Bar Reflections

By: Wayne Brown

I sit at the bar and stare into the mirror behind the glass racks. I can see myself sitting there watching myself in the mirror. I hate it when I can do that. Everything about me looks ass backwards when I see myself in the mirror. I always thought that I parted my hair on the other side but every time I look in the damn mirror it confirms that I am wrong about that and all the other stuff. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I should have been left-handed. Maybe I am when I look in the mirror.


The blonde girl three stools down looks normal when I see her in the mirror. Her part in her blonde locks is right there where I pictured that it would be when I first spotted her in the mirror behind the bar. She appears to be a good mirror person; not like me all warped and back assward in the mirror. Oh what a lucky one she is. I hope she doesn’t look in the mirror at me and see my backwardness. It will be a turnoff for her and she will dismiss my presence and cast me from her future. Damn that mirror! When I see her in the mirror, I am fairly certain that she is a star of the silver screen. I have seen her in several movies. She is easily recognizable and I find myself wanting to ask for her autograph when I see her in the mirror. Glancing down the bar at her, I see only a cheap little tart in a dress that is two sizes too small. She’s got a big ass. I like her better in the mirror.


The guy there with the blonde. He looks good in the mirror too. In fact, in the mirror, he looks like a lawyer and has me convinced that he is every time I look at his mirrored image. If I needed a lawyer, I would probably ask him. I would ask him in the mirror because I would know if he took the job in the mirror he would be a better lawyer for me. When I look at him down the bar, I think he might drive a garbage truck. I don’t feel good about his qualifications to practice law. I like him better in the mirror where the name embroidered on his shirt does not show. When I look at him in the mirror, I am pretty sure that he has an office downtown or possibly uptown. Either way, it has his name on the door and a girl, ‘Friday’ sitting out in the waiting area greeting the many clients who show up at his door. His success as a great attorney is well-known throughout the town when I look at him in the mirror. When I look down the bar at him, I feel certain that his garbage truck route departs each morning before sunrise.


I wonder if I move to another stool if I will look different to me in the mirror. I wonder if I look different to them in the mirror. Does the blonde take me for a senator? Does she want to come to Washington with me and work as my personal aide-de-camp? Is she attracted to power, the kind that a senator like me wields with all my congressional committee chairmanships. Does she see me? If she saw me in the mirror like that, I think that I could look a lot different to myself when I look in the mirror. I could go down there and just ask her but who cares what that cheap little tart with the big ass thinks about anything. I’m more interested in the blonde in the mirror who wants to share my powers.


Maybe a moustache or a beard would improve my mirror image. I might become unrecognizable to myself when I looked for myself in the mirror. I would just be lost in the crowd, the crowd there in the mirror. I would have a comfort level in knowing that. I would not stand out. I would no longer be that backward freak in the mirror that I see every time I look in there while sitting here at the bar. Even that garbage truck driver down there with the blonde might be impressed. He might even point me out to his friend, the lawyer, who lives there in the mirror and knows the garbage truck driver who comes to this bar regularly.


Time to pay my tab again and leave me here in the mirror once again. I will take my backward ass on home and get some sleep so that I can show up for work tomorrow just like I did today. Then tomorrow night as soon as I get off from work, I’m going to come back down here and look for myself looking for myself in the mirror and see if I look any different. Maybe I’ll wear a hat. Maybe that blonde movie star and that lawyer will be here too. I hope so. I had rather look at them in the mirror.

(Copyright) WBrown2010

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sunflowerbucky 6 years ago from Small Town, USA

Wayne, this is my favorite hub of yours so far! A great look at self image, or maybe alcoholism? Whatever the intent, it is powerful and I love it!


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas Author

Bucky...no personal introspective here so much just the thought occurring to me that we all look in mirrors and we all see something different. From that standpoint, I think there can be a lot of interpetations here for each individual reader. I like that. You comments are much appreciated. Thanks much for stopping by.


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breakfastpop 6 years ago

Terrific hub, Wayne. Sometimes when I look in the mirror I do it with my eyes half shut. That way I look anyway I think I want to look, whatever that means!


