Blame It On Whom? [Part I]

Hi There! This is my first Hub. Basically I am gonna try writing something which I wanted to share. Hope you guys like it. It's purely Fictional, Nothing Personal at all. If you have any suggestion or whatever let me know. Alternatively ask me a pressing question you have. It's up to you. KEEP SMILING:)

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Day when I left you or You left me

The day when I left your home, I felt some thing bad gonna happen and Voila I was right. This is absolutely not what I often desirous of. I heard about it "You wouldn't understand others pain until you gone through it" It hurts like you are dying from inside You Wanna Shout, You Wanna Cry, But You Can't, You Just Can't Do anything. This is what I was thinking on that Day when I left your Home. Those words Separation, Divorce, was in my mind. Just because I was angry so it's very obvious. You shouldn't make any decision while in anger. We fought, we argued, we quarreled but we forgot that it will never end here. Why we wouldn't stop there.
DAYS GO BY
THOUGH TIMES STAND STILL
LIFE AIN'T MOVING,
AM I STILL BREATHING?

Today we both living separately not because we both wanted just because you don't want me in your life anymore. But "I want you". Because "I LOVE YOU". It's like A heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. I have cried so many times for that person who doesn't acknowledge my presence too. Whenever we had quarreled, I was the one who always taken the first move and get back to normal like nothing has ever happened. You put a damper on our relationship. In our marriage life you have made all the decisions. You never asked me anything what I wanted. There is just You, Only About Your Need & Your Space. I was nowhere. But I kept quiet because "I LOVED YOU". And You Know What Amount I Have Paid For Being In Love With You? I am 'Childless'. It was again your decision. You never wanted kids despite knowing that How much I love them.
"MOST OF THE SHADOWS OF THIS LIFE
ARE CAUSED BY
OUR STANDING IN OUR OWN SUNSHINE"

The question is Blame It On Whom? Nobody can answer this. You have to find an answer on your own. My Love Was One-Sided. That is why today hurts. Feeling betrayed by you. I shouldn't use words Betrayed when I know you haven't been disloyal with me. The thing is that you didn't Love Me. You can't force somebody to Love you. For love, It occurs in its own time, But in my case it will never happen that for sure.
"YOU CAN NOT TAILOR MAKE YOUR SITUATION IN LIFE,
BUT YOU CAN TAILOR MAKE YOUR ATTITUDES
TO FIT THOSE SITUATIONS"

Continue Blame It On Whom? Part II

COPYRIGHT - SHANAYA
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BLAME IT ON WHOME?

When A Relationship or Marriage broke, 'ON WHOME SHOULD WE BLAME'?

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jpcmc 5 years ago from Quezon CIty, Phlippines

Being separated from someone you love is something truly hard. Unfortunately many couples find themselves in this situation. In a relationship, love has to be reciprocated.

Love yourself first before you can truly love someone else.


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stricktlydating 5 years ago from Australia

Wow, what a brilliant first Hub! I understand the feelings involved in the situation, have been there myself and you put it perfectly into words!


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

My Dear Shanaya,

I am so sorry for everything you have gone through. You exspressed your feelings so well on paper. It does help to do this, I know! I have also in the past gone through some heartache and I promise one day things will turn around for your good. Don't lose hope. It is hard when you can not control the situation or feelings of another. All you can do is work on your heart for now. Trust God in healing your brokeness and it will come. Just rest for now.

God Bless you

Sunnie


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

I am realy very thankful to all of you who stopped by & commented. My hub was just a distressful situation which i wanted to show in my writing and was waiting for the outcome. HUBPAGES great writers commented on my 1rst HUB.Thanks again @jpcmc...@stricktlydating...& @sunnie day.


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duffsmom 5 years ago from Pacific Northwest, USA

It is difficult to write and show such vulnerability--well done!


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

I appreciate thoughtfulness. Everyone is always busy with something else but when someone goes out of his/her way to appreciate others, I greatly appreciate that.

thanks @duffsmom for liking & commenting on my HUB:)


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David Warren 5 years ago from Nevada

Hang in there, hope you are having a better day. If I knew there to be a cure for this I would happily pass it on to you. From my own experience I can say time has been the greatest healer of all.


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Hi shanya,

I was about to turn my computer off for the night when I received your fan mail.

You have expressed yourself beautifully and I can only say to hang on in there. You come accross as a lovely person and you are in the right place, here on HubPages.

I joined a year ago and it is one of the best desicions that I have made.

You may not see it now but in time you will find someone worthy of your love.

Over the years I have learnt to open up but you are already able to do this, so you are lucky in this respect.

Your fan mail was beautiful and please contact whenever you want to.

This hub is a beautiful and honest letter and this says a lot about the person that you are.

