A Stranger Within

lost somewhere inside-and somewhere other than here
lost somewhere inside-and somewhere other than here

The stranger within my sadness

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I wish I knew just where to start-to begin to collect the pieces of my fragile broken heart.


A stranger says my name,
An ol' familiar sound.
A stranger yells my name,
He takes away everything I have.

A stranger takes my place,
I cry deep inside.
If a stranger took my place,
Where in hell am I?

It doesn't have to be this way.
I quietly say my lies.
When did I forget what to say?
Who the hell am I?

I whisper silent prayers,
Careful not to be heard.

I think silent thoughts-

When did life become so hard?

I gave up on everything.
There is no one left to blame.
When you give up on everything,

You are the one who needs to be saved.

I can't find the broken words to express my broken heart.
Since my heart was broken,
My world has come apart.
I'm really not too sure what is left of me to begin to start,
Picking up the pieces of my fragile broken heart.


I never thought life would be fair,
But I didn't think I would always have to fight.
Fight for the person who I am,

Or the person which you are.

No one is here that will listen,
No one here who wants to understand.
A stranger took my place,
A stranger is who I am.

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DiamondRN profile image

DiamondRN 6 years ago from Charlotte, NC USA

Been there, H.C. God's grace was my answer. He gave me an identity, purpose and security.


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Mike Lickteig 6 years ago from Lawrence KS USA

HC, your words ring so true, as always. I sometimes look in the mirror and don't recognize myself. I think to myself that the person I was could never have arrived in the state I am in. I so often feel like I'm in quicksand, and everything I do to get out only pushes me further down into the quicksand.

I hope your sadness is only a mask, and the face beneath can be revealed. Your identity--your self--can certainly be seen in your words. I think you will find yourself and re-emerge--and eventually, the stranger will not be seen again.

I thank you again for powerful poems. Your words have such truth to them. I hope you have a good Labor Day Weekend. Take care.

Mike


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Paradise7 6 years ago from Upstate New York

Very moving. I wish healing for you, from the bottom of my heart.


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samsons1 6 years ago from Tennessee

Up & beautiful! Such touching words--

blessings to you.


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Minnetonka Twin 6 years ago from Minnesota

Thanks for sharing this piece of you with us. The poem really touched me as I guess we all feel like this one time or another in this life. I pray peace for you. Blessings.


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saddlerider1 6 years ago

I am so sorry to read between the lines of your moving poem. A fragile broken heart? I know just recently you were concerned about taking on all the responsibility in your household and basically doing all the work, I believe I left you a comment in FB about your concern. I pray that your marriage is safe and you both are working out these every day details.

You have a beautiful family and you have shared this with us, I pray that all is intact and resolution is mending your broken heart. Never give up, fight for LOVE if it's worth fighting for. Families need to stay together in these turbulent times, the grass is never greener on the other side. I wish you peace, joy and happiness and a mending of your broken heart. You are a creative, talented, expressive writer and your words are often healing to many of us.

We will listen and you are not a stranger, many of us here understand and are here for you. Please know that. Peace and hugs my friend.


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Ken R. Abell 6 years ago from ON THE ROAD

So personal, yet so universal. Being human means we all hit those places where we are riddled with angst & questions about who we are, what we do, where we're going. Thank you for baring your soul. Your words give insights into who I am. Blessings & much encouragement to you.


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SilentReed 6 years ago from Philippines

After reading saddlerider's comment, H.C. this too shall pass. Prayers help, it is the way of fortune with blessings. Take care.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Diamond RN,

Thanks for your comment- I have much purpose in my life-but every so often I feel as if the world is caving in on me and I lose myself. I am feeling better today, just had a bad few days.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Mike, Thanks for your words. I believe that the stranger is held within all of us, especially people with more artistic tendencies. Some times when things pile up- we feel as if we lose ourselves. Thanks again Mike for leaving another heartfelt comment


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

paradise7,

Thanks so much for the encouragement--I am doing fine. :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Samsons1-thanks for the comment and for stopping by. I am glad you took the time to read this poem :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

saddlerider1-

life is always changing, and I am convinced it is how we deal with change that builds us up and shows us what we are made of. Although life is not easy-it is an adventure that we must learn to survive.

