Baby Blue, Where Are You

Shooting star, a golden child, your hands on the key

You and mama mia sing a duet, locked in harmony

Hush little baby, don't you cry, loved you'll always be

Little one, you didn't know, what no one could foresee

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Age won't bring the answers to why or why not me

Fairytales are close enough to real life's mystery

Blue-eyed boy your killer smile holds no guarantee

Little one, you didn't know, what no one could foresee

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Too young to question Santa Claus, real or just maybe

What music plays while you sleep in your dreamy reverie

Why were the angels watching you, blind, or did they flee

Little one, you didn't know, what no one could foresee

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Planets must be out tonight, not aligned, they disagree

Confusion, chaos, crying, silence, a broken family tree

Baby blue, where are you, betrayal claims an abductee

Little one, you didn't know, what no one could foresee

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Alone, your body cold, lays beneath the cemetary tree

No time to ponder Santa Claus or the angels reality

Nor mama's brutal hands that once touched lovingly

Baby blue, a shooting star, here and gone, now free

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A Tale of Parental Frustration, Anger and Horror

This is a true story that happened two-days ago in St. Louis, MO. The day it occurred the media captivated the attention of local residents with live, ongoing coverage. Its devastating conclusion has left the city in a state of incomprehensible horror.

The music I chose is a twist on the intended interpretation, but the liberty I took does not compete with the twisted events that actually occurred. ,


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TheManWithNoPants 5 years ago from Tucson, Az.

Powerful, and more proof of your genuine sensitivity mixed with incredible creativity. This kind of thing is one of those things that it too painful to dwell on for me. It's heatbreaking, and heartbreak pisses me off.

Love ya kiddo .. Tell Mac Man howdy for me.

jim


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Amy - beautiful! I, too, am so saddened by this tragedy. I am so glad you wrote this piece! It is a powerful poem that yanks at the heart strings. That poor child - and I know as mothers we shake our heads and wonder how in the world coule this happen?!

Up and everything but funny.


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shea duane 5 years ago from new jersey

so sad. but your poem is well written and filled with real emotion...


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Jim,

I get pissed, too. The 20-year old mom had so many supportive friends that lived nearby. But, in the early morning hours, when she got in, she acted viciously out of frustration and who knows what else. There are many details still unknown. The crisis nursery is a St. Louis based volunteer organization that doesn't turn anyone away. However, according to friends, and the medical examiner, this little guy was not abused prior to this event. And, in her impulsive out of control state-of-mind, she acted. Short of being in the room to intervene, nothing could have stopped her. She lived with the grandma, who left at 7:30 a.m. for work. All I know is I couldn't leave Mac, alone, dead beneath a tree in the cemetary. Poor baby...


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear RealHousewife, I hoped you'd see my piece since I know you had to have seen news coverage. What really threw me for a loop was the huge presence of many close friends who said she was the best mom ever. There were many twists and turns as the media reported the man carrying a baby away from the house in a blue blanket, which turned out to be bogus, the support from her friends, implications aimed at the dad, talk of a custody issue, on and on. It is so bizarre that I wonder if drugs or a psychotic break weren't involved. During a news conference with the prosecuting attorney, one of the reporters asked if heroin use was part of it. The question couldn't be answered, but the way it was asked sounded more like a known fact. Thank you for letting me know this was o.k. I debated whether to write it. I value your input, my friend. It matters a lot to me.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Shea, Thank you for your kind words. St. Louisan's won't soon forget this tragedy. Friends held a remembrance at the cemetary where his little body was found by a dog walker. The participants left stuffed toys, signs and lit candles. Early this morning, the candles started a fire that the fire dept. put out. They put the memorial back as best they could after dealing with the fire. It was just one more freakish element to this sad, devastating story.


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

A mother who apparently did not previously abuse her child and then kill him after returning from wherever, must have been under the influence of drugs or have had a psychotic breakdown. Yet, the latter does not happen overnight, and the first - WTH is to be taken to drive a mother out of her motherness and total senses? Did she kill him perhaps accidentally? Of cause I can merely speculate without all facts on the table. But is there anything in this world we may use as an excuse for abuse and/or murder.

Voted up and to be pondered.


