Autistic and Totally Working in the Pendant -- An Autistic Child Poem

"Dedicated to my son who was diagnosed with pervasive development disorder(PDD)..and slowly getting recovered, with his mom's dedication..."



The moment I arrived into this world

I was unusually different

would rock myself on the high chair and would

feel that breeze air

Wouldn't say a word

I just wanted some more

of that apple pie

that grandma made for this child of God


My mom kept me away

from danger and this outside world

wanted to say thank you, but

brain turned the page and took me away

Mind said no, even though I wanted to stay around


Grandma came with a pendant that

had my name and my condition

at times wanted to throw it away

but held back and stay in position


I see a world from this bubble that is around me

I want so much to say... 'I love you'

but once again

my brain would keep me shut

to mom who would see me through

a different state of mind


she is patient with me

but at times my behaviour lashes back

I want this and that

I run over here and over there

sometimes I think God doesn't care


mommy wanted to hug me one day

and I said no!

Mommy wanted to cry one night

and I said no!

she wanted to ride with me and I said no!


Only when she screamed

my mind started to listen

only when she embraced me

my life was a little different


What would be of me without her

what will happen if she didn't care

who would throw a ball like she did with me

who would catch my breath as she

and me bend on our knees


I need to break away and see what is in the pendant

that grandma gave me


I want to be able to say 'I love'... and really mean it!

when mom cannot take it anymore

I want to be able to take care of her

and ride again our palomino Mare


This omega and oil fish are doing wonders

sparkles and bits of emotions

are coming to my rescue

hope to join my mom..who is loving and so cute!

PDD who wants to be like you and me?


The pendant has the clue

the love in my heart will break through

God please! help me to be a new me

Lord have mercy to this child in..need!

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missolive 5 years ago from Texas

As a mother of a child with autism this was difficult for me to read - nicely done - interesting perspective.


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AmaTainted 5 years ago from Texas

its like reading a book with seemingly blank pages, unable to realize its been written in invisible ink...

i like the awareness of the child.

my heart empathizes with the mother.


Pickles and Rufus 5 years ago

Powerful words.thanks for the perspective


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icciev 5 years ago from Kuwait

Well written my friend, you have a good point of view but thanks and voted up


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mary615 5 years ago from Florida

Hi, Lord, once again the beauty in your soul shines through! I have not had the first hand knowledge of this terrible thing that robs children of their ability to be a normal child, but my heart goes out to all the parents who are coping with this affliction. I voted this one UP.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Miss Olive,

MY heart goes to you. we know what are you going through..the words in this piece can talk by themselves. Hope to see my kid recovered completely and Hopefully Science will catch up with that disorder, thanks for your comment and very touched by your paragraph.

LORD


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Ama Tainted;

Thanks for your important comment. Things are progressing but the hyperactivity is being controlled little by little. Mom IS a good mother and she won't forsake her child.

LORD


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

iCCIEV FROM Kuwait,

you are always welcome to comment. Is hard to deal qith this problem, Miss Olive knows how hard i can get. Thanks for stopping by my friend.

LORD


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Mary615,

Is a terrible situation for millions of families. And some Insurances won't cover preventive treatment. Legislation is..I mean was stalled but there are progresses as we debate and get concerned. Awareness is the key. Thanks for your comments my dear friend!

LORD


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Ardie 5 years ago from Neverland

My heart broke for mom and boy. But it also rejoiced for the dedication I read between the lines and the love I felt was for the child.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Thanks Ardie,

Is a sad feeling to live with this condition and not even be able to show the most simple.."I love you!"

LORD


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JT Walters 5 years ago from Florida

HI lord de cross,

We walk this road everyday with you and you are not alone. Great poem.

JT


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raciniwa 5 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

Autism is not a mental illness, and it depends on how we look at the situation...treating autistic children normally helps...great hub lord.....


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

JT walters,

Coming from you, I feel honored. Certainly we walk this road in company of friends and they are there for us.

Thanks JT!

lord


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Thanks Raciniwa,

believe it or not, this problem is becoming epidemic, but is not covered by the media as it should. Parents with autistic children know what I mean. Thanks raciniwa for your important comment.

LORD


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raciniwa 5 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

yeah, i'm well aware of that...two of my colleagues have autistic children...and one of our pioneers in movie industry has an autistic child...a friend of mine who studied about it that these children need not be treated as if they have defects...

you're always welcome lord...it's been a pleasure reading hubs like this...


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Interesting revelations Raciniwa,

Due to their condition of abstraction they develop in other areas. Most of them have a deep development in all kind of Sciences. I wonder if some reknown Icons had any type of Asperger's syndrome?

LORD


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leni sands 5 years ago from UK

Awesome, interesting and beautiful - having worked with autistic children in the mainstream and working with their parents through a support group I can certainly see your perspective. Well written and captured thought processes from the point of view of the boy, showing an incredible level of understanding from the inside - Voted up!


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Thanks leni...you know how these kids suffer..my prayers for them..!

LORD


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carriethomson 5 years ago from United Kingdom

it is very difficult to take care of children suffering from autism!! all they need is love and care!! Hats off to the mother and other family members who make it easy for the child to cope up and recover without letting frustration to creep in!!

carrie


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Wow Carrie, you really meant what you said! Actually, as I said before, there so many cases kept behind the headlines or news for the stigma and shyfulness. Hrad enough is most are singles parents dealing by themselves with this issue. Glad to hear from you on this topic. Aprecciative thank you!

LORD


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2besure 5 years ago from Charlotte, North Carolina

My grandson Joseph is autistic. I have great hopes for him. I know my baby is in there and I hope one day he gets out.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

2besure!

I pray for your grandson and hopefully one day he will be part of our so called normal life. Thanks for your comment..it means a lot for us.

LORD

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