CAN I PLEASE HAVE MY HEART BACK? - I Need To Breathe
WHERE IS IT?
WHERE IS MY HEART?!!! TELL ME!!! Where the hell is it?!!! You see it was with me this morning and then I watched my son leave my car and walk to the front of his school on his own. I asked him if he will be ok? Since I had walked him every day now for years and he said "Don't worry mom, I'm fine." He smiled at me as he walked away and I welled up a bit because I know this is all part of it. He is growing up. He is in the last year at his elementary school and he is very popular with his friends and I am very proud of him. "I love you" I thought and then I drove away. I felt my heart ache like when I was a child.
Well my heart came back in full "flutter mode" of course but I never know when it will leave me again!! Sometimes it feels like it no longer belongs to me and wants to escape! I find myself feeling amazing things and then all of a sudden it disappears again! HEY you, this is not funny anymore!!!!!....GIVE IT BACK NOW!!!! So love seems to take it on a permanent vacation where it controls everything little thing I do. I feel like I am a "love program" and my heart is calling the shots. Please Master Heart, can you give a girl a break?!!! Even with love there is pain especially when lovers are separated for minutes, hours, days and God forbid WEEKS!!!!......So please kind sir, give it back just for a little while so I can catch my breathe before it dances FOREVER!!!!
OK HEART, let's have a talk shall we? So you seem to think that you are your own person now and I'm just part of the "big picture" when it comes to LOVE? Well?!!!!! Hmmmmm?!!!!! OH....NOW YOU ARE QUIET! I feel the flutter and it hurts sometimes...YES....LOVE hurts but it is also very LOVELY.
Would you like to dance?!!
Lately my heart has been on it's own and frankly I don't give a damn! I mean if it wants to flutter and dance every single hour of the day...so be it! I guess I just need to pick a new theme song for this new LOVE MUSICAL! Maybe I will pick "Lets Dance" by David Bowie!!! Seems to fit the mood tonight! VOILA! DONE! THERE!!!!! Are you happy NOW?!!!!
LET'S CELEBRATE LOVE
So let us talk about "the love" and how fortunate we are to be LOVED throughout our lives. In our childhood, to the teen years, to marriage and to those twilight years where we get to think about so many awesome memories......To LOVE is a gift and we must embrace it nomatter what! We must share in the joy every time we feel our hearts dance!!! And even if LOVE hurts sometimes, I would never want it any other way. Cause if it HURTS in a good way of course, then we know that it is LOVE!!
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