My family is still intact and we are still working through life’s hurdles-things are getting better and we are making decisions together and growing together-so we will always be together. Love is often complicated by life---we learned that with two kids---but at the end of the day, we still love each other and we both want to understand the other--and it isn’t always easy with work-bills-kids etc...but we are doing it...life is good today :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

minnitonka twin-

thanks so much for stopping in and commenting. I believe that what you commented-is completely correct and something that we must all learn to work through :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Ken, that is a great way of looking at feeling lost. It is all part of being human---there are ups and downs-and we will all experience both at some time. Thanks for stopping by and reading this one :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

silentread- thanks so much for giving your feedback. I am so glad you enjoyed this one and left a comment :)


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epigramman 6 years ago

..well I am no stranger to the marvel of your writing talent ....


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

epigramman,

Thanks so much sir, that is a great thing to be told- made my day and made me smile as I sit here punching with my fingers the keys to my laptop


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sujju 6 years ago from mangalore, india

Very nice...


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aware 6 years ago from West Palm Beach Florida.

good job girl. you love to write the lovey doves stuff don't ya. i have to agree with epigramman .your a good poet. i mostly turn my nose up, at love story's and poems about love. but yours, ill lend a ear . keep up the good work. love surly aint easy.


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Dardia 6 years ago from Michigan

I feel your pain! I have felt as though I was a stranger for most of my life. I have only recently begun to feel as myself. But then again who am I?


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DStettler 6 years ago

This is so wonderfully put, emotion in every line.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

sujju, thanks for the comment on another hub- I am glad I have earned another follower :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

aware- Thanks for reading and commenting- I suppose I do tend to write a bit on the heart ache and love lost/ found- emotional instability of it all, side of things :) Glad you can stomach it all :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

dardia, I have noticed many of people have been able to relate to this hub- I think who we are is quite confusing-especially when you are trying to find yourself and not sure where to begin looking-thanks for the comment :)


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Dstettler-

thanks for the comment- I am glad that you enjoyed this poem- it was written with all the confusion of the heart- I am just happy that it was taken in the content for which it was written in by so many people/writers


Harmony 6 years ago

I know the stranger you speak of.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Harmony, Thanks again for reading and commenting. The Stranger is quite an emotional confusing part of who we are. I am not sure if it gets any easier as we grow older or if the want to begin to feel complete leaves us in more of a panic. I am not sure if I am waiting for lighting to strike and to be overcome with understanding of self or what---but when I get to that place, I hope I make more sense to myself and to the world.


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Shane Belceto 6 years ago from WA USA

Think I got just as much from the comments this generated as the HUB itself. I too can relate and Thank YOU much for putting this on the web for all to share.

What ya working on next for us?

~Expect Miracles


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

shane- I truly appreciate your feedback and am glad that you were able to pull some of the emotion from the writing. I think in a way we all have a stranger somewhere within our souls---we try and we try to figure things out but often get caught up with the craziness that we create for ourselves


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Cagsil 6 years ago from USA or America

This hub makes me sad. :( It seems like you lost yourself and no longer see who you are or anything else. I can only say that each person is forever changing and each person has to be consciously aware that they are, otherwise they get really confused and have no place to look for answers because they are not clear. I hope you find a clear view and find yourself to be happy with yourself. I have faith in you. :/ Thank you for sharing.


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

cagsil- dont be sad... i am okay-and i have figured some things out lately (about myself) even through the heart ache and pain of life. Maybe I was feeling a little defeated-but quite recently during the process of sorting through many memories- I remembered some things about me that i was shown by someone who I love and admire-and I realized I need to hold on to those lessons and not let them be lost or let myself be lost due to her passing.


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Shane Belceto 6 years ago from WA USA

You feel you are right on the money with saying "that we create for ourselves" ... nice thing about it all is we do have a choice and we continue to have new choices or can cahnge our minds about the first ones.

Hugs to YOU

~Expect Miracles


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H.C Porter 6 years ago from Lone Star State Author

shane- Thanks for the comment. everyday is a vast variety of choices and decisions we make to get to tomorrow-some are good others bad, but we must continue on.

Expect Miracles------

Maybe be a Miracle???? :)

HUGZ as well


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michael ely 5 years ago from Scotland

Hi H.C Porter, Great poem. Thanks for sharing.

Cheers. Michael.


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

michael ely

thanks for your comment... I am glad you enjoyed the poem :)

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