treading Water

It seems I've spent most of my life just treading water.
My teenage years I thought were madness, but grownup life is harder.
Though I know that I can swim these waters I am in
The tide this time is stronger than I have ever been.
Becoming a wife and mother of two are my great accomplishments thus far
Yet now as trials come my way, there is more of my heart to harbor

It is now not about how I will survive this world,
but how I will maintain the livelihood of this little boy and girl.
These other lives depend on me and the pressure can be tough
I know I need not be perfect, but because I'm not, it's rough
Can they see the pain in my eyes? Do they feel my fears?
All I can do is to advert their gazes when my eyes are filled with tears.

I will not let them see me, weak and full of disrepair
I cannot let them see me give in to the fear that is there
All I want to do is get it right the first go round. avoiding all the strife
Instead of living in the shoulda, woulda, coulda - (but didn't) - kind of life
Of course all the answers are clear as crystal in retrospect
it's the moving forward from here that I just cannot seem to get


Time is up and I am scared. Terrified of a future I cannot see
I pray for strength to accept that fate - what is meant to be
I pray for answers. I pray for hope. I pray God has one last trick up His sleeve
I pray for his forgiveness and I pray He continues to watch over me

Hope Now - Addison Road

SCAMS

Last year my family was scammed by a company called Residential Relief Foundation who promised to help us modify our mortgage terms in hopes of getting things back on track. We had hope that things would get back on track and they seemed to. However, I sent RRF money instead of my lender and after a few months of no contact I found out that this company had been shut down by the Federal Trade Commission. Please be aware.

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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

Kelly, I am so sorry that this has happened to you...I have no words of comfort....only blessings sent your way. Powerful poem that captures your torment right now.


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TeachableMoments 4 years ago from California

A while back my daughter caught me crying for the first time. Even at the tender age of 5 she showed such empathy by snuggling down next to me. She said, "I thought you never cried. You are brave. I thought I wasn't brave because I cry but you don't. Maybe I am brave." Her words filled my heart with such love. In that moment my daughter taught me another lesson. She showed me once again that by just being human we model the best lessons for our children. My tears proved that even the most "brave" people cry. Yes, they certainly do. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.


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unknown spy 4 years ago from Neverland - where children never grow up.

hi kelly..this is so sad. Just have faith. God will be always there for for you. voted up.


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KellyPittman 4 years ago from Walker, LA Author

Thank you Susan. The day after publishing this Hub, I was driving home with my 9 year old daughter from her softball game when out of the blue, she tells me, "Mommy, we're gonna get through this ya know?" It saddened me to know that maybe I haven't done a great job at keeping our 'grown up problems' a secret, but with her words, she brought back my faith. All I really need to know is , "It's gonna be okay, Mom"


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Just Ask Susan 4 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Your poem has made me sad, and my heart goes out to you. I hope that everything works out for you and your beautiful family. I understand where you are coming from as I've been there myself, not that this helps you in anyway. Sometimes things do have a way of working themselves out. I wish all the best.

Beautiful poem, even though it is sad.

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