Am I Sensitive?

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Sensitive!

I have intended to write this hub several times before, but the time just did not seem to be appropriate. As life passes us by, and we encounter many people and circumstances in our life, we are forever gaining knowledge. Some knowledge just sits around and waits for us to recognise it, other knowledge, like a butterfly flutters on the breeze of our imagination until we open our minds to accept it. And at other times, we close our mind to outside influences that are just opportunity's that are lost to us.

The New Choice English Dictionary gives us two explanations for the word 'Sensitive,' the first talks about sensitive as a reaction to something tangible, such as an allergic reaction to face cream, or sticking plasters, possibly soup powder and in some cases, medicines. Whilst the second explanation says "having the power of sensation", the capacity to feel, and be over-sensitive to the awareness of feeling. Both of these explanations are correct.

But let us look at the latter explanation of sensitive in more depth. I am a Sensitive , but I am not sensitive to tangible things such as I stated above. I am sensitive to atmospheres, emotions, cruelty, stress, and pain. One part of being a sensitive is the ability to empathise with any other living material in your life, be it people, dogs, cats, horses, zoo animals, or even in extreme cases vegetables! I am an empathy driven human being.

Now don't jump up and down and think psychic I am no more psychic than most people that I know, and to be honest, the speaking to the dead adventures is not for me. I do have the ability to smell familiars, for instance a perfume or certain body smell of someone who has passed over. I also can open my soul to feel their touch, a loving hug or a caress of the face, but I am afraid of the visions that if I totally opened up my soul to, I would see too many things to cause me distress.

Being a Sensitive can be misconstrued as a gift, but more often than not it is a curse. You can't switch it on and off like a light bulb, because your senses are always too frequent. It isn't hog wash or an illness or even a disability and it is normal to approximately 5% of the earth's population. Many people believe that if you were a sensitive child, you will become a sensitive adult, that is certainly true in many cases. Or you may simply be stood in a bus queue and suddenly feel empathy for the unknown person standing next to you.

I am constantly being told by people who do not know me well enough to stop "being sensitive", believe me I wish I could. But that form of sensitivity has nothing to do with being a Sensitive

About twelve years ago I met a famous psychic medium, before anyone had ever heard about him. The great scouser (from Liverpool), Derek O'Coragh. He was on tour with a fellow psychic medium from Scotland whose name escapes me. I met him in the bar of a hotel in Ballyshannon, County Donegal, whilst out for a night with a girlfriend. I had never met him before then and only looked in his direction because of his scouse accent, I was born in Southport twenty one miles away from Liverpool, and his accent was music to my ears.

Derek approached me standing at the bar and said, as I thought to everyone in general "I always meet one," as he repeated it again turning to face me, I felt a little intimidated, "One what?" I asked him. "A sensitive with a gift to become a psychic" he replied drawing heavily on his cigarette and blowing puffs of smoke into the air above us both. I wont bore you here with the dialogue that past between us, or the fact that I thought he was a madman until he told me what I could see through my bedroom window as a small child. Well he got me there.

However, I was not about to enquire further about physic abilities, no way. But what he did tell me about being a sensitive made perfect sense, because I had felt like that since a very small child.

I have always been able to devote my care and attention to the grief stricken people around me. Stricken by the feeling of being in pain, not just physically but mentally too. I try to stop myself from going there because it isn't comfortable. I feel like I have had a skin full of beer and am about to be sick. But Derek advised me to look on my sensitivity as a friend rather than a gift. I should offer my friendship to the needy and the people that I love unconditionally to benefit their quality of life, accept my feelings gladly and be proud of my inner qualities. I do this everyday, but all to often I am misconstrued as being pushy or interfering and then it is I who become sensitive to rejection and cross words.

I will never close my mind to being a sensitive, but sometimes I can experience an emotional overload. This results in me becoming so tired that I just want to sit and be alone for a few days, no not antisocial, just at peace.

Many of my Hub Page buddies comment about my ability to discuss controversial topics sympathetically. That is not easy by any means, but it is just who I am and not what I want to be.

So I thank everybody who has left a comment regarding any controversial topic I may have covered, this hub is for you. I am not a great writer just a good listener with a very open soul, and you my Hub Buddies are my inspiration.

