June 27, 2014
This is part of a new fiction series I'm starting called 'Dear Diary'. It will be an intimate look at the life of a woman who's overcome many obstacles. Some perverse, while others are beautiful.
A new start. A new beginning. Today is the first day of my new life. I am tired of all the old ways of thinking. All of the old thoughts. All of the old friends. All of the old lovers. Today I will be born again. A newborn emerging from the womb with all new experiences awaiting her. I'm leaving the dark after thoughts never to return again. The mess that I'm leaving behind will not follow me anymore and haunt my mind. That person is dead. Who lived that life of abuse, of regret, of pain and abandonment. She is emerging like the phoenix of ashes, never to return. To be free again among the other beautiful things out there. Other things that aren't tainted and torn. Other things that are pure and honest.
What was I thinking before? Did I lose my mind to get trapped into what I was before? That evil that surrounded me clouding my judgement like a parasite that wouldn't let go. My mind was diseased and I was decaying because of it. That evil man who wanted me as his slave. Torturing me everyday slowly. That was the only thing that made him happy. To see me suffer. The nasty people... all the nasty people that tried to tear me apart. Who didn't even care. I forgot about revenge. Karma will do it's work. I am just glad that I am gone from that.