Distilling the Essence

LXXI.

"Cornflower Blue" by Ally Coxon
"Cornflower Blue" by Ally Coxon

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Once a little garden grew

And Cyanus ruled it tenderly

Till wintry winds' descent

Upon its inner wall

Blew away the cornflower

And blue the heart where

He fell down and where he lay

Beyond recall.

But now remembrance whispers go

To a little garden, worlds apart

Where, framed in gray,

That flower blooms again

Today.

I go.


___© Nellieanna H. Hay


How painful,

Yet pleasant

To outgrow each step

One finds to take.

Beautiful growth

Radially;

And inwardly

Grows free.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

The wind kicks tin cans

And paper cups

Along the street

And makes the giant tree

Into a feather fan-

The path of street lamps

Seems to bend

Before the wind

Of summer storm.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


I leave my clues

Upon the pages,

Even silent ones.

And when I do not write,

Their absence

Is the clue.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

The wasted lapse of life

Between

The thought and action

Could be vanquished

With the plan.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay






Perhaps the fleur-de-lis

Begins to fade

As bougainvillea beckons.

Eternity is now.

I wait not

To fit myself,

Submit myself

To Life itself

This moment.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

I feared

I'd lost the rhythm,

As if the heart

Forgets its beat.

Fear may cloud

And finally smother life.

But it

Cannot

Be lost.

Fear exposed,

Dissolves

And I am

On again.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


I told you my soul

And you answered me,

"Tomato bugs."

I like it better than

Shakespeare

Out of context!


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


Would you care to cauterize

My love for you?

To sever feelings so intense

That they cannot be subdued

To minimize the ocean of my love,

To fit into a corner of the heart?

Is that what you would

Wish to do?


______© Nellieanna H. Hay




The barometer

Inside

Becomes

At rest.


The path finally reaches

Its horizon,

Horizon evermore.

The seagulls soar

Above its point of vanishing,

To show that

It's become

Its fullest self

Where soul-to-soul

Communes.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



If I seem to clutch,

Please know

I would clutch not

But only touch

And feel the glow

Of love to know

Of love that is unforced.

I need that kind of love

To live,

To grow.



______© Nellieanna H. Hay


I shall not follow.

Here I am

And here I'll stay,

Whole -

Together or alone,

If sadly.

'Tis better that than

Shut out deliberately

Or shut in fragmentally.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



I'd like an easy, breezy feeling,

If you please.

I want no heavy, hassley,

Creepy, crawly

On the knees

Feelings!

Life's too short

And life's too good

For wasting.

It's too much but too little

To miss a single tasting.

Stand up tall

And walk on by;

Just don't let this moment

Pass you by.

Have a little,

Have it all,

It's yours just for

The taking.

It's all there is,

How great it is,

And right now it's in

The making.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

(Paired with verse of "All The Things You Are", my favorite)

Bougainvillea - Monarch Butterflies
Bougainvillea - Monarch Butterflies | Source




If you be

Human hearted,

Then all you are

Is good.

The heart in tune

With self

Cannot betray itself.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


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Comments 54 comments

Binaya.Ghimire 5 years ago

Your poetic arrangement is superb. The lines are awesome.


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TicksProfessional 5 years ago from Lucknow India

I leave my clues

Upon the pages,

Even silent ones.

And when I do not write,

Their absence

Is the clue.

This is the one that I liked the most. Great hub...awesome and beautiful and voted that way.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Binaya - or do I address you Ghimire? Thank YOU for visiting and leaving your impression! I have been reading some of your work! Excellent!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

TicksProfessional - thank you. I'm fond of that one too. It's so true but its subtlety makes it easily unnoticed, both in the meaning and in the writing of that. I've been reading some of yours too. I'm quite impressed!


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Aley Martin 5 years ago from Sumner, Washington,USA

I agree with Ticks...I love them all but the clue one really was awesome.Nellianna...you are such a bright and engaging soul....I love reading your work...! Blessings in abundance dear one.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Aley! I value your good opinion greatly! I am so happy that you stopped by. Hugs!