I look forward to following you on here.

Take care Shanya,

Eiddwen.


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epigramman 5 years ago

..I really wish you could write more 'hubs' and would look forward to seeing/reading any future offerings because you really have a gift for communicating your thoughts and ideas - and writing just seems to be a natural extension of yourself ....


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Ranzi 5 years ago from All Over

Amazing, it takes guts to open yourself up like this. You really know how to express yourself through your writing and let the reader in on your pain.

Well done


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How? 5 years ago from Delhi

You are a very sweet and kind hubber

Keep hubbing and hopping hubs

Lots of Love

Aashi jain!!


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epigramman 5 years ago

...please keep writing ......and let me see more - you're absolutely hubfantastic!


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Thanks for your VALUEABLE comment Sir David.

Its difficult to find a GENUINE PERSON who advice you from there HEART which is WORTH following. You are one of them..:)


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Dear EIDDWEN Ma'am! You are the TRUE SOUL.. a BRAVE LADY who can fight back...

GOD has blessed me with wonderful friends & well wishers over here.

Thanks for stopped by & comment.:)

with LOVE

SHANAYA:)


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Dear RANZI! Thanks for your valuable comment & for follow.

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage".

Its not me who have guts to write this HUB its my LOVE who gave me COURAGE..& here i am with so many loving & caring friends. You are one of them RANZI.:)


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Dear AASHI! A person who has a BEAUTIFUL HEART will always find another person kind & sweet.:)

You are one of them "A TRUE SOUL"

THANKS for stopped by & comment.:)

Lots of LOVE

SHANAYA:)


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Dear Sir Epi! Its my pleasure to have your valueable comments & advice...Thanks for stopped by twice & comment.:)

P.S: I had never thought about writing in my wildest dream...i still have goosebumps when ever i got new comment for my HUB. LOL

But i will definetly write more HUBS..because i realy love being here..You all are GREAT..

LOTS & LOTS OF LOVE

SHANAYA:)


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phiphi 5 years ago from USA

Shanaya hats off sweety lovely hub.. where are you from by the way ?


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well thanks for coming into my life Shanaya and giving me some worth and dignity - I'm glad too that we met and I am looking forward to reading more from you - please keep in touch, be well, and keep thinking good thoughts!


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

I'm so sorry for your pain.

The heck with that guy, though.

If I wasn't already taken (28 years married I might add) I'd be at the head of the line courting you for sure, and don't believe a word your mom says about me, even though I love her so.

Ok Ok I'm too old at 54 - I feel like 24! You'd love my son, though - he's brilliant, good looking, clever ... modest - much like his dad!!!

But, seriously, you take after your mother and are an incredible writer - so keep it up, hmmm

Pushing buttons and following you now - so write!!


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Dear Sir EPI! Thanks for Guiding me and Encouraging me so much. I am really very Thankful to GOD who brought me here again. Because of him I met so many wonderful people, who loves me, and cares for me. You all are very ENTHUSIASTIC. I have made my second family here.

Dear Sir BBNIX! Thanks for placing your valueable comment. I become your FAN. You are very funny and loving person.

I will Believe Blindly whatever MY HUB MOM {Sunnie Day} say. Even though I LIKE YOU A LOT. And I'll definitely think about your Brilliant, Good looking, Clever SON, But Only after my HUB MOM APPROVE of him. LOL


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Jaspals 5 years ago from India / Australia

Very Touching. Well expressed and well written. Keep on writing.


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downpourofwords 5 years ago from Dallas, Texas, USA

A very good one for a first hub. Loved reading it. Hope you get all the strength you need to wade through tough times.


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Bhanu.Jas 5 years ago from Australia

I really could not understand why men never repent.Its hard time but just think it this way, God has one for u if he is the one,God have for you.Things will work again and life will again flourish with love and happiness all around.In love there is no space for hatred,arguments and jealous.It is temporary phase.

Very well written

Bhawana


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Mrs. J. B. 5 years ago from Southern California

Honey: What happened? You are torn apart... Your heart is ripped in half yet this was not because of you. WOW... This hub like your second one was powerful. Your pain was not because of you or anything you did. Am I right? Stop blaming yourself. Please. I promise you, you are not and I mean you are not to blame. You are beautiful have a deep soul lots of love in your heart yet you did not find the right man or you were not married by your family to the right man. Do not feel shame. EVER... This really tore you up... E-mail me

Love Always:

Mrs. J. B. aka LeeLee


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Hie Glen ! Thanks very much for your Valueable Comment and for Stopping by. Am Glad that you liked my HUB.

GOD BLESS YOU

SHANAYA:)


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Dear Jaspal Sir! Thanks for Stopping by and for Your Valueable Comment. Add me in your Fan list because I realy like all of your HUBS. I Need your Blessings to write Wonderful HUBS.

