Before a tear hits the ground

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The Moments that Wait in the Future are Yours

In life we have our struggles, regardless of whom we are or where we reside. Every age brings new experiences and wisdom comes from those experiences. I don’t believe that we will ever figure things out to an uncertain degree, but eventually we are able to focus on what is truly important and who we are as well as what we believe ourselves capable of becoming. Standing up for ourselves, learning how to give, showing kindness and putting good intentions before selfishness is some of what I believe this world is lacking. Although I am no where near being perfect, I focus on progress. I hope the progress you have made in your past and will make in the future, along with any "imperfections" you possess are what makes the coming year a blessed one.

It is about progress, not perfection...

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It is our choice to be happy, just as it is our choice to suffer


A million and one thoughts are racing within my head
I can't make sense of them to know just where I stand
I shiver from the chills that are being breathed upon my neck
I become paralyzed and hesitate to know who I am.

It's the control that they missed when I stood up to walk away
Only to drop to my knees and try to remember how I was taught to pray

This is not about me or wanting more for myself
That would be a waste and a prayer better spent on someone else

I don’t want more money or to have the perfect words
I don’t pray for courage as I make my way on this earth
I am not worried if I look perfect or miss a word or two.
I am okay with being wrong I'm okay with me and I'm okay with you.

I set aside a prayer to be said for someone else
One which will be pure, not spent on myself

I close my eyes to catch my breath before I look around
As I open my eyes I catch a tear before it falls and hits the ground

Always a moment too late and second past due
Never a time to go back and figure out the truth

I can't go back and change
And for the regret which I have lived
I release another tear in an effort to catch my sin.

I knew I wasn't invincible-and life would catch up to find me
I just hoped it wouldn't be so soon after I learned how to see.

I pull close a prayer which I had pushed aside to save
I don't ask for forgiveness or to have a chance to correct my lost days-

I pray that my children will always be happy and see the beauty of life
I pray that they will stay safe and never see the demons in the night

So here I am tonight-Stumbling on my words-
Trying to find the best way to say what they have not yet heard
Still I can not find the words I am not sure exist
I hope I can figure them out before it is me who is missed


The world tends to forget as they get caught up with others

It is our choice to be happy, just as it is our choice to suffer
Be who you are
Never be ashamed of your past
and for the ones who feel the need to judge, well you can kiss my ass

The people in my life who haven't been real
I feel sorry for them for not knowing the courage of learning how to feel.
Saint I am not- sins, I've committed my share
But at the end of my day I believe that God still loves and cares.



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Cagsil 5 years ago from USA or America

Hey Holly, well said. I'm not much for the belief in a god, but this isn't my hub, so I'll keep my words to myself with regards to that aspect. However, I never tire of your hubs, because you have a way with words to convey your message. It's always a pleasure to learn from you and about you. Thumbs up! Thank you for sharing another piece of you. :)


ILuvUKenton 5 years ago from The corner of Forever and Heartbreak

This is amazing! Love it!


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carrie450 5 years ago from Winnipeg, Canada

A wonderful hub H.C Porter. I believe if our faith is strong enough that God will help us through all difficulties in this life. We only have to ask. rated up.


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Judicastro 5 years ago from birmingham, Alabama

HC your words penetrated my soul. Well said and well written. I so like the last sentence "The people in my life who haven't been real

I feel sorry for them for not knowing the courage of learning how to feel" The older I get the more I just want to be real! Rated up and beautiful


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FloBe 5 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

Good words...being real is probably the most difficult choice a person ever has to make (over and over again) but it is also the most satisfying and meaningful. God wants an honest heart, not one that pretends they are what they're not. So, a person's essence is what matters to people and to God.


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Docmo 5 years ago from UK

HC, this is beautiful.heartfelt and very emotive.

The verse:

'I close my eyes to catch my breath

before I look around

As I open my eyes I catch a tear

before it falls and hits the ground'

is going to play in my head for a while.. Being real and being true to oneself.. is hard but rewarding.


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saket71 5 years ago from Delhi, India

Lovely, lovely and lovely, you have written it so well that rather then putting in a long comment, I would soak in the warmth and truth of the words. keep writing.


Assassin Fred 5 years ago

beautiful read. Thanks for this reminder of how we should all strive to be.


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dahoglund 5 years ago from Wisconsin Rapids

Up and beautiful


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GusTheRedneck 5 years ago from USA

Hello H.C. I enjoyed your poem and those very fine photos. Ghanks.

Gus :-)))


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dallas93444 5 years ago from Bakersfield, CA

Your wareness, sensitivity and insights show. Thanks for sharing. Flag up and I enjoyed.


