Bittersweet Visitation

Once upon a time, I fell in love with you ...
Once upon a time, I fell in love with you ... | Source

© Copyright 2011 Cindy Murdoch (homesteadbound)

We have all experieced that giddy, clumsy, all-consuming first love. A love that wobbly learns to stand like a newborn foal slowly gaining confidence in itself. You know ... the love that always has a fairytale ending, where the story ends happily ever after. But most of us learn that fairytales are just stories that create false expectations ... of ourselves ... and of another.

But what happens when the fairytale keeps playing long after most of the characters have departed to inhabit different stories. An emptiness and void is all that lingers for the character remaining ... wishing and yearning for something that can never be. Trying to create a new story of their own, haunted involuntarily, yet welcoming the visitation of the long lost love with a bittersweet passion.

In the following setting, our main character has been betrayed by her first love but seems unable to let go of the dreams she once had, and the innocence of the fairytale ending. Finding herself wanting to start a new story but unable to close the book on the story already underway ... she finds herself torn between the two.


Release Me From the Chains You Hold
Release Me From the Chains You Hold | Source


Why do you haunt me, so many years have gone by

Oblivious to chains that will not release me

Existence without purpose and you don’t even know

Creating a life wretchedly hollow beyond empty


Once, magically held spellbound, enchanted by you

Bewitched beyond reason, betrayed beyond compare

Desperately hoping he’ll redeem me from this darkness

Gazing into his eyes, even now longing for yours.

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My eyes locked on yours, entranced by your gaze

Then desperately panicked when yours strayed away

Could learn to trust fully in the gaze of this other

Were those eyes not the same color as yours

Young Love, First Love
Young Love, First Love | Source

The hands that once trembled at your touch

Fell away sadly when forsaken by you

Now desperately cling to those of another

Trying to erase the memory of you

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The sparkle that was mine brought forth by your presence

Painfully died when carelessly tossed aside crushed

Has learned to brighten at the thought of another

Until once again darkened by the shadow of you

Lips Sweet as Nectar
Lips Sweet as Nectar | Source

The lips you once sampled, nectar so sweet

Spurned when yours you shared with another

Now brush his skin lightly whispering his name

Aching with longing, wishing to say yours


My body you eagerly lusted and yearned for

Too young, not ready to be given just yet

Now savored and pleasured, nothing held back

Aching, longing, yearning . . . ready now too late

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Desperate young love, precious first love

Consumed us completely, dealt just once in each life

Untainted and innocent, eager yet shy

Deeper than any that could possibly follow

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The heart you once carelessly flung to the side

Wounded and hurt, so many small pieces

Gathered so tenderly, held together now

By the love of another, while hopelessly wishing to forget



Were it not for the nights and the dreams ushered in

I would choose to forget you, this longing suppress

But nightly you visit, inhabiting my dreams

Endless days spent awaiting your bittersweet visitation


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Comments: "Bittersweet Visitation " 32 comments

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davenmidtown 5 years ago from Sacramento, California

oh wow! Brilliantly painful wrapped in hope... Loved it!


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

davenmidtown - This was my first poem. I have been saving it for the contest. Thanks!


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davenmidtown 5 years ago from Sacramento, California

Its great... you should write one everyday!


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

smiling at the thought. I had been thinking of this one for a while and then one night it would not release me and I got up and worked on it until 4 a.m. And I had homesteading classes all the next day. I was miserable.


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mary615 5 years ago from Florida

Well this is a beautiful poem! First young love is SO special. I remember when.....Good luck on the contest. I wrote what I thought was probably my best work, but I couldn't get up to 500 words, even with the intro.


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

mary615 - Thank you so much. This is my first, but maybe not my last. I barely made the 500 word limit. Did you publish it yet? Maybe I can help give you ideas...

Thanks for stopping by!


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vasantha T k 5 years ago from Bangalore

poem and pics beautiful good luck


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

vasantha T k - I pleased that you enjoyed them. Thanks for dropping by!


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

When I first started reading this, I thought this is poetry from homesteadbound??

I see from the above comments, this is your first poem - it's fabulous!

Voting up/awesome

We will all be waiting for more poetry from you now...

Good luck in the contest, my best wishes MM


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

Movie Master - I don't feel any more bubbling to the surface. This may have been the only poem I have in me. It was interesting writing it, and then changing and deleting words to try and get it to sound and flow like I though it should.

Right now I have a fiction story that is thinking about bubbling and I've not written any fiction, so it could be an interesting time coming up.

Thanks so much for your kind words and for stopping by.


Loquacious Laura 5 years ago

Images and words hard to forget. Thanks.


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

Loquacious Laura - Thank you for your wonderful sentiment. And thanks for stopping by.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

A new talent? Up and awesome!


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

Will Starr - coming from you, that is quite a compliment. Thanks!

And thanks for dropping by!


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raciniwa 5 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

oh, i love the theme of this poem...bittersweet longing of a love lost...it's really true that first love never dies...


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

raciniwa - thanks for sharing your feelings and for stopping by. I really appreciate it.


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prairieprincess 5 years ago from Canada

Homestead, this is really quite beautiful. A tale of unrequited love torturing this poor soul. Great first poem!


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tsmog 5 years ago from Escondido, CA

Nice! Enough said (smile).


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

prairie princess - I'm glad you liked it. I was a little apprehensive about putting it out here, but I'm finding that it is getting good reviews. So that is good. Thanks so much and thanks for stopping by!


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

tsmog - Thank you.


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Fiddleman 5 years ago from Zirconia, North Carolina

You have a winner here in my opinion and so much truth and emotion of lost love.


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

Thank you Fiddleman. It was just something that somehow wanted out. I'm not sure where it came from. I'm pleased that you liked it.


Jinky 5 years ago

Thanks for chossing my pic for your lovely poem.


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homesteadbound 5 years ago from Texas Author

Jinky - thank you for making your photos available on flickr for use. It is such a privilege to have such a wide selection of good photos to choose from. Thanks for stopping by!


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

nice work, cindy. I enjoyed this read!


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homesteadbound 4 years ago from Texas Author

PDXKaraokeGuy - Coming from you, someone who writes great poetry, this is indeed a compliment. I wonder when the next poem will show its face. Thank you so much!


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RedElf 4 years ago from Canada

Beautifully written,hb! I can relate, having one of those t-shirts in my closet :D


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homesteadbound 4 years ago from Texas Author

RedElf - I am glad that you connected with my words. Thanks


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

great work and perfect picture accompaniment!


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homesteadbound 4 years ago from Texas Author

Justin - thanks! coming from you, that means a whole lot! I am very pleased that you enjoyed it!


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

you're certainly welcome!


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CloudExplorer 3 years ago from New York City

Wonderful bitter and sweet poetry here Cindy, I felt captured in the moment here of some deep feelings for someone, "Those Eyes", how compelling they must have been, and it does indeed hurt to the core to lose such a good lover indeed.

Thanks for sharing this with us all, bravo and sharing!

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