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Mentalist acer 5 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

How painful,

Yet pleasant

To outgrow each step

One finds to take.

Beautiful growth

Radially;

And inwardly

Grows free.

I find one can usually outgrow each step unwillingly or,more usually unknowingly.;)


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Bryan - You're so right. Fact is, if one fails to outgrow them, the result is stunted growth! But being more willing and aware may help our steps be more sure-footed and so, less likely to need to be redone again and again if we inadvertently slip on loose ground! :-) Hopefully, we should get better at distilling the best essence in us as we proceed! ;->

Thank you for a great thoughtful comment! You always come through!


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Jaggedfrost 5 years ago

You give slot per post. Your style is very restful, thank you. I am still looking for the secret to getting as much reader response as you get.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Jagged Frost. Welcome here. It's been a good while! I'm honored and amazed that you find it restful. I've no expectations or intentions. If it is good for someone else, it's good. Not by my design. Mostly, when written, sharing with others was the very last thing on my mind or heart. Even now, - it's spontaneous and uncontrived and simply appreciated. Maybe that's the "secret", whatever it is?

Thank you!


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kallini2010 5 years ago from Toronto, Canada

It's beautiful, Nellieanna.

I cannot say much more, I feel silence inside and when my mind locks me in it (in silence? in solitude?), words depart. The only solace I have is music.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Svetlana - I understand. And appreciate it all the more that you came by even so. Silence can be good, especially with music. Thank you for the presence.


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christopheranton 5 years ago from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom

I might outgrow some steps, but I cannot outgrow the pleasure of reading your beautiful verse.

I,m glad that I discovered your hub Nellieanna, before bed this evening, rather than early in the morning like I usually do.

I appreciate your lovely poetry better now, than I would with grouchy morning eyes.

Thanks for that. My dreams will be sweeter tonight because of you.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Christopher - thank you! I'm most pleased that you discovered my hub before bed too, though I've never detected any 'grouchy' in your morning comments! I hope you are having pleasant dreams. Hugs.


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neeleshkulkarni 5 years ago from new delhi

The heart in tune

With self

Cannot betray itself.

amazing end!!!! words fail me further.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

neelesh - I've missed you! Thank you for visiting now! Glad you like it!


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JamaGenee 5 years ago from Central Oklahoma

I'm torn between "absence is the clue" and "Tomato bugs!" as my favorite, so guess I'll just have to savor all the dishes in this wonderful buffet you've put so lovingly before us! ;D


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Jama - thank you! I'm quite fond of "Tomato Bugs" too. ;-> I appreciate your delightful comments! Hugs!


fashion 5 years ago

This is so beautiful poem.You are really a great poet.I love it.


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neeleshkulkarni 5 years ago from new delhi

know what Nellie by missing me you made my dayyyyyy, my weeeeeeek, my montthhh andddddd well let me not exageratee. thanksss


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Fashion - Thank you, dear person! I'm so pleased you love it!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Neelesh - (great big smile) - you're such a breath of fresh air! Hugs.


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maven101 5 years ago from Northern Arizona

You, my dear, are the distilled essence of the poetic voice...Always a sublime pleasure to submerge myself in such sweet essence...Thank you, and Carpe Diem...Larry


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Yes, Larry! Carpe Diem is my motto, too. Thank you for reminding me and especially for another gloriously nice comment! I love the way you tie it in with the theme, too. You've improved my day!

Hugs! :-)


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Denise Handlon 5 years ago from North Carolina

They are all beautiful...

how painful, yet pleasant...YES! I love this one. But, my favorite is the last...the heart in tune with self, cannot betray itself.

Lovely collection. Rated up and beautiful.


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Hello, hello, 5 years ago from London, UK

Hello, Nellianna, and thank you for another wonderful treat again. The very lay-out is so beautiful.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Denise - Ah, yes. Growing is both painful and pleasant. What is surely more painful and less pleasant is to become static and quit growing. But it's comforting to know we're not alone in feeling the friction of growth, I hope.

