Cancer Lies Within


Dying from within

Slowly decomposing

Lost in a storm

Nothing to take hold

Engulfing my strength

The hope inside

Can still fight back

I will die trying

Inescapable tides

Silence that hushes me

I could hear my heartbeat

Creeping back

Thoughts and emotions

Brought up this agony

Cancer that lies within

Eating me alive

Screaming for mercy

Wails bounded from inside

Death is coming

There is no place to hide

A demon inside

Tearing at the flesh

Lost in darkness

The needle strikes me deep

Glistening euphoria

Falling into sound sleep

To only escape

Dreams dance around

In my mind

Of another place

Another time

I am a queen

Where there is much beauty

I laugh and have fun

I hold on to

No hate

No fury

Seeing peace

In heaven

I will be there again

See all who I love

We will dance together

Up far and away

With the angels

Ever so sweetly

In the clouds high up above

I've had many people close to me die of cancer including my father and grandmother with whom I was very close to. These were devastating times. I couldn't handle my emotions at the time. Trying the best I could to hold on to what strength I had to find some peace in the situation. Cancer is an ugly and vicious disease that can have no remorse for the person who is suffering. Cancer doesn't affect just the person who has it, but all who love the person as well. I wanted to write something that brought me back to that time in the perspective of the person suffering from cancer. Although I have never suffered myself from this horrible disease and don't know how I would react to it. I wanted to write about the hope that you can still have during the fight with cancer and of the peace and love to achieve in the afterlife.

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Momma Mia 4 years ago from North Carolina

Wow O wow ! You did cancer patients a great service! I applaud you for connecting with the feelings. I myself have a rare form of leukemia..... and took words right out of my mind! Thank you!

rated up and such!



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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Thank you Momma Mia for your lovely comment. I am sorry for your battle with this disease. I wish you all the best with strength and love. Take Care.

stessily 4 years ago

Caroline, Truly an amazing journey into the inner world of life vs. death! Your sensitivity and your compassion in describing this inner world are testaments to your poetic, empathic talents, through which you have created this touching memorial.

Beautiful, poignant, mesmerizing! UABI.

Kind regards, Stessily

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TheLastBabyBoomer 4 years ago from Surprise Arizona

Lost my dad and my mom-in-law to cancer. Now I know what ran through their minds in the process.

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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

I lost my Sister Bea with brain cancer. It was the most devastating time in my life. The cancer reached the stage where she was unaware. I was thankful for that. Very thoughtful piece that many can relate to..Thank you.

KatrineDalMonte 4 years ago

Sad, beautiful, poignant. It's a great poem Caroline. Often only when we read something like this we truly realize how much we have in terms of love, life, family, health which cannot be replaced. So let's live every day to the fullest with appreciation for every moment. Thank you for this hub.

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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

@ Stessily thank you for reading and your inspirational comment! You always leave the best. :)

@ TheLastBaby Boomer I am sorry to hear about your loss. Cancer is a very tough disease. I find peace knowing that the ones I loved who died are at peace. Thank you for reading and stopping by.

@ Ruby that is so tragic. I am sorry to hear about your loss. That is great that she is at peace now and that she was unaware at the last stages. Thank you for commenting. Take Care.

@ Katrine thank you for all the kind words and great advice. :)

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pagesvoice 4 years ago from New York/Pennsylvania border

Voted up and beautiful. Our closest friend's husband has battled cancer for years and it is amazing how many "friends" flee when bad news is given to them. The sad truth is that for many the way they handle a person with cancer to avoidance. We've watched it happen on more than one occasion. For me, it is Alzheimer's disease that I despise. I witnessed both grandmothers and then my own mother die of this gut wrenching horrible and insidious disease. You are so right that when serious illness hits it has an impact on all involved.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

That was wonderful! I could understand and feel the despair. My grandma died of cancer but she got cancer when she was already in her 90s and we thought she'd live to be 100 at least. Why fate had it for her at that age I'll never understand.

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cherylone 4 years ago from Connecticut

I just recently lost my mother to cancer. You are so right when you say it isn't just the patient that suffers. You did very well with this.

Sueswan 4 years ago

Hi Caroline

"We will dance together

Up far and away

With the angels

Ever so sweetly

In the clouds high up above"

Your poem touched me deeply. Beautiful and poignant.

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SubRon7 4 years ago from eastern North Dakota

Beautiful work as usual, Caroline. The Afterlife. I sometimes look forward to it, to the rejoining of the three people I have loved the most. In the meantime I want to continue making the best of it here.

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raciniwa 4 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

I lost my grandmother to breast cancer, so i research about is a sad ordeal and you are right, it does not just affect the patient but to the families as well...great hub Carline...

ExoticHippieQueen 4 years ago

Such incredibly beautiful and intense imagery. Voted up and beautiful, Caroline.

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Sky9106 4 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

That's where the true strength of each of us must come out and we will have a chance to test our own self as to how we match up with the the ultimate weapon of Evil . Death !

That's where we are still able to say death has no power over us because "IT REALLY DOESN'T "

A beautiful and thoughtful poem Caroline , only shows me you deeper thoughts and they were always deep .

As you know I just got back from the hospital , and of all the things I hate and won't ever do that's the exact demon which stood up at the "heart" , and I went on as I always do when in hospital room.

No heart operation for me ever..

Turned out Thyroid . We know what that does . So I am almost back to where I am comfortable.

Never give up in fear only when you are not aware, because it's stronger than you then let God. . So my dear Caroline you got the answer to the question you asked , so you know I would have never forgotten.

You have in my eyes always been a great person.

Stay well and Give thanks.


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ImKarn23 4 years ago

This quite possibly moved me as much or more than any single piece of poetry every has. I leaned forward to read it closer as my tears welled up. I was afraid it was you! I'm sorry you suffered so! voting way up

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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

@ Pagesvoice thank you for your comment and read. It is terrible hat people get so uncomfortable at the thought of a disease that they bolt. People need to support each other during those times the most. I am sorry to hear about your family and alzheimer's. That is devastating. WIshing you all the best. Take Care.

@ Gypsy I am sorry to hear about your grandma. Wishing you the best. Thank you for stopping by and your constant support always! :)

@ Cheryl I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I wish you all the best and sending you love. Thank you for stopping by and commenting friend.

@ Sueswan thank you very much dear lady.

@ Jim those are words to live by. Wishing you all the best! Thank you for your constant support my friend.

@ Raciniwa I am sorry to hear about your grandmother. I wish you the best and thank you for your kind words.

@ ExoticHippieQueen thak you for all your kind words!

@ Sky thank you for all of your kind and inspiring words as always. I am so sorry to hear of your illness. Are you alright? I am glad it isn't something worse. Wishing you all the best. Light and love my friend. Take Care.

@ ImKarn23 thank you so much for your kind words and reading! Wishing you the best. Take Care!

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dahoglund 4 years ago from Wisconsin Rapids

Cancer is a bad disease but things are getting better.My father died at the age of 52 from it and it was painful for him and in a different way for him. However, I have had it twice and am surviving.

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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Wow that is amazing Dahoglund to survive twice. I am sorry to hear of your father. Thank you for taking the time out to read. Wishing you all the best. Take Care.

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lifesparadox 4 years ago from USA

I couldn’t read this without tears. Absolutely outstanding and I felt every word of it. I have lost several loved ones to cancer and this poem is so true. Thank you and warmest wishes!

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carolinemd21 4 years ago from Close to Heaven Author

Hi Lifesparadox nice to meet you. Thank you for your kind words and for reading.

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