For Everyone Who Has Touched My Soul

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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

bluestar,

As one of your closest pals, I have to say I view your "sensitivity" more as "feeling leading into intuitiveness". ALL people are sensitive. Let me splain.......

In studying Jung, "Myers Briggs Inventory" personality types, we are "thinkers" or "feelers" primarily (other traits also like introverted vs extroverted....) I believe you are an extremely feeling person who cares deeply for others, you are able to do what is best (makes you great even in those controversial situations) and allows you such a beautiful range in your writing. But even "thinkers" can be very sensitive when given insensitive feedback!

I think your personality also makes you much more intuitive in nature.

So, you say sensitive like it's a bad thing? I think not, my lovely lady! Voted UP and UABI, mar.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Hey Sharyn, how are you girlfriend? Thank you for loving the new photo, I thought it was about time to let people see my wrinkles lol as I am getting older.

It is the most difficult thing to achieve to be a sensitive and remain impartial when your own soul needs to be. I haven't learnt that myself that. Although I know when my own emotional blow out is nearing. The last emotional blow out was 4 years ago and I was forced to take a break from work. My GP called it mental exhaustion, in other words I was just too tired to function. lol


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Hi Blue,

Love your new pic! I believe I understand in some ways how you are feeling. For me, especially when you talk about others you have cared for (in past hubs), you truly become "sensitive" to everything about their life. And it affects you deeply. I don't think that is a bad thing. You are a beautiful, loving, caring and compassionate woman.

For me, the problem is finding a balance between caring for and about others, and taking the time to do the same for myself. Even just trying to find that balance can be exhausting. Yes balance, something I can never seem to totally figure out! I wish you the best Blue, always,

Sharyn


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Hey Bobbi, how are you girlfriend? Being in your vocation you will understand that there is nothing more encouraging than a kind word, a gesture of love and simply a touch of the hand. It cost us nothing and means the world to someone else in need. x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Thank you Frog, It is always nice to see you stop by, especially so today as you share your words of wisdom with everyone here on my hub page. My son has a true photographic memory, read him a passage from a book and let him see the page, and he will rhyme it back word perfect. That is his gift, but he is not a sensitive. As I mention in the body of my text being a sensitive is really not that brilliant. As Wayne says if you can control it, then it is a wonderful gift but I have never been able to turn away. Even when I worked for the Church of England Children's Society, with troubled teenagers, I could never leave my feelings at work and always took

them home. I wouldn't have it any other way, but sometimes I get weary and simply want to ask "Why me?" but I live for the challenge and helping people helps me to be a better human being.


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The Frog Prince 5 years ago from Arlington, TX

Great insight for the people who are getting to know you. I can be sensitive but have to temper that with reality. Some people are beyond help because they want themselves to be. I also try to remember that when I speak, I can't take back those words. When I say something I mean it and don't let anger temper too much of it.

I know someone in life who you actually have to anger to get the truth out of them. That's a sad way to be. Why not just tell the truth right up front. I am very sensitive when someone lies to me. To repeatedly lie to me is something I'll never let get past me. It sticks forever and I tend to have a mind like a steel trap. A Frog never forgets but that is part of my photographic mind that I was blessed with.

Thanks for sharing and thought I'd share back :)

The Frog


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BobbiRant 5 years ago from New York

I personally, think sensitive is a good thing. Maybe the world could use More sensitive. Better to be sensitive than callous and unfeeling. Wonderful writing on sensitivity. I like it. It's not always easy to put feelings into words. It amazes me when people attack others on hubs or blogs, like they think the writer has No feelings. A powerful write my Dear!


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

downpourofwords, Thank you for stopping by to comment.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

poetvix thank you darling for your lovely comment and encouragement. I like to think that I am courageous, but I can definitely say that I am honest.x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Darling b. how are you my friend? I have always been sensitive to atmospheres and situations, but I can easily turn it in on myself, just as Wayne shared his opinion above, then this gift becomes a curse and is painful. I will always wear my heart on my sleeve until it finally stops beating, but heck knows it has had many bruises on the way. x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Writer 20 thank you for your comment my friend. This is only my personal opinion and I mean no offence to any other reader, but I sometimes believe that those who have passed do contact us from time to time. I often smell my dad's presence or feel a warmth from behind me and I know that he is there. It is a great comfort to me, but I would never say that I was psychic. Being a sensitive comes from the heart, a desire to open your soul and be there to help. x


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downpourofwords 5 years ago from Dallas, Texas, USA

good one. keep writing


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poetvix 5 years ago from Gone from Texas but still in the south. Surrounded by God's country.

