Back Away When Your Having A Bad Day

Find Quiet Time

All stressed out

Life closing in

Can't breathe

Can't think straight

The littlest thing setting you off

You don't feel like eating

Overwhelmed by all your thoughts at once

I know how it feels

Like a vicious cat

Clawing at me and hissing

One more time swiping

Ready to attack

Break away from the cycle

I have been here before

A long time ago

It was not a pretty sight

Not a time I was proud of

My feelings constantly eating me up from inside

I turn to my wife for support

Like a soldier out numbered and cornered

Calling in for reinforcements

Finding out none are coming

You are on your own

To make matters worse nighttime is upon us

Now deeply hurt and depression taking hold

I know I can't and won't go there

I can't reason

I am an abandoned lost puppy left out in the cold

I keep asking all the important questions

Did I bring this on myself ?

Could this situation be avoided ?

I honestly think it was meant to happen

A collision course that should of been sighted

If we were thinking ahead

If we done the necessary planning

Unfortunately neither was done

I have an outburst

One of uncontrollable anger and frustration

Weeping and sobbing

Letting lose

The pain of my flesh being torn

As if tangled on a barbed wire fence

There is no way forward and no way back

I stop to pray

Is this how I want to spend my day ?










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shanmarie 6 weeks ago from Texas

And this is very fitting for the thoughts that were running through my head just a few minutes ago. Not only am I not going to spend my day that way, but there are times not that long ago . . .I've sworn never to sink that low again. The cost is too high. Hope you have a better day, Michael.


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

Shanmarie This is one of those times in my life I dislike very much. I am working through it. Not everyone sees or understands my frustration. I am learning to deal with it by talking through it. I find comfort in others who are going through the same struggle. We all think different for many people's they don't care and move on as quickly as it takes a kernel of popcorn to pop.Being a writer I look into the situation deeper and my brain keeps circling around the same track. May your day rise like a fresh home baked bread in the oven. Thank you for commenting and caring.


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shanmarie 6 weeks ago from Texas

I can understand that. Some things can easily be let go of. Other things I find bubble up inside until it just explodes. The safest way to let it explode is usually through writing because it releases the emotions and probably saves my sanity, too. However, I also am not always great at saying what I want to say to people unless it is through writing and sometimes expressing my emotions in writing is not the best - for them, anyway. If I'm hurt or defensive or upset about something else, it just pours out. But I guess those that really know me understand that about me. It's an outlet and a coping mechanism. Then again, saying what I feel in writing to someone is also a good thing, considering I'm generally not a sentimental or as sweet when speaking whenver I try to say something meaningful to someone.

And then. . .when it comes to other struggles in life in general. . .writing about it can also be a great relief. It helps sort out those feelings and emotions. And it often helps me refocus on the positive things.

As for my day. . .it's been a thoughtful one. Lots of things on my mind today. But not a bad day, just a thoughtful one. Some things to consider, some things I realized while considering, and some things that just are and I can't change it even if I want to. If I had to share one bad part, perhaps the only bad part so far. . . the hound dog came rushing through the door when the kids got hom. He's not ours. Watching him for someone and he barks at the cats. In response to being chased, one of the cats tried to climb my leg as I was trying to get to the dog. Four dogs and one cat all came running out of the room as I was trying to go in. I nearly fell over them and now I have a giant scratch across the back of my leg. This is why I am a cat person and not a dog person. But in this instance, not so much of a cat person either. He should've just kept putting those sitickers of his in the dog's snout. Maybe he'd eventually learn to leave the cats alone. Oh well. Not the first time I've ever been scratched, having had cats my entire life. I've got some scars to prove it dating back to childhood. And it certainly will not be the last time.


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Jodah 6 weeks ago from Queensland Australia

This is unlike your usual positive, uplifting hubs, DreamOn. The last I remember like this was when you had to train a new unappreciative colleague at work. I can tell your situation must be a bad one, and I hope it improves soon. It does help to be able to write about these unhappy situations.


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MsDora 6 weeks ago from The Caribbean

Your readers (I for one) can identify with the everyday scenarios you share in your poetry. You do a good job of making us know that we are not alone, so please also know that you are not alone. When you stop to pray, please include us all.


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

Shanmarie Life keeps charging at us like a raging bull ready or not. All we can do is dodge em or stop him. Stopping him is not an option. I admire how you handle your day even though your heading every which way. Thanks for sharing and caring.


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

Jodah Right now I am in an inner turmoil. I have practiced many times in the past how to stay positive through it all. I rely on my past experience to carry me through. So far I'm still struggling with different options. None seem to be the choices I want. I hope your day is exceeding your expectations and your good day will rub off on me. Thank you for reading and sharing.


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

MsDora My prayers have been answered through your kind words. Now I just have to turn it into the physical world. That might take some time. Be patient I am trying my best. Life happens and we have to adapt. I wish it was as easy as those orange electrical adapters that plug on to a cord and your done. Presto! I will keep trying and may you day be filled with stunning beautiful flowers that radiate joy. Thank you for all your help.


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shanmarie 6 weeks ago from Texas

I'm far from one to admire, but thanks! I just try as best I can to stay positive. It's not always easy and sometimes I fail miserably. But there's nothing else to do but get back up and try again. Keep the hope. Keep the faith. You keep doing the same. We are never alone even when it feels that way.


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Michael-Milec 6 weeks ago

Oh DREAM ON, there are moments in life (once or twice in the beginning) when running on one way street seemingly without an exit. Then I came upon a sign "come to me, all who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest." Realizing my helplessness won't solve anything by worry or impatience, quickly i have accepted the direction of His living word, finding my test for my soul. (It works, how it works I don't understand, only I know it does very time I trust and believe.)

[ Carrying on conversation (praying silently in spirit?! yes just like that,- the burden is lifted and a peace like river overflows my soul.] I see the sunshine is brighter, even beyond the clouds; overpowering bad days ...


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

Shanmarie Facing many obstacles in life we all can learn from each other. It's always nice to have friends to count on. Michael -Milec God works in mysterious ways. Open are hearts and all can be healed. Thank you both for reading and sharing. Wishing you a wonderful weekend.


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Faith Reaper 6 weeks ago from southern USA

Finding quiet time to pray and be with Him is so important during these times of turmoil in one's life, which we all go through, and knowing He hears and understands all. I pray you experience His peace, the peace that passes all understanding.

Hugs and much love


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Gypsy Rose Lee 6 weeks ago from Riga, Latvia

Sometimes my days seem to be a tango - a bit forward then two steps back until finally it all comes together and I can accomplish something.


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

Faith Reaper Learning to listen when it is so easy to get mixed up , confused and carried away. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. May your day shine like all the bright lights at an airport.


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DREAM ON 6 weeks ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee You summed it up perfectly. My day leads into more days. I keep looking for slight improvements. Patience is the key. I keep seeing challenges and keep an open mind till new opportunities reveal themselves. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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