I'm very convinced that an integrated 'anything' is in harmony with itself, from one's heart to the universe. Fragmentation and discord are inevitably self-betraying, by contrast. This is why it's essential to be really honest with oneself. Sounds basic, but it isn't, always. It can require a lot of focus and courage!

Thank you so much for sharing your response!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, hello - I so appreciate your visits and lovely comments. Thank you.


ExoticHippieQueen 5 years ago

Really beautiful, Nellieanna, and your arrangement of sections leading one to another was so creative and imaginative! Voted up and beautiful!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

EHQ - Thank you! I appreciate your good opinion and thank you for the votes! Hugs.


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Yeshuan 5 years ago from North Carolina

I love the layout!

If I seem to clutch,

Please know

I would clutch not

Butt only touch

And feel the glow

Of love to know

Of love that is unforced.

I need that kind of love

To live,

To grow.

This is my favorite part. True love is not clingy or forced. It is so true that we need that kind of love to live and grow. Just wonderful!


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

Nellieanna, Your words carry such light melodies yet so many meanings. I feel years of learning, so much knowledge of self and so many things I relate to. I find myself reading them over and over again to make sure I've captured each one and yet still in the re-reading find another thought flitting in my head to ponder on.

I have to agree with the others:

I leave my clues

Upon the pages,

Even silent ones.

And when I do not write,

Their absence

Is the clue.

That was also my very favorite. I could never have found those words and put them together with such a melody as you have.

I find a reading through one of your pages to be a delightful journey - not only beautiful in layout (pictures and images) but always a surprise and delight with the way you work with your words. Thank you again. Rated you up awesome and beautiful.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Yeshuan - thank you! It sometimes seems that people may think that if they don't hang on tight to love, it will escape, like a bird from a cage. Sadly - it is like a caged bird if that's the situation and, like that bird, it will probably want to escape first chance it gets. At the very least, it is smothered and choked by shackles. It is only full and real if it is free or self-regulated. And one can only believe it if it is free. Thank you for understanding! Having peeked at your site, though - I'm not surprised!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Erin, my dear friend - thank you. As I'm going through my notebooks and transcribing so many of my poems, I feel such an attachment and kinship with them. They served my purpose as my journal and diary for so many years. They're like a photo album with notations, though there were no pictures when written. But they bring back the exact feelings and vision of what was currently happening when written. And some days, there were dozens during the day, especially when I was struggling with some unresolved thing.

That one you mention about not writing - is so true, too. Either feelings are too intense to write at those times or so good, no words were needed - would be superfluous or inadequate. :-) I think that those of us who are given to words know the spacial meaning of silence all the more, don't you?


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Erin LeFey 5 years ago from Maryland

Yes, Silence is Golden, they say. I know some of my most active and intense moments are those when I can't find adequate words. Its only after, when we've had time for reflection - when we can dissect things into pieces that we find words. We do have the luxury though, when working through issues, luckily, to work through them using eloquent words. (although I'll edit many times before publishing!)

I have many journals as well, but I don't think that mine would weave a beautiful tapestry like yours! Keep doing what you do, its lovely, my friend. Brightest Blessings.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Erin. But - I write more mundane journals too. haha. No, when I was writing a lot of the poetry, my life was quite different and I had very little freedom of expression and greatly limited contacts. Silence was my frequent mode, while my poetry served as my confidante, friend, and therapist , where I almost codified my thoughts and feelings into the poetry so that it wasn't easily "found out" by someone whose mind worked otherwise. As it happened, it came to me almost exactly as you read it now. It became my ongoing writing style, though circumstances are quite different.


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Alladream74 5 years ago from Oakland, California

Beautifully written and presented


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you Alladream. I am pleased you came by and enjoyed it!


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

JaggedFrost is so humble, what a beautiful poet, amazing work indeed. Out of respect for her comment left to you.

My dear Nellieanna what more can this poet say that hasn't already been said before, your colorful palette of pure essence is simply to beautiful do describe. You not only leave me breathless, but fuzzy and warm all over.

I am led into another space in time every time I read your poetry. You are an impression on my soul and you soothe it so. Thank you for your beauty, hugs from me to you.


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Superb, all of them. What more can I say? You are the best!


