Beauty ~ God Has Given Me The Desire Of My Heart

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Beauty ~ God Has Given Me The Desire Of My Heart

The idea of each of us having our own internal ‘happy place’ has become a familiar concept in our culture nowadays; it’s become a common punch-line in TV sitcoms when a character is confronted by some manner of unpleasantness for him or her to ‘go to their happy place’. I’ve never intentionally designed a ‘happy place’ for myself, and I’ve not really practiced the utilization of ‘going to my happy place’ when frustrated – but I do acknowledge a kind of daydreaming from time-to-time of my own personal most delightful, most desirable, most downright enchanting place or circumstance . . .

I visualize myself in a classroom with maybe 3 or 4 other students, each smarter than myself, in an ancient stone classroom on the campus of England’s Oxford or Cambridge University, our professor C.S.Lewis enters walking directly to a window overlooking the green grounds sprouting cathedral-like school buildings, points to a single rose under a glass dome atop a pedestal and asks us, ‘which is greater; truth, love, or beauty?’.

I just about always go too philosophical, I'm inclined toward ideas like ‘which is greater; truth, love, or beauty?’ . . . I like to assure myself that is why I have so few readers and comments as a ‘hubber’ here at HubPages. It’s nothing to do with the quality of my writing or even the topics I choose to write about, is what I tell myself – it’s just that I set the practical aside and always get too conceptual, too ‘wordy’, too philosophical. So, with this month’s theme of ‘Beauty’, my intention was to probe the very nature, the essential concept of beauty . . . how do we come to count a thing beautiful rather than ugly, what is beauty and what significance does it have, etc?

Another aspect of my writing here is, I tend to frequently get all theological and talk about God and the Bible, etc . . . and from the apostle Paul to the scholastic Augustine to the puritan Jonathan Edwards, many theologians have again and again advanced the Trinity to be the source of all beauty. So, now I’m fully determined to go on and on about the philosophical ideas behind and that are generated from our apprehension of ‘beauty’ in excruciating theological terms . . . is it the omnipotent yet benevolent authority of the triune God that is beautiful, the intimate, shared love within the divine relationship (Father, Son, etc) within the Trinity that is the nexus of all beauty?

However, besides the too philosophical and too theological approach I too often take, if there’s one other perpetual component in my writing that I imagine readers here must have reached their threshold for it’s the relentless swooning over the delicious-to-my-soul beauty of my never-ending bride that I assault all of you with again and again . . . and I’m afraid, yet again.

I’d like to spend time examining the philosophic underpinnings of the concept of beauty, I’d love to deeply ponder the theological engine that informs our idea of beauty – but, I can’t clear my head of my sweetheart’s beauty, I can’t focus my thoughts on theoretic beauty, when I have the great love of my life’s beauty relentlessly intoxicating me. Now, please understand; what’s so arrestingly beautiful about my Pixie is that, while she initially lured and captured me with her most remarkable physical beauty, beauty that still literally makes me feel woozy, it’s her personal, inner, character beauty that is such a dilemma to articulate and leaves me always staggered.

And, when I say “always”, I mean we’re as close to 60 as you can get and I’ve known her since she was 14. I’ve watched her grow and mature and I’ve recognized who I’ve become because of sharing my life with her . . . and I’ve delighted that our lives are one, we are one. Words fail when it comes to Pixie; it’s ludicrous to say she’s sweet because she’s so untainted in her sweetness, it’s silly to say she’s good because her goodness is so honest, it’s just plain difficult to say she’s kind because she’s so uncommonly kind that there needs to be another word for ‘kind’ when talking about her. Friends and co-workers all recognize there is just something very special about her, and her children (who know her best and for real) more than love her, they esteem, adore, admire, and champion her to all as the great prize of their lives to have her as their mom.

