All Choked Up

What Happened Is Hard To Explain

For hours I was fine

Then in the next second

I felt this cough

I rushed to breathe

As I tried to clear my throat

It wasn't happening

We have a problem

A frog in my throat

I attempt to take deep breaths

That didn't work

Even short breaths would make me feel better

Odd as it may seem

The feeling left as fast as it came

I was so excited to be back

To a day that nothing is really happening

Now I realize how beautiful and amazing it is

When the feeling of helplessness is finally gone

For all those with asthma

I know only a glimpse of your world

When everyone else around you is fine

You clearly are in trouble

Thank God for inhailers that keep you feeling better

I have never had any breathing issues

It was a quick reminder

I won't soon forget

A dry tickle is all I have left

So many scary thoughts soon fade

As I am no longer afraid

Sometime later I will reflect

Making my day better

As I focus all my thoughts

On this uncomfortable moment

Wishing others with any breathing issues

Wonderful clean air to feel better

This is one subject

I can't take lightly

With an inner sense

Each breathe I now cherish

Gives feeling safe a whole new meaning

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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

What a lovely empathetic work. To understand first-hand how others may feel much more frequently is so good for one's own soul.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 5 months ago from Riga, Latvia

Glad that passed quickly. What I hate the most is suddenly waking up from a sound sleep and thinking I cannot breathe. That passes quickly too but it takes me awhile to settle back down.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Nellieanna I was born premature and had complications when I was a baby. Thanks to medical doctors and their skills science has come a long way. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee I know people with asthma but I never gave it much thought until I had shortness of breath and struggled to breathe. Anything that we have to each deal with medically is a game changer. Thank you for reading and caring.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

It's so true that 0nce we experience something firsthand we have much more empathy for those who have to face it long term or who are currently dealing with whatever it is. My current challenges in life, though, could possibly change my life forever and it's the not knowing that has my insides all tied in knots at the moment. Roll with the punches, that's what we must do.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie I know people deal with so many health issues on a daily basis. I give each person courage, strength and more good health coming your way. I think we can all help other people face the problems they face and spend more time loving life. Please feel free to share if you feel better email me anytime. Caring and sharing is what I do best. Thank you for reading and making my hub better.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I cant' really share too much, at least not on here, but thanks. It's not a health issue and it's not necessarily a bad thing. It's just possibly life-changing, assuming some of the other possible outcomes don't happen. If you're a praying person. ..that would help tons. But not so much for me. ..there's another completely helpless life involved and that's who needs the prayers most for the best possible outcome, whatever that may be.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie If you ever need me you know how to find me. Prayers make life so much better. We all are connected to each other in so many ways. It's nice to write and share life in the making. Thank you for reading and caring. Have a great night.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

Thank you. I appreciate that. Your poetry is indeed very reflective of life in the making. Maybe that's one reason so many are drawn to read yours. :)

Life has so many things happening right now. I'm just trying to keep up with it all! Maybe it's true that the more things change, the more they stay the same. Hahaha. It's almost time to harvest the pumpkins we grew. They're turning orange. There are a couple of honeydew melons as well to be harvested. Maybe there's still time for some tomatoes. And then there's the mice. At least the cats are used to them now, for the most part. The kids still have to make sure the cats are out of the room to get them out of the cage, but at least they no longer hover around it. The dog, however, still tries to eat them through the glass. It's rather comical. So are the mice when one or more is on the wheel at once. Sometimes one of them just has to hang on and go round and round, upside down while another one runs. If someone had ever told me I'd have pet mice with cats, I'd have said they were crazy. Maybe I'm the crazy one! Ha!

I"m no longer employed, though I might return in a couple of months. I really have no idea if I will or not. I'm looking into taking classes that I wanted to do last year, but had to put it on hold. I finally have the holdup mostly cleared up. In the meantime, I published my first book. That felt good. Now. . .I need to finish the novle and keep testing my own patience with the process. LOL. They say patience is a virtue. I say there's a difference between having patience and being patience. I'll tell you, I don't always have it! Even when I have no other choice but to be patient.

In addition to all of that, my husband has a brand new granddaughter and the kids think it is hilarious that their daddy is a grandpa. But when my husband called me a grandma, I told him I don't claim that title. Maybe I never will. Too young now and will be too young at heart in the future. LOL.

