By The Time Of Night - A Poem

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By The Time Of Night

Darkness arises

Taking over my heart's light

Like the day being overwelmed

By the time of night.


My heart beat dwindles to a slow pace

No longer wanting to beat

Afraid of what I may have to face

I can no longer stand on my feet.


I fall to my knees no longer able to fight

As my blood flow slows

Darkness flows

By the time of the night.


By the time of the night

I am terrified to tears

Overwelmed by my fright

Taken over by fears.


Voices are louder than ever before

Anxiety is worse than I ever known

Rocks pile on more and more

My skin stings like rocks being thrown.


Oh by the time of night

I become a different being

No hope in sight

My mind's disagreeing


With the voices for only so long

Because soon I know I will give in

Though I know it's wrong

I know they will win.


It's a hard battle but it comes every night

And at the time I don't think I will ever make it through.

But just like a miracle there comes day light

And the anxieties suddenly become but a few.


I know I am stronger than what the voices make me out to be

I suddenly feel like I can stand again

I am finally able to be me

But here comes night, will it be the end?

What This Poem Is About

I have several mental illnesses and at night they seem to be much worse. Night time is when I struggle the most, when I begin to hear voices, when I worry about the smallest of things. This poem is about my struggle with the night and how I battle every time the sun goes down.Yet I always make it through. Morning is my favorite time of the day because this is the only time I feel my best.

For those who struggle with mental illnesses know that you are never alone. It's a difficult struggle we may feel like we may not make it through the day but I know that with in each and everyone of us we have the strength to make it through.

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Comments 22 comments

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Senoritaa 4 years ago

I can feel your pain in every one of your words. The struggle is so vivid, and I am sorry that its real.


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Cresentmoon2007 4 years ago from Caledonia, MI Author

Thank you Senoritaa. It is real but I am seeking out help and I don't plan on giving up.


Coral Rose 4 years ago

Thank you for sharing this. I could recognize it as I have suffered too. And you're right, it never pays to get up. Many blessings on your journey.


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago

Sad for those illnesses of yours. Sensitive as I am, I wish you could find relieve with available medicine. The poetry takes me to the nights when darkness and emptyness can really touch my nerves. Silence is another trigger for those problems and we can relate at times. Take care and happy new year Cresentmoon

lord


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prettynutjob30 4 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

Very sad poem you always put so much feeling into your work,great hub voted up.


Ghaelach 4 years ago

Hi Cresentmoon.

I hope you do have a Happy New Year.

Your illness doesn't take into considerations of whether it's Christmas day or mid summers day, it's always there.

I myself have pain 24 hours a day, 365 days a year and like yours it doesn't matter what day it is.

Take care Cresentmoon and i hope the best for you.

LOL Ghaelach


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lilyfly 4 years ago from Wasilla, Alaska

Happy New Year! Voted up and awesome! Love yaz, lily


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Moms-Secret 4 years ago from Central Florida

the night has that affect on many for many reason. I am happy to hear what the day does for you. I could really relate to your poem although not for the same reasons.


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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

I'm like Moms-Secret, I'm going through a bad sleeping time and now I feel very empty.


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TKs view 4 years ago from The Middle Path

Voted up and awesome cresentmoon. Not only for your skill of writing, but your courage to step out of that darkness for a time to shed the light that is yours alone on this topic.

Even with the difficulties you face, you've accomplished quite a lot here on the hub and garnered several followers.

Good job. Stay strong.


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kittythedreamer 4 years ago from the Ether

Sad, yet beautiful. Voted up. Keep your head up and listen to your heart & soul...ignore those voices in your mind, as they are false. Maybe try to do some ritual work or meditation at night when you feel at your worst. Call on the Goddess for help...she will answer and be your strength. Blessed Be.


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raciniwa 4 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

oh, so sad, it's really hard to be tormented...the nights would be hardest for it seems the longest...how i wish i can help you...i've been to troubled times too...yet, i cried out to the Power beyond me and asked for deliverance...going back to the inner self to see what's really afflicting you...


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Cresentmoon2007 4 years ago from Caledonia, MI Author

Wow once again I have received many comments here. Thank you.

@Coral, it's true it never pays to give up. We must continue to fight no matter how much we feel like giving up.

@Lord, I have recently started medications so I do hope that they will help. Thank you for your comment as well as for reading.

@Prettynutjob, thank you for reading once again. Poetry is the one way I release my feelings so sometimes my poems may seem dark because I often write when I am sad. However not always. Sometimes I write when I am happy.

@Ghaelach, you are correct. It doesn't matter what time of the year it is, what day it is. My mental illnesses are always there. I am sorry to hear about your pain as well. Thank you for reading.

@Lily, I hope you enjoyed your new years. Thank you for voting up.

@Moms-secret, I'm sorry to hear you can relate, even if it may be for different reasons. Thanks of reading as well as commenting.

@Writer 20, I do hope you begin having better nights. All the best to you. Thanks again for reading.

@TK, I always look forward to your wonderful comments. Thank you for your kind words.

@Kitty, I will take up your advise and hope that it helps. Thank you.

@Raci, perhaps I should try going back to my inner self to see what's really afflicting me. Thank you for reading.


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teenboyproblems 4 years ago from Nebraska

Beautiful poem. Sorry for the pain you feel. You have a gift with poetry despite any mental illnesses you may have. Voted up.


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Movie Master 4 years ago from United Kingdom

Such beautiful poetry, I am so sorry to hear of your struggles I send you my best wishes and hope things improve for you, MM


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Fennelseed 4 years ago from Australia

This struggle must be so difficult for you. Please know that you are not alone and hopefully you can draw some strength for your fight against this illness from your friends here. May your nights be restful and fear-free very soon.


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Cresentmoon2007 4 years ago from Caledonia, MI Author

@teenboyproblems thank your comment and for voting up.

@MM thank you for reading again and things are beginning to improve.

@Fennelseed, it is a difficult struggle. I do know I am not alone. Things are getting better ever so slowly. Thank you.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

nice work cresentmoon. Haven't been by to visit in awhile. wanted to say hey and check out what's new!


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Cresentmoon2007 4 years ago from Caledonia, MI Author

PDX, thank you. NM is new here on my end haven't been able to go online myself for quite some time. Thank you for reading.


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

how do u live???? ;-)


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Cresentmoon2007 4 years ago from Caledonia, MI Author

Oh idk how i've been able to live. Thankfully I have the internet now so I am living now :)


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PDXKaraokeGuy 4 years ago from Portland, Oregon

well, that's good. cutting it close...

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