Burned the Candle

For MacGregor

Lit the first flame, a long time ago

Made a wish, unaware the seeds I'd sow

Eyes on a fairytale, innocent hopes in tow

Burned that candle as far as it would go

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Fire in my heart for what I didn't know

Imagination on what love might bestow

Basked in the cast of a flickering glow

Burned that candle as far as it would go

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Heat from the fire outside the snow

Warmth in a clear glass of bordeaux

Dreams of a fairytale that wait in limbo

Burned that candle as far as it would go

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Fair weather friends that I'd outgrow

Steep paths beyond a hard row to hoe

Fickle shadows changed and left me low

Burned that candle as far as it would go

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Love reaches the crest of it's final plateau

As dark follows light in life's laminar flow

Like a child holding tight to eternity's stow

I'll burn that candle as long as it will go

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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

My friend Amy....this is so beautiful...sad, sorrowful, melancholy and real. Your words can apply to young, expectant love, to loss, to impending reality of losing a loved one..especially your beloved friend for life and companion..to a bit of surrender and, yet, holding on...you WILL hold on until the very last hope. Oh My goodness, Amy...you speak for you and you speak for me...for all of US. Absolutely, profoundly beautiful. Up Awesome Beautiful Heartfelt and such completely talented communicative skills!!! I am sad .


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

I wrote more, Amy....about youthful innocence, about the belief that our loved ones will be with us forever...that we hold, deeply inside, that forever hope...burried so deeply in our psyche and hearts..that we are exempt...i wish it were so, Amy...

I spoke of MacGregor... I don't know where the rest of my words went...but, do know, that I, we are right beside you and MacGregor..I know how deeply sorrowful,, bewildered, alone and disheartened you are feeling....prayers and white light, healing love coming to you and Mac. Your friend, Kathy


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Well, Kathy, you made me cry out of sadness, but also from the feeling that you truly care and that means everything. The vet suggested Tramadol now, since MacGregor is not feeling well. I have to take my mother to the doctor this afternoon and the vet won't be in to fill the Rx until after 2:30, so I must wait to do what I am itching to do right now...make MacGregor feel better. Thank you, Kathy, for your heartfelt words that tell me, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you've been there and you understand. Your friend, Amy


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Please let me know how the new medication works...and how you are, Amy. You know it is true...I feel very very much for you and MacGregor

right now...as I read your poem, Amy...you have described a life of experineces w/Mac by your side and, as well...the current heartache in which you find yourself....again...as always; you say so much in so few words.


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

Very emotional poem my dear friend! I found myself thinking back to so many lost loves, so many heartwrenching sorrows, and the decisions I have made over the years that brought me to this point in life. Would things be different if I had chosen differently? for sure, but look at where I am now!

I send you hugs....I send you friendship....I send you a piece of my heart as I would to anyone I hold dear who is hurting.

bill


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I will definitely let you know how the meds work. They are non-narcotic, and used in humans, too. In fact, they work well for people without the addictive properties of narcotics. I think I'll ask the vet also about protecting MacGregor's tummy, as most drugs carry the risk of upset. He doesn't need to struggle with that, too. Thank you for your concern and help, Kathy. As always, having someone who cares is a lifeline.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

My friend, Bill, a few heartfelt, understanding words, like yours, carry so much comfort. I have an acquaintance, who after hearing the news from me, said "sorry" followed by "Have a nice day". Automated or not, we are responsible for what we say. I'd wished I hadn't shared the news, because obviously, he didn't care enough to really listen. A woman that works at the Walgreens around the block, who I see quite regularly, yet don't really know, asked me how I was and, and because she's always been so kind, I briefly told her. She simply said, "I am so sorry. I know he is part of your family." Then, she reached over and hugged me. I will never, ever forget her kindness. Just like the caring friends I have here, I will never forget your kindness, Bill, and all the others, who reach out to me. Family is more than who we are genetically linked to.


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Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

Very beautiful poem. You have a real talent.


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

Amy I will burn that candle as long as it goes... I love it.. You are so great with the way you word these beautiful poems you produce.

Debbie


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Jackie. I appreciate your very kind words.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

After a long day, and I'm tired to the bone, you message lifts me up. Thank you, Debbie. I needed that!


