AN INNOCENT TIME...by b. Malin

For the little innocent citizens of the world
For the little innocent citizens of the world

I REMEMBER...

I remember a short lived "Innocent Time" as a child...

I remember when I didn't know about Death.

Divorce and Violence were just "Words"

That Adults spoke in hushed tones...

I remember when I found out,

What the word Divorce meant...

It meant that I was to live with Daddy,

When Mommy went away...

Shhh, she's sick in the Head.

I was only Three, but I HEARD

What they said.

And I would go to bed and pray,

That I'd wake up, a GROWNUP.

And eventually my prayers were answered.

I remember when I found out

What the word "DEATH" meant...

It was when my Father died.

I was twenty-four, and I couldn't handle it.

I wasn't ready to let him go.

And I cried so, at his Funeral.

Shhh, they said...

Don't Cry in front of your child...

It's too Violent for him to see,

He's only Three...

You're a Big Girl now... cry Silently.

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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas

This is awesome... very poignant... life is too real...


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bellawritter23 5 years ago from California

Oh my geeez, B. is this non-fiction? My kids learned the word divorce at 3,4, and 7. Early ages they havent learned death yet but they know if it. Thanks for sharing and I had to read through a knot.

Thanks for sharing :)

bella


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Fiddleman 5 years ago from Zirconia, North Carolina

This gave me cold chills. Some of those words, so hurtful for innocent children who become victims and the passing of a loved one, so traumatic. We lost our dad at age 81 with pancreatic cancer. I remember so well our last communication just before he was taken to Hospice house. I told him "Daddy,I love you" and in a weak voice he replied ,"I love you." Once settled in at Elizabeth House, he never regained consciousness but died in his sleep the following morning. He died well loving his family and ready to meet His Creator. No tears of sorrow though I miss him very much and I'm looking forward to a Glad reunion day.


Cheryl Kapelner-Champ 5 years ago

Very beautiful & most meaningful. Our hearts do deal, but sometimes it does take a lifetime...

w/ Love & Peace Always,

Mother Lightning

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Cheryl Kapelner-Champ 5 years ago

typo error*/ the word that is intended; not deal, but heal, [though we do, ultimately do deal].

lol

Mother Lightning

of[thpeacegarden.blogspot.com]


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

Thanks Suburban Poet, Life can be hard...especially for the "child" in all of us.

Bellawritter Isn't half of what we write come from life experience, mixed with the fictions in our minds...lots of this poem was real...Thanks for understanding it.

Fiddleman a lot of my writings come from so deep within...and an unhappy childhood...and well meaning adults?? But I'm ok today...and it also took me a long time to get over my Father's death.


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

Thanks Mother Lighting for your understanding and comments of this poem.


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breakfastpop 5 years ago

I can relate to this. My father died when I was eighteen years old. I'm still crying, but I try to do it in private.


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

Thanks Breakfastpops for sharing your thoughts and for coming by.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

I lost my mum at 14 and found out the hard way how crued life could be. I didn't understand the meaning of death then and rebelled against it, hating everything and everyone for a while. I have a better understanding now and brought my son up to appreciate life when he was young. I never kept anything from him and he attended every funeral (mostly our pets) and shed many tears but today is a very strong and settled young man.


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

Such wonderful comments Bluestar, and I can certainly relate having raised two Sons, who are also tender, but strong individuals and men...who had Happy childhoods, unlike mine. Thank you.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland

So much in common you and I


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richtwf 5 years ago

Death and divorce are hard enough for adults to come to terms and for children it's certainly more difficult. Divorce can scar children for life; and even though they may appear resolute, those memories can never easily be forgotten and can affect their future relationships.

Thanks for sharing these thoughts.

God bless and peace.


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

Bluestar, I'm sure we do...but I would hope as grownups that we are both now enjoying life to the fullest. LOL.

Rich, It does leave it's scars...but I am hoping in my case, that it made me a better, wife, mother and writer...and I'd like to think, that there is always a Rainbow around the corner.


dianeaugust 5 years ago

This is so well written--full of truth, full of truth. DA


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

DA, more than I thought I would share...but I'm glad I did...thanks for the compliment.


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Pixienot 5 years ago from Clarksville, Indiana

Wow! Talk about from the heart. Thank you so much for sharing. I can feel your pain. More than I can say.

Voted up and awesome.


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b. Malin 5 years ago Author

Thank you Pixienot, it felt good to release those feelings.


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cleaner3 4 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

great expression and flow.


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b. Malin 4 years ago Author

Hi Cleaner, Thanks for stopping by to read some of my earlier Hubs...written when I went deep inside my own inner soul.

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