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Winsome 5 years ago from Southern California by way of Texas

Hi HC, I identified with trying to find words to help your children see life catching up with them without the pain, but maybe part of the difficulty in finding the words is we both know each one has to let life meet them where they are--pain and all. Thanks for the soul video. =:)


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Deborah Demander 5 years ago from First Wyoming, then THE WORLD

"Be who you are. Never be ashamed of your past..."

Beautiful lines in your wonderful poem. This is exactly what I am learning to do.

Namaste.


Rebecca Walker  5 years ago

Holly, you are such a real person and I love you for that! God has given you many wonderful talents, in which you use them all. Thank you for being such an inspiration.


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nighthag 5 years ago from Australia

Such a heartfelt poem filled with emotion that is so easy to relate to... beautiful job


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Karen Wilton 5 years ago from Australia

Beautiful sentiments and a wonderfully thought out poem. This was a pleasure to read and an inspiration. Choosing to be happy or choosing to suffer, seems so easy when you look at it that way.


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hypnodude 5 years ago from Italy

Congratulations for the 100 Author score, great result and well deserved. :)


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michael ely 5 years ago from Scotland

Hi H.C Porter, This is a really good Hub. Very powerful. Michael.


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Cagsil- thanks for the comment and I am sorry that it has taken me so long to respond. I am glad you liked the poem :)


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

ILuvUKenton

thanks- I am so glad!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

carrie450

I agree- trust that God will take care of us and knows what is best, he is listening and waiting


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Karen Wilton

thanks for the comment... I think as we get older we complicate the uncomplicated issues. Happiness is a choice we can all have. thanks again for reading!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

hypnodude

oh, thanks so much! I truly appreciate the comment and the congrats! I have earned the perfect score a few times, but it never seems to stay there very long :)


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

michael ely

thanks! I am glad you feel that way, I appreciate the feedback...


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

nighthag,

I hope so. most things that we struggle through are easily to relate to... if we are able to word them correctly. thanks for the comment and for reading!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Rebecca Walker,

thanks hun... you are one of the guiding angels in my life, and I am thankful each and every day that I have you to call my friend and am able to lean on you when I need to. You always call me an inspiration, but without friends such as yourself, I wouldnt be half of the person I am today. Love you much becca!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Docmo

I love it when someone can pick out a particular phrase that struck them as special in my work :) So glad to know that you found one within this poem. Thanks for reading and for the comment!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Judicastro

I completely agree! Thanks for reading and for the comment. I appreciate you taking the time to leave your feedback on my work!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Deborah Demander

thanks for your comment and for always being so encouraging with the feedback you leave. I appreciate you taking your time to read :)


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

dahoglund

Thanks!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Assassin Fred

thanks for reading and commenting on more of my work. I appreciate all your feedback on my writing. i think people just need to be honest to themselves...the rest will then come easily...


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

FloBe

I think that you are correct. it is hard to be real, specially when the world judges each one of us so critically. thanks for your comment and for reading...


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

saket71-i shall take your lead and just say thanks for the comment!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

dallas93444- thanks for the insight and for taking the time to read. :)


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Winsome - thanks for another great comment! You are always inspirational yourself and I much appreciate all the feedback you give.


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

GusTheRedneck

AWWW, G, Thanks for the comment and for reading. I am so very glad that you enjoyed my work :)


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Shyla's Nana 5 years ago

Hi, I hope you are doing well today. This is the first time I have read any of your work but it will not be my last:) I loved the part where you caught a tear. I try my best to be a good person but sometimes I fail and it feels like I can see a tear fall from God's face and it tears me up inside to know I disappointed Him. Am I perfect? Not even close. I am not worthy to even touch Jesus' shoes, much less try to fill them. Anyway, thank you once again for such a beautiful poem. May God continue to bless your hands to write and your heart to feel. Take care.


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Shyla's Nana

thank you! your comment and feedback mean so much to me. it is always nice to hear that my work has been relatable to another life. Thank you for taking your time to read this poem and I hope to be able to capture your attention once again with my words.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Nice write, God bless!


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blackreign2012 5 years ago

another great hub I loved it!!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Micky Dee

Thank you so much- I am glad you stopped in to read and comment!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

blackreign2012

Thanks again! I am glad you liked this ones as well. It took me awhile to get it down the way I wanted to write it... The thoughts for this poem have been stored in my mind for awhile...it is getting them out that can sometimes scatter in the process :)


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

blackreign2012

Thanks again for the comment! I am glad you read this one. I am proud of the way that it turned out :)


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well I wondering does H.C. stand for Holy Cow !!!!! - lol lol - because that's how I feel when I read your flow of poetic feelings - Holy Cow!!!!!!!!!!

And I love the title - wish I had thought of that one!