As I sit here and I write these words, I look around me and see her beauty . . . Pixie is a homemaker, a wife and mother above all else, and she has deliberated over ideas and preferences as to what she wants her home to be like, what she would like it to look like – and yet, well, let me show you ~

Pixie puts herself, her own interests and desires, behind everyone else all the time. I first though it was, observably, her face and figure that was her beauty – but it is her authentic and relentless love that is her beauty . . . “Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul.” ~ Augustine. I almost feel I should apologize to you all for, yet again, going on and on about how beautiful my wife is – but, our theme this month is ‘Beauty’ . . ? . . what were they (my fellow Perspectiveers) thinking?! If you come to me with ‘beauty’ as a topic, I’m going to be talking about my Pixie, for awhile. Because, besides the fact that she’s so pretty and so good . . .

. . . “We do not want merely to see beauty... we want something else which can hardly be put into words - to be united with the beauty we see, to pass into it, to receive it into ourselves, to bathe in it, to become part of it. That is why we have peopled air and earth and water with gods and goddesses, and nymphs and elves.” ~ C.S. Lewis

And so, rather than all philosophical and theological, this month I'm all about the practical, the practical as in 'practiced', my Pixie is beauty in practice, acted-out . . . she is the finest example of the work of the Spirit of God in a human I have ever come across - and, she's just so aggressively pretty to look at.

Interview with Mickey Haist Sr

other 'Perspective:' hubs by MickeySr ~

'Gratitude ~ Oy, What A Week I'm Having'

'Regret & Hope ~ Press On'

'What Don't You Know ~ I Don't Know Who I'm Going To Talk To'

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bravewarrior 3 years ago from Central Florida

Beautiful hub, Mickey. Your Pixie is beautiful, indeed. Much more so than I. I don't think I'd allow you to display your movie memorabilia in my living room!

I agree with you in that beauty comes from within. That is exactly what my perspective on beauty is this month.

Nice job. I know it was hard to refrain yourself from the theological side of beauty. Pixie's beauty shines through to you!

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Pamela99 3 years ago from United States

I think you are absolutely correct about the beauty on the inside being the most important aspect of a person. Your Pixie is beautiful and I've know many people that are beautiful, but they are not always beautiful on the inside. That is the endearing quality that builds love and respect in a realationship. Awesome hub.

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Docmo 3 years ago from UK

Thanks Mickey, for sharing your love for Pixie. There is so much beauty in both of you, your love for each other and your expression of this love. As always you give plenty of food for thought, I do love the vision of CS lewis walking into that classroom and asking that profound question.... well done, again.

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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

Oh, Micky, I absolutely love you relentless swooning over the delicious-to-your-soul beauty of your never-ending bride….

Your love and admiration for Pixie makes you beautiful. I mean, really, you would not have been as beautiful as you are without Pixie - and everything she has given you - in your heart.

Thanks for the delightful video of your home – such a proof of Pixie’s love for you. I mean, allowing you to have all those books is one thing, but allowing you to take over her living room with all those hobbies of yours… Now that is solid proof of true love…

I enjoyed this hub of yours, Mickey. Thanks for the smiles. You and your family are totally beautiful!

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AliciaC 3 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

This hub is a great tribute to Pixie and is certainly an expression of beauty! It must be wonderful to have her in your life. I love the image of C. S. Lewis as a teacher as well as the description of your beautiful relationship with your wife.

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marcoujor 3 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Oh you big boob...! You HAD to pull out the "Pixie card"!

Well, I love that well as your appreciation, devotion and respect to a woman who is beautiful inside and out.

Your video is awesome...I love how it is " her living room, filled with all that you treasure". Your children are also beautiful...Happy Father's Day and (late) Happy this month of beauty!

Voted UP and all across. Hugs, Maria

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Vista15 3 years ago from Columbus, OH

Too busy to read it all right now, but I will return. I DID watch the video. I LOVED it. Like someone else said, you wouldn't have that JUNK in MY living room.... well, maybe the guitars, because I already have one on display... Praise God for your Pixie!

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midget38 3 years ago from Singapore

Absolutely right, the beauty within is what we should seek and what is the truth. Thanks for sharing and having me on board Perspectives this month.

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btrbell 3 years ago from Mesa, AZ

Another beautuful hub with an amazing tribute to your beautiful wife! How blessed you both are to love each other that much! What a beauftiful family! Happy father's Day, Mickey!

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

bravewarrior ~ you're, again, almost always the first one to visit/comment on one of my hubs - thank you, always.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Pamela99 ~ but . . . the tricky bit, for me, about giving our attention to the truth that real beauty is on the inside, is that my Pixie is so beautiful on the outside and I can't hardly get past that.