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drbj 5 years ago from south Florida

Such a sad but tender poem, Amy, reflecting a horrible and senseless tragedy. We may never know what internal/external demons drove this young mother to commit this unbelievable crime. Despite the fact there were supportive friends and a grandmother in residence. So sad!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Martie, Apparently, according to the mother, the baby woke up and wouldn't stop crying. She lost it. Then, she walked about a mile, carrying him to the nearby cemetary and left him there. She told the police she woke up and found him gone. As things unfolded, she was arrested the next day and then admitted that she had become frustrated and lost control. Her friends all said the same thing, that she devoted her life to the baby. The grandmother is staying somewhere else other than her home now. The investigators said the mom remained calm while the grandma was hysterical when the baby's identity was confirmed by the medical examiner. She is jailed with a $500,000 cash only bond. Now, a baby's dead and the mother will probably spend the rest of her days in prison. Beyond sad...


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear drbj, It is a tragedy from every angle. Its scary to think that a momentary lapse of uncontrolled rage can end so ultimately devastating. There are no winners, only loss. Thank you for visiting and your understanding comment.


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shea duane 5 years ago from new jersey

That fire is ever sadder... it seems a sign about how destructive the world can be to those who are vulnerable. Thank you for this poem.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Shea. I felt the same way. I had the feeling that the destructive evil that permeated this catastrophic event was marked by fire. It gives me chills. Thank you for your perceptive comment, Shea.


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susan54 5 years ago

Amy, Great hub! I love your writings so very much! You my friend are super. Vote up! I just got back from a little shopping and getting my flattop shaved up hair seem to be getting shorter each time. I so love it. Shaved bald sides and back. Thank you. I love your works. bye.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Awwww, Susan, thank you for your sweet, kind words. You made my day!

I can imagine the easy daily routine of a flattop. Most importantly, it looks fabulous on you.


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susan54 5 years ago

Amy, You don't have one yet!!! Come join us my friend.


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A.A. Zavala 5 years ago from Texas

Tragic story, beautiful eulogy. We can take comfort in the fact that the life cut short on earth will be lived to then end of time in heaven. Epic...


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Augustine. I appreciate your beautiful, poetic response. I can see why your "Little Black Book" would be full.


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Oh dear Amy...this one really gets to me...it is so profound and so sad. I've always loved the poem 'Little Boy Blue,' and this resonates so closely - on an emotional level - to that though, not the same circumstances. How utterly sad. When you use the term "little one" my heart just melts..because in that phrase, you are telling us just how tender, how fragile, how innocent, how sweet and young this little one is. A term that always floors me. As always, Amy, you've touched the hearts and minds of your loyal friends and followers with your sensitive and amazingly creative writing. My soul mourns for this little one..baby blue.and the last line; "Baby blue, a shooting star, here and gone, now free." absolutely stunning!!!!! Oh, I wish I could hold that sweet soul and give comfort. WOW..what a beautifully sorrowful poem, Amy. A work of art. Up Awesome Beautiful.

PS...I just realized that this is an actual story...I had no idea..that's how isolated I've been for quite a while..must join the real world...and soon!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dearest sweet soul, Kathy, this happened not far from where I live. The whole afternoon was continuous coverage as St. Louisan's were riveted to the TV and watched the huge police presence, heard the helicopters overhead and listened to the young friends of the mother talk about how wonderful and devoted a young mom she was. Today, I saw a young man who identified himself as her boyfriend and said she was with him the night before, just hanging out, no booze, no drugs. When the police took the mom in the next day after finding her baby's body, she admitted to beating him with her hands because he wouldn't stop crying. I have a feeling she's going to spend a long, long time in prison, unless the other inmates do to her what her baby endured at her hands. I remember when a convicted pedophile, a Catholic priest finally went to jail, he was brutally murdered by the inmates. Even the most heinous criminals detest crimes against children.