And what I love about your writing - it's deeply philosophical and has great personal meaning whereas a lot of poetry is vague and surreal (which is okay too) but here with these words I feel you are teaching me something ....remind myself to bring an 'apple' for you at our next class when I say (in my head) - Holy Cow!!!!


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

epigramman

Thank you so much for that comment! It put a huge smile on my face and I am thrilled you enjoyed my work so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you!


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tammybarnette 5 years ago

Wow! Beautiful, just plain beautiful.


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

tammybarnette

thank you! thank you! this is amongst my favorites so i always get happy when it is read and liked :)


leann2800 5 years ago

This is beautiful. I really enjoyed both your writing as well as the photos.


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H.C Porter 5 years ago from Lone Star State Author

leann2800

Thank you so much! This is probably one of my favorite of all I have written, Thank you for your kind comment and support, I am glad that you enjoyed my work :)


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dfbishopsr 4 years ago from Pennsylvania, US

Suffering is inevitable, to find joy and wisdom in it is a choice. Thanks for your words Ms Potter; they inspire, they challenge, they provoke. Can you hope for more?


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

dfbishopsr - i always figured, life can certainly drag you through the mud- I have been there, many times. But I am not about to help misery and suffering out by staying down in the mud, so I always get up- shake off and keep on moving towards tomorrow...I may never get up as clean as I was before i fell, but the dirty left behind the ears, is the experience and reminder that I made it through. Thank you for your comment- I appreciate the continued support :)


jami l. pereira 4 years ago

Lovely read , Happiness IS a choice , no matter where you are , what you are doing or who you are with , its a decision made like any other . cool write , i voted up , and beautiful , have a great evening . :)


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Hello Jami- Thanks for the comment and the rate ups! I appreciate the feedback and am glad you came across this poem... a lot of my work is very personal to me and this happens to be one of the more significant, so I always like when people stumble upon it, not for pity or any nonsense like that, but for the mere fact that it is read and heard...So thank you for reading and hearing me...


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Steele Fields 4 years ago from drexel hill,pa

HC Porter, you are a very prolific and dedicated writer and I admire that about you. You are a real presence here and your words are genuine and filled with raw emotion. These are the best kind of poems-the ones you write without being so hung up on the reader and instead focusing on yourself as the writer and saying your peace for your own sake. Very cool.


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Steele Fields-thank you so much for you comment. It was a great and inspiring thing to read today,and I am so glad you could see them the way that they are written and meant to be seen. I appreciate your encouragement :)


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GDiBiase 4 years ago from Portland, ME

Hi H C Porter,

This poem is extremely powerful and straight from you heart, I am guessing. I love it, thank you for sharing.

Gail


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

GDiBiase, Thank you ma'am. I appreciate that, and am so glad that you found it among the many poems on the site. You are correct, when I wrote it, my heart bleed these words, which I guess is the best thing about poetry- it can be what you feel it to be.


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Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

Every day, every moment, we face challenges. Your emotions are pure and sincere. There is this esthetic quality in the composition.


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Rolly A Chabot 4 years ago from Alberta Canada

Hi Holly... A Pastor friend of mine wrote a song a few years ago called "Tears is a language God understands." Know that He loves you dearly...

Hugs from Canada


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Lady_E 4 years ago from London, UK

Beautiful and touching to read.

Have a blessed week. (Elena from Elite Facebook)


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you so much Vinaya- I am glad that you enjoyed what I wrote here. I appreciate your feedbcak


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thanks Rolly, and yes I know. If he did not, he would not have saves or blessed my life


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thank you so much Elena, I appreciate you stopping by my hubs and leaving a comment. I am glad you liked the poem.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Let's just cut to the bottom line...you are beautiful my friend!


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Thanks Bill! I truly appreciate your friendship and you taking the time to read my work. You are a kind soul :)


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Pamela99 4 years ago from United States

Holly, I have not run across you before on Hubpages to my knowledge, but I want you to know that this hub was awesome. It expressed some deep emotions which touched my heart.


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Jlava73 4 years ago from Cyberspace and My Own World

This is simply awesome but I particularly love the ending!


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Jlava73- Thank you, I am glad that you think so. I love writing poetry, it leaves so much room for creative word usage :)


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H.C Porter 4 years ago from Lone Star State Author

Pamela99, Thank you so much for those kind words. I am glad that you enjoyed the poem. I've been told many times that I am an emotional writer- I suppose that can be deemed as an attribute when I am able to connect with people.


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Silent Cries 2 years ago from Kansas City, Missouri

That is a wonderful prose... it really touched close to home... simply amazing and beautiful...


Trisman 15 months ago

that is pretty riuidclous. the price is .... ten thousand times more that it's worth.please. it's two cent of made in china material (and design too!).you can find it in the nearest 10NT store. :P

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