The Devil Within

I wish that you would leave my thoughts

Never again to return - it would be no great loss

But, no sir, instead you show up in disguise

Each time invading my mind with your lies

Often taking the past form of those that I love

Whispering subtle discouragement, now feeling more like a shove

If only my response could be a yell or a scream

Yet knowing that time is but a fast moving stream,

Clinging to your spite filled words as they are cast

Or grasping for your duplicitous shadows of past

Will not make for me a life saving device

But instead be the anchor depriving this moment's joy of life

I believe this with all of my heart and soul

So, you sir - no matter the outcome - will not accomplish your goal

A convergence of disparagers of both past and present,

You need not clutter my mind, making my thoughts unpleasant

Thank you, but if it's really all just the same,

I'll just pack you up and send you back from whence you came!


© 2013 Shannon

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ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

Shanmarie,

SO good to see you! I love your poem. You capture those tortured feelings one can feel when in battle with those devilish thoughts.

A definite vote up!

Wishing you a wonderful week,

Kim


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DDE 3 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

The Devil Within very interesting about such thoughts and so much to feel in this poem


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Hi Kim,

Great to see you, too! Thanks for your vote up. Hope you're doing well, and have a fantastic weekend.

Shan


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Hello DDE,

Good to see you again. I hope all is well with you. Thanks so much for taking the time to stop by!

Shan


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FlourishAnyway 3 years ago from USA

I like the power, angst and energy in this. I could feel the protagonist's emotions.


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks, FlourishAnyway! I never tire of having someone tell me something I wrote stirs emotions, whether the reader relates on a personal level or not. There's not much point in writing otherwise. Almost as if words would just seem hollow and fall flat.


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Jodah 3 years ago from Queensland Australia

Great poem shanmarie, love your style and those fighting words. Don't ever let that 'devil within' defeat you. He's sneaky and will try anything. I'm always engaged in a running battle with him myself. Voted up, good stuff.


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Yes, Jodah, those whispers of self doubt can be quite sneaky. Mostly, it seems, that is because that devil whispers those words out of the mouths of those one either least expects it to come from or from loved ones whose words matter regardless of whether one believes the discouraging remarks or not.

Thank you for the follow. I've peaked in on your hub profile, and I will be back as soon as I can to become better acquainted.


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ImKarn23 3 years ago

Hi, Shanmarie...

just wanted to stop by and say hi, and i'm so glad that i did!

This is deliciously dark, and devilishly deep!

Well done!

sharing/caring

have a great wednesday!


Vincent Moore 3 years ago

Oh those devils within that come to haunt us and play with our hearts, soul and minds. To banish them from whence they came is not always an easy task, thus to pen against their spirits, call out their names with disgust will help do so. I've felt much from the shadows that lurk in my walk on this earth and they will always be there, yet I try to control them as best I can, its not always possible. Keep thinking happy thoughts, laughter, love and singing praises will put a frown on their faces and help keep them down. I pray for peace in your soul my dear poet. Very well written and delivered, love the visuals I felt. Tweeted and shared.


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Hi! I'm so glad you stopped by, too! Your comments never fail to bring a smile to my face. Hope you have a great Wednesday as well!


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Thanks so much for stopping by, Vincent. I'm also appreciative that you shared it with others. The thing about shadows, though, is that they lurk without any real power. Peace is possible!


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Senoritaa 3 years ago

Good read based on positive attitude.


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Minnetonka Twin 3 years ago from Minnesota

Really great poem that captures those moments of darkness and negativity. I love how Vincent put it~that writing about it decreases the power of it. Hit many buttons and voted up. A good/ fitting poem for this Halloween Eve.


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Thank you so much, Senoritaa. I just popped over to look at your work. I can see I'll have to be reading more. :)


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Thank you, Minnetonka Twin. I agree with the both of you - writing about those moments does decrease their power. But, like I said, shadows are intangible; they can't really hurt us. They can scare us, they can haunt us, and they can hurt us emotionally. However, the power ends when we turn the light on, so to speak, and step out of the darkness to see what the shadow really is. Perhaps writing it down is a way of doing that. . .


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Minnetonka Twin 3 years ago from Minnesota

Absolutely-You put it very well Shanmarie. Happy Halloween Eve :-0


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Same to you! Funny, but I don't really get into Halloween so much as I did when I was a child. It's my parents' anniversary, and that is all it mostly is to me. LOL


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Minnetonka Twin 3 years ago from Minnesota

I'm like a little kid when it comes to Halloween. We made a big deal of it as kids and It still hasn't rubbed off. Were carving the pumpkins tomorrow night and baking pumpkin seeds. I love decorating the house all spooky and giving candy out to the kids. I refuse to grow up. LOL


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

That's okay! I am like that with Christmas. Hahaha. Last year the kids did a pumpkin decorating contest for school, and we used candy to make faces on the pumpkins. We do the little houses sometimes, too, like the gingerbread ones. Don't think we're doing much this year, though. It would be fun to do a family costume bit. . .maybe next year. hehe. You have fun tomorrow!


Ausseye 3 years ago

The pumpkin makes a good a good devil in carnot, the soup is great but the seeds are a bit tough. So growing the pumpkin is a quest best left to the professional garden devil, kind and considerate gental soul!!! So the earth is a source of creating the Halloween experience, so the devil must be in the seed.......best to return them to the earth when you have finished with them. The worldly source of both good and evil, a very human creation. Dust to dust, devil to devil and humanity to humanity. Your poem generated these small thoughts in a brain needing a lot of development...... Hope it gets it's share of the devils resources!!!


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

Interesting, Ausseye, especially since Halloween was not on my mi d when I wrote this. Funny how timely it was, though. So there's a pumpkin devil in my garden, eh?


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ahorseback 3 years ago

Shan, Some of us are slaves to our memories , don't ever go there for long ! Luv ya !.....Ed


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas Author

No worries, Ed. I never do!


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Nellieanna 2 years ago from TEXAS

Shan, yes, I see the parallel with the shadows I mentioned in our conversation earlier.

This is such a good, assertive declaration of independence from shadows and whispers within which can discourage a person and rob one of real opportunities in the bright and real present moments we have with which to build, rather than letting any shadowy things tear us down.

I'm reminded of something in a talk by Jim Rohn (loose translation here): "There are two ways to have the finest house in town. One is by tearing all the other houses down. But people will get onto you and block you doing it. The other way is to work on your own house!" That always is what it boils down to. We must work on our own 'houses' and not let anyone tear ours down to try to prove theirs, nor must we try to tear theirs down to try to prove ours. Just always work on our own and encourage others in their quest to build theirs.


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shanmarie 2 years ago from Texas Author

Things that attempt to tear mine down have never really worked, Nellieanna. Perhaps they stall me temporarily, but that's all. Like the song in the other one I mentioned, I shake it off and stand. But, yes, this was meant as a declaration of that as is the one about the shroud.

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