With Lots of Respect

from SHANAYA:)


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Hello Downpourofwords! Am Thankful to you for Stopping by & Comment. My Best Wishes with you.

With Respect

from SHANAYA:)

My Dear Bhanu Ma'am! I have Lots of Respect for you. Very Graceful Lady you are. Thanks a lot for Stopping by & Comment.

With Lots of Love

from SHANAYA:)

My Dear J.B aka LeeLee Ma'am! I hadn't thought that my first HUB will get so much APPRECIATION from all of you. Am Thanking you from the bottom of my Heart for Stopping by & Comment. I Need your Blessings.

Lots of LOVE

From SHANAYA:)


Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Where are you my hub daughter..I have missed you..just making sure you are okay and doing well...Hope you get this..big hugs,

Sunnie


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

My Dear HUB MOM! Thanks so much for your concern. Even am missing you alot. Am not well nowadays that is why couldn't be able to come online. Feeling very sorry for not being there. But don't worry about me and just pray, So that I can get well soon. I hope you got my mail.

LOVE YOU MOTHER:)

Lots of HUGS & KISSES

SHANAYA:)


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ubanichijioke 5 years ago from Lagos

Such a painful and sad story. One must learn from past experiences and always face the with optimism. I feel your sadness as portrayed throughout the story. Please, be strong


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Thanks for your wonderful comment.:) You felt the pain in my HUB that is what I wanted. Thanks again.:)

With Respect

From SHANAYA:)


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

It feels like time travel, coming back here to your very special writing, of course prompted by your incredible comment at my hub. I'm so busy in my life at this time, not to bore anyone, but just so you know, everything is changing for me, and I couldn't be any happier, that is until I'm reminded by my dear friends here, like you, that you are also part of my life...thank you so much for that.

I hope you are well, my dear friend....thank you for your incredible support...


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apurva joshi 5 years ago from INDIA

hi shanaya a really touching concept. beautifully written. liked it. voted up and awesome


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alvinalex 5 years ago

Great Hub! Thanks to share


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Hunbbel Meer 5 years ago from Karachi, Pakistan.

Nice hub Shanaya. Congrats :)

Your writing is as beautiful as your soul is. Best of luck for your upcoming articles.


Binaya.Ghimire 5 years ago

Your style, I mean colloquialism, is so interesting that I felt like you were talking to me.


kimberlyslyrics 5 years ago

I loved these lines

DAYS GO BY

THOUGH TIMES STAND STILL

LIFE AIN'T MOVING,

AM I STILL BREATHING?

And thoroughly enjoy your writing

bless

kimberly


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

Oh my, even though you wrote a disclaimer that this was purely fiction, I felt her pain of loss. I must admit for a moment there I thought you were my ex writing this. As this is exactly what happened between us, although there were children involved. It was the hardest, toughest decision I ever had to make in my life.

I paid the price for leaving and I still feel it today. I never married to get a divorce, but unfortunately things happen, words are said that can't be taken back, we walk away, we look back one last time with regrets. Love was present and love was lost forever in the blink of an eye. I look forward to reading your next hub with as much interest as I did this one...


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

This is never easy to cope with. Never been divorced but had my hard broken into gazillions of tiny pieces. I hope you will soon come to terms with this and move past the pain.


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shobis 5 years ago from Pakistan

I dont know what love really is ?Its so confusing .I think sentiments is love .I dont know


JadedLove 5 years ago

There really is no blame in my eyes. What happens is usually meant to be. I see there are three sides to every story, theirs yours and the truth.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 5 years ago from Portland, Oregon

Good work. Blaming someone when a relationship ends is cathartic, but I'm not sure entirely helpful. Like many people, I have been through a divorce (and one I didn't puruse) so it was nice to see those feelings put to work so nicely on HUB! Voted up.


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asmaiftikhar 5 years ago from Pakistan

Dear shanaya that is really good effort on your effort.You can do a lot .keep working hard to make unique piece or masterpiece of the world of writing.keeeeeep it up!voted up! and best of luck.Thanks Asma


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CloudExplorer 5 years ago from New York City

Nice hub, thanks for sharing Shanaya, and also thanks for reading mine as well. Hope to read more of your hubs in the future. Voted Up.


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

Very well written and expressive, I voted up ,beautiful,useful and interesting ! , you have alot of talent and you should be writing more . Writing will help you in everything you do or dont. food for thought ..."I would rather you hate me for WHO I AM , Thank for you to LOVE ME for WHO I AM NOT".... Thats my story , im stickin' too it :) have a blessed evening !


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

What an incredible first hub!

