Confession of a Saint to an Angel

Confession of a Saint to an Angel


Everything I have never done has been my sin of selfishness. All the choices I don’t make, everything I ever avoided doing, has been for myself alone.

do they even matter to you


My whole life I have been the focus of my thoughts, obsessing narcissistically, while concocting elaborate schemes, all of which I never enacted.

wasted


Every ounce of blood, sweat, and time given to others, for the sake of myself.

negated, negated


Consistently, selflessly, putting aside my very need for survival, to entertain the comforts and frivolers of others.

unrepentant, blasphemer


This was all a façade. It was only ever actions, feelings, but never thoughts. All of which arouse from my personal view of beauty, the life in others I so savored to watch.

pervert, voyeur


The whole time I plotted, plotted ways to get what I needed . I choose to take all the weight upon myself, to be the yoke of neutrality, only sharing as I deem fit, never fully trusting.

narcissist


Food, clothes, medicine, I know how to obtain these for myself, and because of the depths of my knowing, I have chosen not to.


lazy, stubborn


For truly, if I were to accomplish these designs, achieve these goals, it would be devastating for those who are not I. Truly, people would suffer, die perhaps, yet I would prevail, living, strong.


this is the fate of all those who walk the earth


For this is the reason, I have chosen not to act, not to continue my plans, not to make the decisions necessary for my descent to infamy. Never for them, but for my own desires, human love, beauty.

weak, coward


This was not one solitary moment, or choice. My sin has evolved, premeditated over a period of years. My selfishness cannot be surmised as one, brief moment of passion, but in itself a life-long passion, a way of existence.

psychopath, deviant, plague


And if I should be judged as a self-absorbed misanthrope, and sentenced to die for my life of carefully undone deeds, that would be a fair judgment.

you may yet be,


For all these evil things,

in sound mind, and sound body,

willing I admit,

I have done none of them.


Signed, the Saint of the Middle Path

The Angel

The voice in italics is a spiritual guide. He is supposed to sound objective and concerned with only the greater good of all mankind. Do you think this comes across? If no please select choice.

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Frank Atanacio 2 years ago from Shelton

wow interesting and very well done my friend :)


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Stolas 2 years ago from Midwest Author

Thank you, It's been awhile. I am trying to get back into the habit or writing regularly before words begin to bleed out of my eyes.

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