Thank you, Kathy, for visiting me here. Even though you didn't see any news coverage on this (it was all local) your empathetic, compassionate heart understands as if you were there. I almost wish she had been drinking or taking drugs, as it would be less of a mystery. Not being able to say "oh, that's why" makes the unpredictable, uncharacteristic behavior in the mother all the more frightening. If it can happen to her, it can happen to anyone. However, even the police were upset, stressed and noted that this was so abnormal, they suspected the mother from the outset. Someone walking their dog found the little guy. Truthfully, I don't think I'd ever get over seeing that little baby left under a tree.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I couldn't miss the coverage...I am so mystified still. I would like to know how it all happened though because I hope that people learn from it. What not to do - or when intervention should happen to prevent these things. Such an incredible waste. Yes I am glad you are bringing this out in case it is only being covered here in Missouri. One of the sad things is that we often only hear the news right when things like this happen - then they deal with it and we never hear anything else. I want to know what makes people do this stuff - I think they should use this for education. For instance, was there something that could have been done to prevent this?


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Real, What I'm hearing is that the police classify homicides as "coldblooded" or "hot-blooded". Cold-blooded meaning it was pre-meditated. This murder is considered hot-blooded as she committed the crime in a moment of rage. I've been hearing about St. Louis Crisis Nursery, which I knew of, but the fit of anger that resulted in the baby's beating and death could not have been prevented. She was in an irrational state that, short of being in the room to intervene, it was going to happen. Realistically, with no prior event in this baby's past, I do not believe this could have been prevented, as no one could have anticipated this behavior in this mom. Yes, she could have left the room or any number of alternative actions, but, she didn't. That is the only thing that matters. And, that is what is so incredibly frustrating...and sad.


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

You have heard more than me! I do know about St. Louis Crises Nursery! I volunteered at Juvy Hall on Vandeventer too...those places need help! I bet you're right too - I thought they said she was on drugs or drunk so already not in the right frame of mind....my heart breaks for that child, and that moment the mother will never be able to retract.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Actualy, Real, her boyfriend said she spent the evening with him, no drugs, no alcohol; he said she wasn't a party girl. She texted him the next morning and invited him over for breakfast. The boyfriend was worried and wanted to check on the baby, as she said he was still sleeping. She wouldn't let the boyfriend go in; she said she'd go check on him. Then, he said she screamed that he was gone. The boyfriend called 911. I don't understand why she'd invite the boyfriend over if she knew she'd killed the baby. Now I'm wondering about the grandma. None of this story sounds logical or feels right. The more I hear, the more bizarre it becomes.


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

I will never understand how a Mother or Father can kill their child, although it's done frequently. I've worked with abused babies and children, the horror stays with me after 20 some years. Your poetry is beautiful Amy. I could see the details unfold in your words. I could also feel your hurt..Thank you..


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susan54 5 years ago

Amy,Just here to sat hi, Love your hubs.New pic of last summers haircut.LOl


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

always exploring, Thank you for your selfless dedication to work that is so necessary, yet so heartbreaking, few can do it for long. I can't help but correlate it with all the children that were hurt by wolves dressed in sheep's clothing, figureheads that carried authority. There was a time when no one questioned the intentions of a priest. One good thing that finally came from the truth is the death of blind followers. Parents did not and would not believe the abuses that the children were too afraid to voice. The faithful did not understand that the blind faith that the Catholic Church preached was reserved for God, not infallible men who thought they were gods. It proved fertile grounds for the ultimate betrayal of those they were entrusted to protect. Thank you, always exploring, for your thoughtful and thought-provoking comments.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Hi there, my friend, Susan! Thank you for your sweet comment. And, by the way, how come you keep getting younger? You look like a kid in that new photo. Not fair!


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

A beautiful hub and thanks for sharing.

Take care and I wish you a wonderful day.

Eddy.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you Eddy, and a wonderful day to you, too!


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susan54 5 years ago

Amy, You are to kind to me, thanks so much!


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Amy, this is truly beyond sad. I just can't imagine getting that angry... my maximum level of tolerance for babies and children are just too high. For men, yes, the level is low. I've hit mine with my handbag over his head the first day I had caught him with another woman, and I have given him a permanent scar on his cheek with my nails. First of all because he underestimated my intelligence... Now that could have been a fatal event - one can kill without intention - hitting accidentally a soft spot like a temple.

Drugs, alcohol, may reduce maximum levels to minimum....

Imagining the event send shivers upon shivers of horror through me. The poor child... fortunately he did not really know what was happening to him.