Life is very much in the making. All around us. And every single second of every single day. So. . .I hope you manage to stay healthy and not all choked up. Have a good night.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie So many things fall into place in a world where everything is a puzzle. I think many of the puzzles are missing pieces. So just when I am happy about one thing something else jabs me, snags me, confuses me. When I think everything should and will go smooth. I keep on planning and praying it does. This way I can focus on things I dream about. I often feel pulled in opposite directions at once. I know it is only physically possible to go one place at a time. Or is it? I can do something one way then dream about different outcomes other ways. Hearing about your life and your day to day experiences gives me a different perspective. All good. Not having any children ourselves I enjoy the experiences you and your husband experience. Both being happily married and enjoying our spouses. Even though my thoughts drive me deeper into writing where my wife has little desire to go. I am lucky to meet other accomplished writers with their vast knowledge of writing and experiences to inspire me greatly. I have so many goals and only so much time. Life for me is alive and take. I keep giving and slowly life takes it away. I can write hours on a subject no one seems to care about but it means something to me. Like how fast does rain fall? I think it is impossible that water can cover miles and miles effortlessly all at the same time. Then when it rains it happens all the time. I know how hard it is to water my yard and garden and how long it takes. Nobody else seems to show an interest or desire. I find that alone an incredible miracle. It makes me happy. I love the fact I can grow up in a whole different state all different teachers even at a different time than you and understand and relate so well. Appreciating your sense of humor , comments and your writings. I find it difficult to understand that people I grew up with don't see the things I see. I can go on and on but I am afraid I will scare you away. So I do a writing when I can and keep my comments short and sweet. Not to aggrivate anyone. Thanks so much for reading and sharing. It's pouring rain here. I love that too. That's another story for another day.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I'm a pro at aggravating people and I am usually not even trying! LOL. Oh well. I am who I am and I express myself because I can. Sometimes because I just have to. Who is anyone else to stop you or to tell you that you can't or should not? I hope you go right on writing about all the little miracles in life. Enjoy the rain, too.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie Well in today's society everyone loves to tell others what to do especially family. They all want to play boss. I spend most of my time thinking and dreaming. I love to be creative. It takes time and energy. I get so excited to hear about your lovely pets and your wonderful garden. Keep the stories rolling.Could you let me know what the title of your book is and where I can find it. Thank you for all your support and kindness. I am going out to take a walk in the rain. Happy Friday.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

It's a compilation of poetry called "My Poetic Heart: A Collection" and it can be found on Amazon. You have a great day as well. And thank you for your support. I'm waiting on some news later today that will help determine our path. I hate not knowing, but like I said, I must be patient even when I don't feel like it.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie Thanks for letting me know. I will look for it. How long did it take to write ? May good things and extra love help you on your path. Have a wonderful night.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

It's a collection of poetry that goes as far back as high school to now. So you could say 20 years. LOL. But just a few months to put together once I decided I was going to do it.

Now, I have novels in the works that have already taken years. Someday they will be published, too. Hopefully not 20 years from now. Haha

You have a good day. :)

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Shanmarie You finally did it. That's what counts.Good for you. What kind of response have you had from people? Your family must be so proud. How many books have you sold ?I am so thrilled for you. Don't let me interrupt you. Keep on writing. We can talk later when the novels are finished. By then I will have my own book written also. My book would be filled with all the questions I want to ask but had to wait about the struggles and your your journey. Thanks so much for sharing. Off into the night I go.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I don't know if I've sold any because I haven't really looked and not sure if royalties show up right away. I don't care if I sell any, really. I was just excited to have learned how to do a novel on my own if I go that route in the future, though the next one will not be because it's already paid to be done through another company and has been for a few years. That's so sad. Pathetic. LOL.

But, yes, family and friends have been very supportive. Maria did an interview that will post this week. That was fun and different. I'm used to interviewing others, not answering questions myself. You guys are always so supportive, so I dedicated it to family and friends. I appreciate you all more than I can say.

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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie There are so many things to do every day. It is easy to get side tracked or what I call busy. Seeing you follow through with your dreams is fantastic. The money is always nice and helpful but the thing you can't put a price on is the personal satisfacation of all your accomplishments with writing and in your personal life. I believe our writing is like looking into the mirror and having an x- Ray at the same time.A picture of who we are inside and out and putting words to describe everything. I am drawn to the craft. Describing the people who make life amazing. Thank you for sharing and caring.

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