Begging for our love

What would you do if you see the signs and the appalling red flags? You tried your best, you know the love of your life is out there for you. Ultimately your fate was already set for a date. What is going to happen to you then?

We will just let ourselves go? What is really love for, anywways when it can actually take your dreams and your whole life. So many untold stories and so... hum, many broken hearts that we wonder if... if experiences were set on purpose for us to grow and be able to actually let go painfully. This is a story that can be true or fiction. Let's see...

Please listen to this song as you read...thanks!

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BEGGING FOR OUR LOVE

"I love you so..!"


Knocking your door and I

see you for the first time

Seven months for this final moment

to see you completely as you are

you tell me to come in and I myself

shy enough, just comply

Parents of yours shake my hand and

leave us alone in this cold night


want to walk outside so we can talk


your jeans and pink blouse contrast

with those Carmine lips

that are there for me to eventually kiss



holding hands for the first time

awkwardly walking and almost getting ran over

so much to say and so much to discover

she knows, I'm just this new kind of lover


I make my move and take a rose hidden in my raincoat

"for you as always promised you Anne Marie"

she open her eyes and hugs me so hard that I drop my keys


we made it to a park

where we seat and start our talk

nervous enough... I kiss her forehead

and slowly a second kiss on her cheeks

ending as a champion down her lips


her heart beats next to me like i never felt before

was this meant to be... this great my friend?

the day and night ended before long

said goodbye and left her by her door


3 days later came to see her and she was gone

no way, what have I done so wrong?

She and parents came in town for a week and that was a hotel room

No signs of her, just the maid changing sheets and droppin her broom


she was gone for good without saying good bye

was so close to the address of this thing called love

that now sadly left me shattered ans with no hope

felt empty and with my heart broken cursed at times the one you know



Left town, left school and left a complete life behind

took me 12 years to find her again

I knew she was somewhere and... needed to find out why?

why she left me with this pain and wondering always...

was anything wrong with my mind?


this time she was a single mom of two kids

her husband of 12 years left her too, same way as she did

She was sorry and told ... broke down the truth

her soon to be ex, was richer and I was just a simple dude


she thought she did her best by marrying him first

parents didn't approve of me, so they just left

that day, 13 years before, all changed in my life

but now I was set free after she explained all to me

this crude true that actually set my mind and my inner needs


was this easy to forget and forgive

what do you think I was suppose to do

13 years to mend my heart out of tears

always afraid to get hurt again, full of unthinkable fears...

Heart didn't throbbed as hard as before...

what a waste and she knew it all along


The minute she walked out of my life

that's when I decided to be a different kind of guy

Mentally was saying to her in my dreams, please stay!

but the days went by and I did really change...and was never the same


Sadly she had problems and I did save her from falling deeper

but this was not a happy ending or just a teaser

we stayed friends and always a call away

we knew our love died the minute she walked out the door

that door that was slammed against my love

and never stopped from hurting all along...

maybe time will decide and all will be fine

until then we read these lines

and she really cried and asked me to forgive

I did forgive, but remember this:

Hardly enough, was not ready to forget...!

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DO YOU THINK THIS IS FICTION?

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raciniwa 5 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

yeah, that's the harsh reality...sometimes the parents dictate what we're going to do with our life...as if we're human beings not capable to think for ourselves...that's why they made the choice for us...but in the end, it's really our heart that knows and makes the right choice for us...


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Our hearts making the final choice for us...very well said Raciniwa. There were times when Parents would make the final choice for us. Even dishonoring the Marriage if they didn't see fitting their style and even Ethnicity. Not in the mood to mention countries or certain societies of this small world. Thanks for the reflexion Raciniwa!

LORD


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PurvisBobbi44 5 years ago from Florida

Lord,

Such pain in your words this morning--and I pray this is not what happened to you, but I am afraid it is true. How else would one know about a true broken heart. Like two ships in the night passing--and then you were forever--apart.

I loved the song.

And always your words touches everyone's heart and mind to recall over and over again in time.

Your Friend,

Bobbi


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

hEllo Bobbi,

Well... what can I say. Love is learned through the years and those stumbles and falls. Wish was easier than the painful road traced ahead at times. Will wait for the poll to end and we will see if this is true or...just fiction. Thanks my friend!

LORD


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Vinaya Ghimire 5 years ago from Nepal

The emotions are so powerful that i don't think this is fiction. I loved the emotional content in the poem. Nice work!


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Hello Vinaya,

Maybe is the creation in the writer's mind, don't you think so? We will find out in a later comment. so far the poll is with you. Funny how powerful can be a word..or two?

LORD


ardie 5 years ago

I voted and I think its a true story - although a very sad one.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Hello Ardie!

Happy Thanksgiving my friend from Ohio!

If its true and sad...that would be sadder. We will see if it really happenned! Thanks for your vote!

LORD


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mary615 5 years ago from Florida

Hi, Lord, when will you write another to let us know if this is truth or fiction? Either way it was very sad. Beautiful, but sad. Goodnight.


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Goodnite Mary!

Sure I will let you know if this is a true story...seems..that may be a true one! But who knows!

We will reveal and answer in the near future. Hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving which I think it was. Take care hubber friend!

LORD


femmeflashpoint 5 years ago

de Cross,

Pining over a rude romance for nearly 13 years????

Oh good grief!!!

That makes BOTH of them loosers, lol!!!

We reallllly gotta get some easier access to those self-confidence building courses for folks like these. :)


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Oh my God! Femme--ha-ha-ha!

You are a bad girl! Don't you feel sorry for them? But at least you got a good laugh! right? And me too! Still, you were open to have your say!

LORD


femmeflashpoint 5 years ago

Heck no I don't feel bad for them, lol!

I think they need to buck up and get a life! (wink)


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Buck up and get a life! Ha-ha-ha!...will let them know...answer from them tonight


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Lord De Cross 5 years ago Author

Here they are Femme, their names are George and Ann:

FEMME:

Good grief guys! What's wrong with you both?

George:

Femme, please! this is us! and our own life

Ann:

Yeah! We overcame this and he is helping me the best he can... you know?

Femme:

You gottaa be kidding me! Here..where we live, we just move on, and don't even look back..you guys, sound so Corny!! Gimme a break!!

Ann:

You know what Femme? I won't raise my voice..like you! An listen..we are women and we know dee inside...

George:

Please Ann! Just don't get physical...!

Femme:

Heard you pal! your Ann might lose her coolness very soon and I'm not here to hit back, not even...

Ann:

Please George! I'm done. Just take me home !

Femme:

Please George, Just be realistic and...make up your mind..those self confidences courses are free online..!

Ann: I'm done! with you Woman!

Femme:

Just be glad, you have him around..young lady!

George:

This is it! bye Femme!

Femme:

Sorry, I always speak my mind!

George/Ann:

Byee!!

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