I have read in one of your comments, you have not been well, I hope you are fully recovered, I look forward to reading more of your work.

Best wishes MM


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shanaya 5 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Hello Ma'am {Movie Master}! Thanks for Stopping by & leaving valueable comment. Yeah you right, At that time I was going through very bad phase. But thank god it's over, now am perfectly fine.

It's my Great Pleasure to meet you here. :)

with lots of Love & Respect

from SHANAYA:)


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tobusiness 5 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Shanaya, how are you doing, just wanted to say hello and to let you know I've had a couple more hubs out, so stop by and let me know what you think. I do value your opionion take care, bye for now.


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TheDailyMessenger 5 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

Hey Shanaya, its TDM when will there be a part 2 this was a great little story, will there be a PART 2?


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carolinemd21 5 years ago from Close to Heaven

Shanaya- this is so heartfelt and beautiful. Love is never lost in relationships even when they don't turn out right. There is always a lesson learned in everything we do. You're a good writer please write more!


stessily 5 years ago

Shanaya, thank you for describing so clearly the feelings of rejection and of thwarted love. Sadly imbalances in love are not easily adjusted, and the purity of a heart that is willing to love fully is not secure against the ravages of a relationship that is out of tune.

Who cannot respond to the heartache which you express so clearly in this sentence: "I have cried so many times for that person who doesn't acknowledge my presence too."

The narrator here has a compelling voice and a passionate desire to live life fully. Unfortunately, we own not only our sunshine but also the shadows which are accordingly cast.

I love the quotation from Ralph Waldo Emerson: "Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine." So very very true! And you've incorporated this insightful quote from a great philosopher so perfectly into this narrative. Well done!

Voted up, beautiful, awesome

Kind regards, Stessily


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Cheeky Girl 5 years ago from UK and Nerujenia

This is powerful and very revealing for a first hub page. I am impressed, Shanaya. There is a lot of pent up emotion released here, and you kept it together well.

Relationships can be delicate and difficult to mend when things go bad. The blaming is something we go through. We are all human.

It sounds like you paid a price for wanting to appease your partner and make the thing work. It sounds like you have been under-appreciated. I hope you are able to rise above these things and carry on. Best wishes to you, Shanaya.

Cheers!


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tom hellert 5 years ago from home

Shan,

Part 2 gotta go on I'm invested i'll fire my usual twisted wisdom after te 3rd hub...

TH


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Shanaya, this is heartbreaking and reminded me so much of the life I have lived many years ago. Time does heal all wounds. If you don't find the love you are seeking, it will find you.

You disclaimed this hub as fiction and not personal, but there is no way a writer can write about this kind of pain the way you did if it was not experienced in person. Here in Hubland you may empty all the pain in your soul, and then you will recover and grow to your full potential.

If you ever get the time, read my novelette 'Till death do us part' - It contains 5 chapters and I have not yet write the last chapter because I am so over and done with that time of my life I just don't want to go back.

Trust me, in a couple of months you will feel the same about this time in your life. Take care!


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icciev 5 years ago from Kuwait

this is a well written article, feel sorry that you had to go through this bad experience but thanks god you are now over it, so keep amazing us with your articles and keep up the good work, voting up while heading to part 2.


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gjfalcone 5 years ago from Gilbert, Arizona

I enjoy the poetic style of this hub. Thought provoking subject which all whom are alive can relate. Bravo!


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vocalcoach 5 years ago from Nashville Tn.

Hello, my dear one. You write from your heart and from your talented place. This is the second hub of yours that I have read and I will read the third one soon. I love your writing. I can feel that you are a very special person. Just look at all your hubpage fans! And I am so grateful for you being here on Hubpages. Thank you and I voted UP! Keep up the great work. Hugs...

vocalcoach~


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prashantpujan 5 years ago from Mumbai, India

One more trail from me.........beautiful, awesome....voted up!!

What I believe in, is that no one is right or wrong in love. It's just you meet someone so often considering them to be perfect for you. May be they're truly perfect. Still things may go array and you lose them.. But one should not lose hope for love is beautiful, so beautiful that you ought to fall in it over and over again. smile!!


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Astra Nomik 4 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

This was an eye opening hub. You have put together an amazing hub and it reveals so much. I salute you for the strength you found in publishing this, however fictional it is. You are a brave and wonderful writer. :)


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shanaya 4 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Thanx Apurva! For commenting & liking it.

With respect

From shanaya:)


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shanaya 4 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Thanx Alvinalex for liking it.

Respect

Shanaya:)


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shanaya 4 years ago from Living in my Own Dreams:) Author

Hey Hunbbel! Thanks so much for visiting here and voting up. You all made it special & Thanx for that.

With respect

From Shanaya:)

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