Do the Departed affect you? 'At Dead Of Night'; Poem about family now past & some comfort

The Small Hours

How many of you have lain awake at night, usually in the early hours of the morning, and had thoughts of people and places just invade your head seemingly at random?

I'm sure there are many who think of past deeds, past times, a past life with all its joys and sorrows. There are some memories that come to me very often and in melancholy moments the small hours can bring heavy emotions indeed.

My parents were wonderful people; they suffered not a little because of me but they were always there to make me feel better. They never failed me though I worry I failed them. I know, too, that they forgave me but the guilt floods back in those dark hours.

This is for them.

Memories

Dad with Little Me!
Dad with Little Me! | Source
Support during School Days
Support during School Days | Source
Mum, Dad & I, December 1974
Mum, Dad & I, December 1974 | Source
Giving me away! (& Mum made the dress)
Giving me away! (& Mum made the dress) | Source

At Dead of Night

At dead of night

the dead come bright

into my head,


not causing fright,

more seeking right

to understand,


to soothe my plight,

allow my flight

to peaceful sleep.


Past deeds not right

always in sight,

a guilt too deep.


My sorrow might

abate by light

when dawn creeps up,


though aching head

at my Mum’s bed

I still feel now.


Then she smiles bright

and holds me tight

to ease my pain.


My Dad comes steady

a huge hug ready

to lift my soul.


At dead of night

the dead come bright

into my head.


Copyright annart (AFC) 2014 (No copying without permission; no changing of original hub)


What About You?

Do you Worry about the Past?

See results without voting

Poetry

What makes a good poem? (if none of these applies to you, please leave your choice in the comments

See results without voting

More by this Author


Comments 26 comments

annart profile image

annart 2 years ago from SW England Author

Easy E: Wow! Thank you so much for such an awesome comment. I'm glad you liked this and I appreciate your words regarding the balance. Several of my hubs have started from a poem and then I try to make the hub a decent length by explaining or elaborating the theme. I like to read backgrounds so I like to write them too. Memories versus 'unnatural highs' makes a good point. Have a great day! Ann


Eazy_E profile image

Eazy_E 2 years ago from State College, Pennsylvania

I always love reading your stuff. You find an amazing balance of creative aspects like poetry and informative practices. It's always nice to see you truly embrace your creative side with pieces like this. Rememberance of the past is something we as people often overlook as creatures of comfort. More people need to look to memories instead of unnatural highs. Makes us all better people. Beautiful, interesting and just plain awesome.


annart profile image

annart 2 years ago from SW England Author

Thank you, Ebonny, for your visit and your kind comment. I knew the forgiveness was there but I still feel guilty. I'm glad you found it touching as that was my intention.

You're right about the photos, they are treasured; in fact, I put others on before publishing but couldn't bear to leave them all there, it was too raw for me.

I greatly appreciate our visit and hope you have a great evening. Ann


Ebonny profile image

Ebonny 2 years ago from UK

As time goes by forgotten memories, both good and bad, can come to mind at some odd times. I do believe forgiveness and seeing things in a new perspective will eventually prevail all round. Thank you for sharing this touching poem and you treasured photographs.


annart profile image

annart 2 years ago from SW England Author

Thanks Dolores. Actually, the bit about my Dad's hug was a dream and, like yours, it made me feel so happy when I awoke; strange how things like that happen. I really believe it was him wanting to make me feel better. Ann


annart profile image

annart 2 years ago from SW England Author

Thank you, tobusiness. I'm glad you like this one. All the best to you. Ann


Dolores Monet profile image

Dolores Monet 2 years ago from East Coast, United States

Ann, this was so beautiful. I know you were not talking about dreaming but not long ago I had a dream about a gone loved one. It was a wonderful dream, simple as a visit. It felt like a visit. I woke the next morning feeling lighthearted and refreshed. Oddly enough, several people who were also close to him had similar dreams, and felt that same feeling of light heartedness when they awoke.