Take care!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Although, he didn't know anything about murder, I am sure he felt his mother's out-of-control rage. I would imagine he was very, very scared. I wondered if it wasn't the baby's sense of her mood that made him cry uncontrollably. I think its too unbearable to even imagine. Yes, Martie, there is a world of difference hitting an adult SOB for behaving like a child and an adult beating an innocent baby. I've been angry enough to hit a man, but knew I'd be pulverized, and self-preservation held me in check from acting on the impulse. The boyfriend claims she did not use drugs or alcohol. The whole story is bizarre and according to the mom's many friends, totally uncharacteristic. She has, essentially, ended two lives. and devastated everyone that loved them both.


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sam-eg 5 years ago from Happy Land

Awesome Amybecherer!! incredible creativity for such a sad story, excellent hub


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear sam-eg, You made my day! Thank you for your generous comments.


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kellymom1970 5 years ago

Amy, Hey girl! Hope you had a wounderful thanksgiving!!


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Awwww, Kelly, you're a sweetheart. Thank you and I hope you enjoyed your Thanksgiving, too!


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epigramman 5 years ago

....well Amy it took the epi-man 12 whole days to catch up with this new classic by you - but better late than never as they say - and again - your two most distinctive hallmarks as a world class writer/poet/thinker/journalist/humanitarian .... is in your intelligence and sensitivity - thank you too for shedding much needed light on this story and educating us in a most sincere way with your caring and intimate words.

This will be posted to my Facebook page with a direct link back here so perhaps more people can see/read the miracles found in your writer's craft here at the Hub.

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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

As always, Colin, I so appreciate your visit and poetic comments. Though I would think the same thoughts, without you and my many friends here at the hub, I would not write them. You and my readers inspire me to try to make sense of the world, and especially the fascinating, sometimes scary and beyond strange, people. Although its been said that there is nothing left unimagined or undone, every person puts their own set of circumstances and spin on everything they think or do. Thank you, Colin, for your visit and profound understanding. You are an inspiration.


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Tragic yet so real. It is unimaginable how a mother could do this to her own child, but it happens too often. Once is too often. I will never understand it. Your poetry is powerful, Amy, and evokes the full despair of such a travesty.


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Genna, So happy to see you here. The news is tragic whenever a baby dies at the hands of a parent. I watched a program yesterday about the economic crisis and how children are going to school hungry everyday. It was heartbreaking to see how many victims now live in abject poverty through no fault of their own. The grieving parents who feel guilty desperation over the homelessness and hunger of their children, paints a picture of America I never thought I'd see.

Off topic, I know, but it seems I see so many children in desperate circumstances today. It is very sobering.


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Docmo 4 years ago from UK

No one else can turn such a tragic tale into a powerful, passionate cri du couer, Amy. You wow us with each turn of phrase, every heartfelt line and emotive words. There is such power in your writing, it sends shivers up my spine! Love it, and Love ya.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I got a shiver up my spine when I saw you were here. I miss you so much and I don't say that easily. Thank you for your words, as they always give me a thrill. Love you, miss you and hope you are where you belong...happy and on top of the world.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

you're a fantastic writer, Amy. Regardless of the subject matter, you are always a treat to read!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear PDXKaraoke,

I consider your words the ultimate compliment coming from a fantastic writer. Thank you, PDX!


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Thanks Amy. Mutual admiration, no doubt


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Freya Cesare 4 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Tragic. I hate when that happen but it seem similar cases happens a lot! I was worked with 3 defustating cases last years. One is so awful. The family have 8 children and these kids became the hostages if Mama dare to leave the house. She did it once, and her husband made their children lined up naked in front of the house, under hard rain, beating their butts with stick. Nobody witnessed this but the victims since they live out of nowhere and they refused to send their father to jail because no matter what, he is their father. The mother ran back home right the way and refused to meet me or social workers since that time. I am so afraid we will found her death someday.