It is a rare quality in this world to be sensitive and we need more of it. I commend your courage for speaking out on something that can be very controversial.


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b. Malin 5 years ago

I think Sensitive is Good...I for one was a Sensitive child and grew up (I hope) to be a Sensitive Woman...I feel my Sons also have a Sensitivity to many situations, and I'm proud of that. I found this Hub to be very Honest and Sensitive and I say Thank You Bluestar for putting it out there.


writer20-Joyce 5 years ago

I'm not too sure if I'm that sensative. But, since my brother passed I'm hearing a lot movement at home and a photo of him fell over the other night that has my bones shaking.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

heart4theword, I never looked at my sensitivity in that way. To be truthful I don't have tremendous faith in our God above, but that is another story. I would love to believe that God has given me a gift. Thank you so much for leaving me food for thought.


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Colin, my beautiful man with a heart of pure gold, where would I be without your loving support. You are amazing my dear friend. It is about time I sent you another boquet lol


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Cardisa darling, you and I have much in common. You have such a tender heart and a lovely warm glow irradiates from your soul. You are strong and I hope that you remain that way. xx


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

My dear friend Wayne, lovely of you to stop by, and I must say how you perceive my life to be is so correct. I have done the same as you on occasion, especially with people who live near me or are in my immediate family. As far as being 'Sensitive' to people further away or that I do not know at all, it can and does drain me on occasion. There are many times that I would love to ignore this gift/curse because I feel like I am lost, and have to keep finding myself again. You understand perfectly and have put you thoughts so much better than I have done. Bless you Wayne you are a dear friend indeed. x


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thebluestar 5 years ago from Northern Ireland Author

Binaya, thank you so much for stopping by to comment on my hub. I don't know about being brave and honest. But I can truthfully say that this experience holds me down sometimes and I often think I am at risk of losing my personality.


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heart4theword 5 years ago from hub

I agree with you, being sensitive to others is not a bad quality, it is good:) Some may mis-interpret my abilities for sensing things as ESP...but it is not that at all. Any right on senses I have, I feel is a gift from God. It is not me in anyway...it is the Holy Spirit of God, who can reveal things to you...and to me. We just have to be open to listening to what He has to share with us:) "For He will direct your paths:)" Interesting Hub Topic!


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epigramman 5 years ago

...actually your sensitivity is what makes you truly a beautiful woman of such depth, soul and heart.

lake erie time 1:45 pm on a holiday Monday here in Canada - and I should know I'm a pretty 'sensitive' guy too.


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

Hi Annette, I too am cursed like that. But mine seems a little out of control. AI sometimes feels things in my sleep. I don't mind though as it gives me some idea of what is going on around me or when someone around me is evil I can tell. They call is ESP. But being an Empath is a gift.


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Wayne Brown 5 years ago from Texas

Sometimes our sensitivity takes the reins and operates the controls. While its intent is good, the way it goes about it is not leaving the person practicing it feeling rejected and misunderstood. That does not make sensitivity bad but it does remind us not to let it gain control when those feeling of empathy arise. Recently, I heard a person discussing a need that friend of hers had. She had just gotten out of prison after serving about three years. She had no money but did have a chance to gain a job and start over working in a restaurant. But, there was a sticking point, she had to have the proper shoes with the proper anti-skid soles. I immediately felt empathy for her friend and started to insert myself into the conversation. But, I then realized that would be letting "sensitive" take charge. So, I quietly listened from the side and gathered the information that I needed. I then went out and bought two pair of the shoes and left the on the friend's desk without a word. This satisfied the sensitive side of me because I was able to help but it also left me out of the equation in terms of attempting to shape the solution. I did not expect a thank you or anything in return so there was no reason to insert myself into the matter. The shoes were the important thing. That's the best example that I can offer as to how you can have your cake and eat it too in terms of "managing sensitivity." The other caution I will issue is to do everything possible you can to keep from being naive when sensitivity does try to take over...that is the best combination of emotions to get one used and stepped on. WB


Binaya.Ghimire 5 years ago

You have raised the right question. You analyze yourself and try to give sensible answer. I find you brave and honest.

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