tobusiness profile image

tobusiness 2 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Hi Ann, this is very timely for me. Loved the poem, great hub!!


annart profile image

annart 2 years ago from SW England Author

DREAM ON: Thank you so much for your visit and for your comment. Thankfully, I did spend lots of time with my parents and they helped me a lot with my children. This poem is about a time when they got the bad end of things and I couldn't do a lot to stop that. Bad memories. However, the good memories far outweigh the bad. Best wishes to you. Ann


DREAM ON profile image

DREAM ON 2 years ago

We do all we can while we can. I also wish I spent more time with my mom and dad instead of going out with friends. Now I think of them often and I love your poem and your beautiful words. I just appreciate all the good times I did have and can cherish always.Have a beautiful day.


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

Thank you so much, Jodah. Yes, one has to move on but the small hours are notorious for reminding us! I appreciate you stopping by and commenting.


Jodah profile image

Jodah 3 years ago from Queensland Australia

I can totally relate to this Ann. I think about my parents often and what they sacrificed for me and my siblings. I know Icould have done some things better, but you can't go back and change things. As long as you learn from your mistakes and strive to be the best person you can be now., your parents will be proud. Good hub...touching, and lovely pictures.


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

Thank you, BlossomSB, for your kind comments and for taking the time to visit. Ann


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

Thank you, Gypsy Rose Lee, for your lovely comments. I know they'd forgive me but the pain lingers on! Appreciate you stopping by.


Gypsy Rose Lee profile image

Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Great pics and wonderful poem. Your parents will always be with you watching over you and by your side until you meet again. Time heals all and things get forgiven over time.


BlossomSB profile image

BlossomSB 3 years ago from Victoria, Australia

That was a very interesting poem and I think it is a theme that many people can relate to, but you have expressed it so well for all of us. Well done!


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

CraftytotheCore: thank you for your comment. I think everyone has experienced such things, some more, some less, but if you have you know even more of what I mean. Appreciate you dropping by. Ann


CraftytotheCore profile image

CraftytotheCore 3 years ago

Really Lovely! It has happened to me too.


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

old albion, good to see you again. You're right, Graham, it's wishing you could have done something differently or in my case wishing you hadn't done something at all! Appreciate your kind comments. Ann


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

Mhatter99, thank you for your comment and for taking the time to visit. I much appreciate your words.


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

Tuatha, thank you. I did think twice about publishing this but decided to because I view it as a tribute to my lovely parents. I'm glad it inspired you to publish another poem; I'll pop over and look! Ann


old albion profile image

old albion 3 years ago from Lancashire. England.

Hi Ann. This is a lovely tribute to those who loved and nurtured you through difficult times. I am 70 next birthday. There is never a day nor a night when I don't think of my parents. Wishing I could have done something differently sometimes.

Graham.


annart profile image

annart 3 years ago from SW England Author

Thank you billy. You're right to say I should lay it to rest -easy in the daytime but not so during sleepless nights. Your comments made me feel a lot better. As always, I much appreciate your support. Ann


Mhatter99 profile image

Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Bravo! Well composed. thank you


Tuatha profile image

Tuatha 3 years ago from Fayetteville, NC

Thank you for posting this. I've spent many sleepless nights feeling similarly. Inspired to pull another poem out of the collection. Much appreciated.


billybuc profile image

billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

Well, Ann, I hope you got some sleep and quite frankly, I think it's about time to lay to rest that guilt. My goodness, I wouldn't sleep at all if I continued to think of the pain I caused my parents. At some point I had to come to terms with it and move on.

I love your honesty and I love the glimpse of your family. Thank you for some very honesty writing.

bill

    Sign in or sign up and post using a HubPages Network account.

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    No HTML is allowed in comments, but URLs will be hyperlinked. Comments are not for promoting your articles or other sites.


    Click to Rate This Article
    working