Beautiful but really sad poem, Amy. This kind of poem is really important to share with others, so I will. Thank you.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Freya, The statistics are staggering for homeless, malnourished children today. I am sure the economy is a huge part of parental stress and resultant abuse. I don't know if it factored into this story. The mom was cleared of drug use and had a reputation among her friends and neighbors as a devoted, loving mother to her baby. Of course, no one knows what happens in the life and mind of another. Unfortunately, the end results are tragically wasted lives. Thank you for sharing the story you relayed. Whenever I hear stories of domestic violence, I can't help but think about how scary and desperate the children must feel. It is heartbreaking. I often wish there was a way to know. Sometimes, just a helping hand at a desperate moment can make all the difference.


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Freya Cesare 4 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Hi, Amy. I kind of lost at the Baby Blue words; completely forgot there is one called baby blues inside my dictionary of mental health. Language still become my barrier in Here and there. ???_???

I read it had something to do with mother's hormonal changes, traumatic labour and stress which somehow caused irrational anger, delution or hallucination. Unless this is what early report of one case I was took a peek over curiosity told me a few year ago since I never really studying it.

There is a woman, her baby only 7 days old. Her first and of course only baby which she finally had after she reached 41 years old. The long time waiting baby. One day she said her baby was sleep inside her room and she decided to cook meal for the family. Surprisingly she found very big snapper at the table. Maybe her husband brought it the early morning before he was go to the office. So, decide want to cook something special, she started cleaning the fish. She was very absorbed in doing that until she heard people screamed and few people tried to take the fish and the knife away from her hand. It is not written in the report so I'm not sure when exactly she realized that it was not fish. There was no fish there at all to began with. It was her baby. And she skinned him like people usually skinned fish. Last time I heard she was still under cop's custody. Media decided that reported the case once was enough and never mentioned about it again.

I believe she is inside nut house right now.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, Freya, I gasped as I read this. I have to believe that psychosis after childbirth must be hormonally induced combined with the lack of sleep in those prone to mental illness. I remember Brooke Shields suffering severe post-partum depression and the criticism she got from Tom Cruise for endorsing medication. He eventually apologized. It is real and the scary part is it happens with no prior psychotic breaks...strictly hormonal. The medical field is much quicker now to prescribe antidepressants because the consequences of the "wait and see" approach are too high. The story you tell is horrific. I cannot imagine the horror that woman will feel the rest of her life with the realization of what she did...under any circumstances.

Your command of the language, Freya, is beautiful, as your writing here at the hub reveals.


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susan54 4 years ago

Amy, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! My friend, I hope you have a great holiday season.bye


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arusho 4 years ago from University Place, Wa.

This is so sad, I'm not familiar with the story, but it's not like we haven't heard and read these stories before.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Susan, Merry Christmas to you, my friend. Thank you for thinking of me. You are a sweetheart!


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

arusho, It is a sad, but true statement that even this kind of tragedy is not shocking to the majority. It is shocking to me, however, that even her closest friends saw no signs. It is beyond my scope of knowledge as far as psychotic breaks, but according to her large group of friends, it must have been a sudden, scary event. Thank you so much for visiting and your comment.


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sligobay 4 years ago from east of the equator

Best wishes for a Happy, healthy and prosperous New Year. You write with great empathy and expressed confusion over an impossible subject matter. Tears cascade from the heavens in torrents.


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kellymom1970 4 years ago

Amy, Happy New Year! I gave the neighbor lady who is 47 a military flattop for 2012. She went from should length to flattop this is her picture. What do you think sexy! Good Luck in 2012.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear sligobay, Oh, that avatar...not as handsome as you, but I love the symbolism. I appreciate your New Year's Eve visit and your beautiful comments. It feels like a good omen for 2012. Happy New Year, Gerry.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Kellymom, Thank you for thinking of me with your kind New Year's wishes, my thoughtful friend. The best to you in 2012!

Although, I can't see the young lady's face, I know the haircut rocks, because you are the barber! A brave move for a brand new year!


Vincent Moore 4 years ago

Amy my gifted scribe you penned from your heart such a sad event, Vincent sheds a tear here as he reads such bitter sorrow. Why oh why does this occur to often. Children suffer from wrongs turned sour by a parent(s) who have fallen victims themselves to our Mad mad world.