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas Author

I know what you mean, Poppy...everybody looks better in the mirror when we squint!


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas

Nice hub Wayne and I know what you mean about mirrors I avoid them at all cost. My husband thinks Im beautiful and tells me quite often and I have turned a few heads in my time but when I look in the mirror I see something horrid that certainly cannot be me or can it? See my dilema, maybe I have one of those diseases where people see something different but it only happens when I see myself. Everyone else looks great. Oh well you gave me something to think about anyway. Nice job.


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks,Ladyjane. This hub actually amazed me a bit. I wrote it in about 10 minutes. First there was a sentence, then a paragraph and it just grew from there. I had no purpose when I started. I just wrote the first sentence on the paper and the rest just came out. After some of the comments, I have decided that it can have an array of meansings to different individuals. And to think that I almost tossed it away in an effort to suppress substandard material from my site. I learned a lot as a writer from this one. Thank you taking the time to read it and giving the feedback. Hope to see you again soon! P.S. - They did a Seinfeld episode about a woman that Jerry dated at one time that changed her looks everytime the light changed...was that you?


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Michael Shane 6 years ago from Gadsden, Alabama

Whew! Now, I have had my share of days in these taverns across the good ole U.S.A. & don't miss em' anymore...Great hub Wayne!


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks Michael. So you have drank along too?


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas

Oh yes I remember that episode very well. When he saw her in the dark she was beautiful and when in daylight she looked very old and unkept. If my memory serves me correctly that is how it went and no that isn't me. Im Elaine when she lost the masturbation contest. Lol. And you should never throw your hubs away, you write very well and remember Stephen King actually threw away Carrie when he first wrote it and his wife dug it out of the trash can and talked him into submitting it. So take my advice, you write very well. Nuff said.


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks much LJ...I will promise you that I will remember that!


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lalesu 6 years ago from south of the Mason-Dixon

Wayne, I laughed out loud. OMG! Can I be your fan, huh? please? Ralwus sent me - BTW, good recommendation.


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Wayne Brown 6 years ago from Texas Author

You sure can Lalasu...I would be honored especially if ralwus sent you. I am a big fan of his hoping to ride on the coattails of his success. He's a really great guy and an artist with words. Thank for being a fan!


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valeriebelew 6 years ago from Metro Atlanta, GA, USA

Never mind, Wayne, I found it using the search thing; don't know why I didn't do that with the other one. I just put in your name and the title of the hub, and it was that easy. Now, to read it and come back.

Okay, I read this hub and returned. Sometimes I am amazed at how deep you can be. This is about who we are versus how we present ourselves to the world, also about how we see someone when we are under the spell of infactuation, intense sexual attraction, alcohol, drugs, or all of the above, as compared to how we see the same person when we are not under their spell. Falliing in and out of love, so to speak. Very deep work that speaks to the inner soul. Voted up and awesome. Yep, you knew I'd like it. I did. NOBODY SEEMS TO LIKE ME RIGHT NOW. My score is lower than usual; maybe they aren't looking in the marrior(:v Funny thing about hubscores, my earnings are up, more people are reading my hubs, in fact close to 400 in a 24 hour period. Hubpages wants us to advertise, and I could give a rat's ass about selliing their products. If they want my attention, they need to pay me enough to get it. Pennies or 3 or four bucks a day don't do much for me; I just go right on writing what feels good to me. This one was a good hub, one of the great ones. (:v


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Becky Katz 4 years ago from Hereford, AZ

Interesting look at how we feel about ourselves. I don't like to look in mirrors because they make me look much older than I feel like I look. Hahaha


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Wayne Brown 4 years ago from Texas Author

@Becky Katz...That was my inspiration...I have sat in a bar a few times and only had the mirror to look at myself...no wonder we drink! LOL! Thank you! WB


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Becky Katz 4 years ago from Hereford, AZ

I quit drinking years ago. It is easier on us. Drinking just makes you look older.


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Wayne Brown 4 years ago from Texas Author

I have given up everything but my wine...still like it! WB

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