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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

A beautiful tribute and I so enjoyed this gem of yours. Have a wonderful day and I now look forward to reading many more of your hubs.


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Vickiw 3 years ago

Hi Mickey, yes, Pixie does seem an absolutely beautiful person, and wonderful that you adore her, but where the heck is your objectivity that you are so proud of? Just because she tells you you're such a handsome dude each and every day just shows you she's ahead of you in the love game, my dear friend. You need to get a grip on reality here. The rest of your harem depend on you to maintain a dignified, objective, conceptual, wordy and too philosophical stance. Please do not commit this cardinal error of showing your soft side ever again. It disturbs us when our leader steps out of his role.

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Ruchira 3 years ago from United States

Beautiful theme given justice by pixie.

Well said that beauty is not just ought to be deeper than that.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Docmo, MartieCoetser, & marcoujor ~

Thanks so much for your ongoing interest and support of 'Perspectives:' and of me and my own contributions - this didn't have to go the way it has, looking forward to each new theme month after month, but you guys have made it so, thanks.

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tillsontitan 3 years ago from New York

You are certainly philosophical but then look what we've learned from the great philosophers! "Assaulting" us with the beauty of your bride is no assault dear sir, but a mark of your devotion and her beauty! How lucky you are to be with the love of your life who just happens to be beautiful besides....her living room is lovely and nothing beats a Ray Harreyhausen - statue or otherwise.

This is a beautiful hub by a beautiful person, yes I called you a beautiful person!!

Voted up, useful, awesome, beautiful and interesting. Oh, I shared too so other people can see the beauty ;)

P.S. Thanks again for letting me be part of Perspectives.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

AliciaC ~ thanks you so much for the visit and the warm review.

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Sueswan 3 years ago

Hi Mickey,

which is greater; truth, love, or beauty?’. In true love there is pure beauty. I can see this is something you and your dear Pixie have found in each other.

Voted up +++ and sharing

Have a good week

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Vista15 3 years ago from Columbus, OH

Well, I've had the time to come back and read the whole thing, and I can somehow relate. I think my man would say the same about me, but I don't get it. I have learned to recognize my beauty through the years and learned to love myself. But growing up, I kept hearing how 'beautiful' I was... and I'd look in the mirror and see all my faults and wonder, 'What are they thinking?!'

Now, my guy and me have been lookin' at each other for just about 20 years and he's got better lookin'... hee hee... But when I hear him say how beautiful I am, I question him... 'Is it my looks or inner beauty?' He stutters a bit and then says 'Both.'

Thanks for a great hub!

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

btrbell ~ thanks always for checking-out my hubs and leaving comments, I do appreciate you greatly.

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Vickiw 3 years ago

Mickey, I thought I would call back again, and just tell you how lovely your video is, and how truly noble your beloved Pixie is. I understand, because I think my relationship with my late loving husband was quite similar. I'm happy for you.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Eiddwen ~ thanks so much for the warm review.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Vicki ~ yikes, a visit and then a return visit . . . I think I'm feeling a bit cautious about what's next . . !?

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Vickiw 3 years ago

Cautious? That's not very encouraging for someone who has just bared their soul in a comment. This is when a thank-you, and appreciation would have been nice! Oh well, better luck next time. I feel distinctly unloved.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

. . . oh c'mon . . . you can't poke at someone so doggedly and not expect them to approach cautiously when you offer a treat . . ? . . besides, my 'poke' was offered in the same lighthearted spirit as I assume the pokes aimed at me are offered - otherwise, I would certainly feel unloved, and I don't.

At any rate, a genuine 'thank you' and I do very much appreciate you visiting my hub and leaving such a favorable and personal comment.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Ruchira ~ thanks always for your attention and sweet comments.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

tillsontitan ~ you're the best - every time I'm notified that you've visited one of my hubs, and left a comment, my heart leaps a bit. Thank you.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Sueswan ~ thanks for the visit, the comment, and the votes.

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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa. Author

Vista15 ~ thanks so much for the visit and the thoughtful comment.

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