I pray for all the children in our world. Abuse is a sick think and that's why I sent Saddle for a rest much needed. Vincent now will try his best to bring calm in his work. My friend I thank you for sharing through your gifted words here. I bow my head in prayer for this little girl gift from God, may he take her in his fold and hold her near to his loving heart. Hugs from me to you.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dearest Vincent, I knew your heart would be open to compassion for this little one. His mother said he'd been abducted, but it was she that took his body and laid it naked in the cold under a tree in a nearby cemetary. I cannot even imagine it. Thank you for visiting this sad piece and your prayer.


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lisadpreston 4 years ago from Columbus, Ohio

This poem was beautifully written but I almost wish I hadn't read it. This stirred up too many emotions in me. I probably wont be able to sleep tonight.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Lisa, I felt the same way after seeing the constant "live" media coverage on the day this happened. I still think about it and it is still difficult for me to fathom.


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acaetnna 4 years ago from Guildford

What a completely tragic story, beautifully and sensitively written. I have to say I've shed a few tears reading this Amy.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you so much, acaetnna. I feel bad that my friends, who are kind enough to visit me at the hub, are saddened by this true account of an all-to-common tragedy. I hesitated writing it, because there is no "up" side to this story. I appreciate your kind and sensitive words.


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Astra Nomik 4 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

What a sad chapter of someone's life. To have gone through this...what can one say. Children end up being the victims so often. And they can't defend themselves against an adult, they don't know how to. Interesting song choice too.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I remember that day and all of St. Louis was glued to the day long TV news coverage. All of the mother's friends were adamant about her devotion to her baby boy. It was shocking and heartbreaking to learn the unbelievable truth. Thank you for taking the time to read this, Astra. I appreciate your comments.


Ralwus 4 years ago

This reminds me of the 'Blue Boy', from here where I live. A book, "Abandoned Prayers" tells the story. So sad things like that happen. Got to git now. I will return some day. Hugs, CC


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

My dear Ralwus, I am going to call you "the phantom". Please don't stay away so long. I'm going to write something soon to try to bring you back. Take good care of yourself, my sweet friend. I've got a bottle of wine for your next visit. In the meantime, I'm going to find "Abandoned Prayers".


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WD Curry 111 4 years ago from Space Coast

The Native American system where aunts and neighbors were intimate with a new mother and had customary responsiblity for hands on attention in daily affairs was conciously eliminated. Like the Indian Affairs guy said about the Indian Schools, ". . . get the we out. We will teach them to exalt the individual like Americans do." It is not just her failure. We need to be a cohesive group to be happy and survive. We can't make it alone.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear WD, I appreciate your strong background in history and how right you are. It takes a village to raise a child. After this sad event, the St. Louis 24/7 crisis center was brought to light. Many did not know it existed. It is a life-saver, particularly with families stressed to the brink. This crisis clinic is a safe haven when there is no where left to turn, preferably before the situation escalates to sky-high emotions and losing control. Unfortunately, young, single moms with few resources aren't equipped to rationally make the best decisions for the child, as some are children themselves. Even her best friends believed she was an ideal mother. Often,no one knows what happens within a family and when the mom came home in the early morning hours and her baby boy would not stop crying, she lost control. She lived with her own mother, who worked, and apparently was asleep. The grandmother had no idea what happened and believed her daughter that the baby had been abducted. It is tragic that the young mother reacted to the fatigue and frustration of the moment, as two young lives were forever lost. The mother was arrested and will spend her youth in prison, while her baby never had a chance to experience but an early snapshot of live. Thank you for your "right on" comment, WD.


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WD Curry 111 4 years ago from Space Coast

They are lucky to have you as part of the community.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

What a wonderfully kind statement, WD. Thank you. I needed that!


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

beautifully done.. Oh My but so sad. I haven't heard about it before but like others have said these awful things happen all the time. And that's what is so sad.

