Poems About Friendship,Family,Betrayal-Did You Have to Blindside Me? How You Killed Our Friendship With A Bold-Faced Lie

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A Bold-Faced Lie

 

It is well past midnight

I should be sound asleep

Peaceful in my dreams

Frolicking with sheep

Not taking great deep breaths

To calm my beating heart,

Or counting from one to ten

Then back from ten to start

I should be cuddling with my husband

Warding off the winter chill

Not trying to cool my boiling blood

My stomach feeling ill

From digesting implications

Of something I can’t understand

Analyzing the philosophy

Of man’s inhumanity to man.

Trying to process the revelations

Brought forth by your betrayal

Searching to understand this

I try, but only fail

Like a puzzle missing pieces

Or a page missing from a book

Knowing it must be there

Continuing to look

Scouring my memory

Analyzing every scene

How did I miss that you are not

The person that you seemed?

My mind tells me it’s a futile search

One that will only bring more pain

At least one friend is worried

This quest will make me go insane

But I cannot seem to stop right now

My need to know is strong

What did I ever do to you,

That made you do me so very wrong?

Life-long friends we've always said

Life-long friends I've always believed

So I was blindsided by the moment

When I found I’d been deceived.

I want to justify your actions

Find a believable excuse

I certainly don’t want to find

You guilty of this abuse

Why did you say these things,

We both know are boldfaced lies?

I can’t find a rhyme or reason

As all logic this defies

I know I should be sleeping

The night is almost gone

But thoughts of what you've done

Continue on and on

Depriving me of peaceful dreams

They keep me wide awake

I don’t know how much more of this

My broken heart can take

I used to call you best friend

Close as a sister you were to me

The last gasps of this relationship

Now keeping me from sleep

The sun will soon be coming up

Beginning of a brand new day

In its illumination

The last of my denial fades away

Never could I have done this to you

So I cannot comprehend

The knife protruding from my back

Was put there by my friend

There is no explanation

That will make this go away

Not even if I search the earth

All through the night and day

I must accept the awful truth

And let these feelings die

The love I felt for you my friend

Was killed by a bold-faced lie.

- Kristen-Burns Darling

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Fiddleman 5 years ago from Zirconia, North Carolina

Tremendous write and expression of trust lost.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Thank you Fiddleman! your kindness humbles me. Glad that enjoyed it! Thanks again for your support! :-)


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

This kind of betrayal, so senseless cuts deeper than a lover's cheating sometimes. At least you can see a motive for that. I hope this isn't as personally felt as it seems. If it is, someone really lost a good friend ... and it wasn't you!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Poohgranma - I think that you are absolutely right when you say that this type of betrayal can cut you deeper than a lover's cheating.... (I have had the great misfortune to have experienced both, and it was much easier to walk away from the cheating fiancée, at least with him, it was clear cut). While not all of my poetry is based on my real-life, Poetry has always provided me with a safe means and place to work out what I am feeling, and so I wish that I could tell you that this wasn't as personally felt, as it seems, but sadly, this is actually a very recent and devastating development in my personal life...:-( My grandmother always told me, "What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger" so I am pretty sure that I will live....Besides, lucky me, I have a very loving and supportive family, and the support of friends both old and new (like you!) to help me through it. :-)


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North Wind 5 years ago from The World (for now)

Wow K, this has happened to me twice and it really does cut like a knife. I wondered and still find myself wondering sometimes what the motive was for the betrayal. But really in some cases, you can't explain why people do the things they do.

It is a good thing you have people around you to encourage you because the grief of the lost friendship can overwhelm at times.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

North Wind - You have my sympathy! A friend of mine once gave me some great advice when he told me that "sometimes the only way to really understand a person's crazy actions, is to become crazy yourself, and the risk in doing that is that there is a real possibility that you might not be able to come back to the sane side of things, so it is just better to accept it for what it is rather than trying to decipher a nonsensical motive." I am glad that you stopped by, thanks for your comment!


Ladythree 5 years ago

Very deeply and beautifully written.


Doug Turner Jr. 5 years ago

Much heartache and regret behind these lines. But, alas, life will give us this sometimes. Peace.


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Doug - Thanks for stopping by!


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Very nicely done. The world is one big barnyard! Watch your step dear!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

Micky Dee - Sounds a lot like something that my dad would say...and he is one of the wisest people I know...he raised an intelligent daughter....but I inherited my mother's heart...and so I fear that at least half of the time I am doomed to get so swept away that I forget to look where I am going, until it is (oops!) too late and I've stepped right into it again! At least it gives me something to write about! Thanks for stopping by and leaving behind such kind words!


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epigramman 5 years ago

.well I love your writing - it hits right to the poetic core in beautifully chosen words and with flowing passion - in particular too I love that painting of the sheep getting ready to jump over the sleeper - it's almost surreal isn't it - just like our dreams - and I am so glad to see you back in the fold - I missed you for a bit and was wondering about your 'time away' from the Hub - and I always appreciate your comments - truly - because coming from someone like you makes it even more inspiring - and thrilling. Stay well my friend and yes I always start my day with a good pot of coffee too - and the chance of interacting with someone as nice as you!


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K. Burns Darling 5 years ago from Orange County, California Author

epigramman - My time away wasn't for anything too serious, just unavoidable; I have only just recently brought my father home from a seven week stay in the hospital, and was busy attending to his needs as well as taking care of my younger sister's eight-month old baby, while still trying to care for my own brood....just not enough hours in the day... but things have settled and I am back, and I have to say that it's good to be back, I've missed my hub friends and especially missed those who both make me laugh and flatter me with their very kind words. Thank you for taking the time to read my long-winded little rant, I am glad that you liked it, and yes, I loved the painting as well....


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epigramman 5 years ago

...well good for you for looking after your family - my two best friends were my mum and dad but they're both gone now - but no regrets whatsoever, they made me the man who I am today ....unfortunately I have no family anywhere except for my two cats ..... but you gotta love somebody don't you!!!


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Chriscwarner 5 years ago

I echo everything epigramman just said above! So much passion and deliberate choices in your piece. Personal and tender--thank you a million times over for opening the struggles of your life to us so candidly and beautifully--I am moved beyond belief.


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LEWMaxwell 3 years ago from Tulsa, Oklahoma

I could have written this poem. I feel the pain and regret in your words. This seems to come from a situation very similar to what I have gone through over the last 6 months.

There was something I saw recently and had it as my background on Facebook for a little while... Truth hurts. Lies kill. And it is very true. I had to end a friendship because there were too many lies, too much manipulation, too many things that I couldn't over look any longer. The situation changed how I deal with people, it changed how I look at others, and I'm slowly picking up the pieces and putting them back in place.


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K. Burns Darling 2 years ago from Orange County, California Author

@LEWMaxwell - I am so sorry to hear that you also had to endure a situation like this, it was for me one of the worst times of my life. I would have to say that I agree with you, lies kill. Lies kill all sorts of things, they kill trust, friendships, faith, and marriages. Situations such as this one can devastate families, shatter hearts, and change forever ones view of the world in general. It took awhile, but eventually I was able to move forward and put this unfortunate situation behind me, I hope that you were able to as well.

Thank you so much for the generosity of your time and your comments, they are welcomed and deeply appreciated.

Kristen

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