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epigramman 4 years ago

...well I never had a candle to burn Amy - I just burned the whole house down - lol - one of my favorite bands Roxy Music has a great song with the title Both ends burning - and yes it's true we all have our own burdens to bear - we all have our own candles to burn - and yes you are the most amazing songwriting poet I know (other than the epi-man of course) love your style , love your sass, love your no bullshit approach and yes that Stahl hussy is nervous - how can I tell - she wears a wig Amy - she wears a wig!!!!!

lake erie timeless for you but for everyone else it's 11:19pm

and big big hugs to the Mac Man from Tiffy and Gabriel


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Mr. C, do you really think Ms. Stahl wears a wig? Seriously? Not that it matters, but it would be nice to know she's not perfect.

Thank you, Colin, and hugs to you and yours, too!


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epigramman 4 years ago

...between you and me Amy I know for a fact she wears a wig from Wal*Mart - I saw her in one of those National Enquirer magazines and she had a brush cut that made that Sgt. in Kubrick's Full Metal Jacket look like a girl - I'll send you the pictures - and I love your heart in your writing Amy because it's the biggest heart in the whole wide world and Mac's got one wonderful mama.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I'm laughing as I read your take on Leslie Stahl's "brush cut".

My poor, sweet MacGregor is slowing down. I don't know if it's the meds or the disease that is starting to reduce his appetite now. As his mama, I wish I could take him back to when he felt great. Thank you, Colin.


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PegCole17 4 years ago from Dallas, Texas

Beautifully expressed. I wish you comfort during this difficult time.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Peg, Thank you so much for your kind expression of comfort.


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

Lovely, tender and heartfelt poetry, Amy. Mac has a very loving and talented mommy. When I was very young, my family owned a black Scottie and I loved that dog to pieces - so smart and so sweet. My heart goes out to you.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

I have a special affinity for Scottish Terriers and the people that love them. My dad adored his black Scottie and it tore him to pieces when his "MacGregor Angus" died of bladder cancer. It's the strangest thing, dearest drbj, but when I look into my Scotsman's coal black eyes, I swear I see my dad looking back at me. I can't help but associate the love he had for his and the love I have for mine and the love my dad and I shared. Thank you, drbj, for helping me clarify that and caring enough to listen. You are a rare and special person, my friend.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up, beautiful and awesome. You hit the right spot Amy. This is wonderful. Give MacGregor a sincere hug for me and tell him he's loved even in this part of the world without even getting to know him. Believe me God will look out for him and just treasure the moments you now have with him. Burning that candle at both ends with prayers for the both of you. God bless. Passing this on.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Oh, Gypsy, thank you for your sweet words. Mac would love you. After my dear dad died, I was introduced to a mediator through a workmate. We had a phone conversation where he said he saw my dad, who was in the company of his Scottish Terrier. My work associate knew nothing about the details the mediator relayed to me. I like to think my MacGregor will join them when his time comes. That thought brings me solace. Thank you, Gypsy.


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RealHousewife 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Beautiful poem Amy! And MacGregor! Oh I know he is glad to be with you and your gentle, loving self. You are for sure showing him the love and affection that will make him most happy and comfortable. I will have you on my thoughts dear:)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, RealHousewife. I was up at 3 a.m. this morning debating on whether to take MacGregor to Webster Animal Hospital, where I take him for treatment. He is stoic and with all the medications he is now taking, it's more difficult to know for certain how he is feeling. I got his "riding in the car" leash, and he jumped up for joy, so I drove him around the block and brought him back home. He is not, for the most part, enjoying life at this point and I will be strong and do what I must. I love him too much to allow him to suffer. Thank you, my friend, for keeping us in your thoughts.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Oh, Amy.....those special moments...I am glad you acted on impulse/love and took little MacGregor for a favorite ride...keep us posted...thru any means...Prayers, good thoughts, light, strength and love coming to you.....we're right there beside you.


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you, Kathy. That means so much. MacGregor isn't doing too well and I will keep you posted for sure. He did eat, though. But, when I can see that there is no other joy, it's time to let him have peace.


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Lucky Cats 4 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Ok, dear Amy and MacGregor...


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Perspycacious 4 years ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

While you are burning that candle, also do some candle making so the next one is ready. "I burn my candle at both ends, it will not last the night, but oh my foes and oh my friends, it gives a lovely light." (Edna St. Vincent Milay)


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Amy Becherer 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO Author

Thank you Perspycacious, that's a lovely quote. I'm going to remember that one.

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