Blessings to you for writing this.. I am sharing

Debbie


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sen.sush23 4 years ago from Kolkata, India

Amy, Thanks to Debbie, I came upon your Hub. You are a powerful writer. Not every one will be able to give such a heart-rendering picture with those apparently simple couplets. It makes me want to cry. In my city in Kolkata, last week, we had two media coverages of two young moms (20-25) abusing their children so much that neighbors had to take action, to rescue the children. Both were working and living alone, separated from their husband. We have usually strong family support systems in India, and it is most unusual to hear of children being abused by mothers, but as you say, we never get to know what kind of mental trauma drives a mother to act un-motherly! Voted up beautiful.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Debbie, Thank you for stopping here and leaving your empathetic, understanding comment. I appreciate your sharing my poem with sen.sush23! I consider that the highest compliment from a writer of your caliber. I am sending you my sincerest gratitude.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

That mom if we could call her by such a holy name and mom's should be holy not out of a Frankenstein movie is unfortunately lucky that I live so far away in Riga, Latvia. Cause if I got to her me who had to bury a much wanted still-born girl and lost another to spontaneous abortion and wound up with no children would rip her apart piece by oh soooo sloooow piece. I damn her to hell. Your poem was so lovely may that angel of a little boy rest in peace I know the Lord has already given him comfort.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear sen.sush23, I appreciate your visit. WD Curry left an very interesting comment here related to exactly what you describe in India; community involvement in raising children. The fact that the children you mentioned were "rescued" as opposed to this baby boy I dedicated my poem to, who perished at the hands of his mother, illustrates that it does, indeed, take a village to raise a child. Intervention on behalf of innocent children could have changed the tragic scenario that shocked all of St. Louis. Baby Blue would be on his way to growing up, enjoying many more birthdays and his mom would have the time to step back and understand the blessings of motherhood, rather than spending a good portion of her life in prison. Those few moments in an overwhelmed, young mother's life left devastating, irreparable consequences. Support could have been her and her baby's lifeline.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Dear Gypsy Rose Lee, First, may I tell you how sorry I am that you lost two, much loved babies. Your anger, over the unnecessary death of a perfect little boy at the hands of his mother, is understandable. In fact, the mother may well encounter the rage of women within her new residence, jail. Some of the most heinous criminals take the law into their own hands when it comes to a "baby killer". The mother will not only contend with the loss of her freedom (a constant reminder of what she has done), but enough fear for her own life she will need to sleep with one eye open and spend most of her time watching her back. At least as an adult, she has more advantages than her baby boy did. It is very difficult to feel sympathy for the fact that the mother's own desire to sleep, after she chose to spend the night away with her boyfriend, took precedence over the needs of her child. I try not to judge, but no matter how I try to imagine the mother's immaturity and frustration, ultimately, a beautiful baby was murdered. The day it happened, all of St. Louis watched, as the mother continued to lie about the chain of events, insisting a stranger abducted her baby. I cannot wrap my head around the idea that she not only murdered him with her bare hands, lied about what she knew was the truth, and carried her dead little boy and laid him, naked, in the cold, beneath a tree in a nearby cemetery. It is unimaginable.

Thank you, Gypsy Rose Lee, for visiting and leaving your words. I am sorry that my piece made you think about something so painful.


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epigramman 4 years ago

..Hi Amy - you are still one of the best and greatest writers I've ever had the pleasure of reading and meeting - I would recommend your work to anyone in this world and I would also brag about you too - I found this marvel of writing (and of course you are such a marvelous writer) as posted by our Deborah Brooks who is a member of our music/cinema group called Let's just talk music or cinema (which I created on Facebook and it's not the silly BS normally associated with FB either - we actually have a lot of fun there sharing videos and discussing movies and music in a most fun and unpretentious way) please drop by if you can - because I know Augustine invited you there over a month ago - and hugs, as you know they are sincere, to you and your beloved Mac. lake erie time 6:02am just home from work


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Hi Colin, Yes, I just had the pleasure of meeting Deborah when she made her way to this poem. I've become a follower of her captivating writings. She wrote a story about love and intrigue in the San Padre Islands that felt like a "sign" to me as it so closely resembled a former workmate's "Princess" storybook life. It was uncanny, as it's the first of Deborah's writings I've read. As soon as the story began, I wondered if she knew my friend.

I'll have to check out your new Facebook venture. With your extraordinary interest in music, film and the arts, the idea certainly has your name written all over it! I remember seeing A.A.'s invitation, but life has been "never a dull moment" and I've not done much at the hub other than answer some of the diverse and interesting questions. I could, if I had the time, spend 24/7 online!

Hugs to you and your kitty clan, Colin, and thank you for reading this sad poem and leaving your kind comments.

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