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

My Dear Ken - Thank you. Your acclaim is greatly appreciated and felt deeply. I always wait for your comment! Hugs


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martie, love - thank you. I don't see enough of you, but when I do, it's quality!! Hugs, my dear.


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QudsiaP1 5 years ago

I leave my clues

Upon the pages,

Even silent ones.

And when I do not write,

Their absence

Is the clue.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Need I say more? Nellieanna, this is perfection at its best. I am surprised how I haven't found you any sooner. I love your writing style and the unique way in which you seem to present it here.


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

QudsiaP - Thank you! And I went browsing, now that I met you here, and found your poetry breathtaking, too! What a pleasure to meet you!


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QudsiaP1 5 years ago

It is indeed a pleasure to meet you too. :)


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

:-) !!


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

Good morning my sweet Nellieanna, just checking up on you, hope you have the wicked heat spell under control at your place, I was thinking of you and getting worried. Even though you have my comment to this beautiful hub, I just thought I would pop in to check up on you for an update. Hope your okay my sweet friend:0) I love your Essence's


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Ken - Thank you for such a caring, lovely, thoughtful message! Hug you!

Well, the heat is doing its own thing in spades, but so am I! :-) I have my methods, and they don't include spending my entire budget on electric bills, though it's becoming plenty more than I'd prefer!

But don't worry - I'm doing well and appreciate your concern. There is NO doubt that it is among the hottest, driest, LONGEST sieges in many a year. It's been hotter here than Tucson and we're about to break an all-time record for most days over 100 and also most over 105!! Some distinction! (ugh) And there is no break in sight for heat temperatures or arid conditions.

One thing about trying to keep as calm and cool as possible is that it's encouraging me sitting in the fan and transcribing my poetry and making hubs. I may be getting a little sniffle, in fact! ;->

I published a new hub last night. You might like it. It has some French lyrics in it! :-) Hugs, dear friend.


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saddlerider1 5 years ago

I am so pleased to hear that you are surviving that deadly heat, I know they warn us seniors to be very careful, stay in during the HOT periods and only go out in the evening when it supposedly cools down, yet I have found some evenings just as darn HOT as the day temps.

Watch yourself with the Fan, it can cause sniffles for sure and cause one to catch a cold, take it all in stride and doses:0) Yes I am reading from many hubbers throughout your country that the Heat and Humidity levels have been severe and are careful as well to avoid to much of it's intensity during the peek periods of the day.

We have had our share of heat and humidity up here as well and I certainly didn't enjoy it one bit, I don't mind the heat as much as I HATE the humidity and the sweating that comes with it. Thankfully I live in a very old house made of brick and stone built in 1903 by an architect who built it for his mistress who never lived in it. Eventually it was sold, I certainly would like to have between a fly on the wall back then to know the complete story behind this mistress.

This house is haunted and it might be her, I must read up on what became of the owner and his mistress. I sit on my couch in the family room and often I get a distinct smell of perfume whiffing by me, it hangs in the air for a few seconds and then disappears as strongly as it appeared.

My feline Sabrina sits up each time and looks about and stares for those seconds, that tells me she is seeing behind the thin vale. As you know I am a believer in spirits, I encountered one and wrote about her in my Hub,"Grveyard of Lost Souls" which also lead me on to write 4 more hubs about US and the possible connection.

My Kentucky Home, Somewhere in Time, and Note in a Bottle.... Oh well I am rambling here. I am happy to hear you are alright. Please keep in touch and I will most definitely visit your latest Hub. BTW being raised in Montreal a very French city, I will find the French exciting to read in your Hub. LOL


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Ken. Thank you. I am a health-nut, you know, so I take precautions and pay attention to my body's signals. When it tells me to think about what I'm doing, I do. I can't live to be a lively 100-year-old by being careless! :-)

Yes, humid heat is the worst kind. Even with as little humidity as we've had, it raises the 'heat index' enough that it adds several degrees to an already hot situation, especially with so little breeze. At the ranch, where it is plenty hot in the summer sun, there's always a good breeze and if one can find shade, it's comfortable. We had our technique for being in the breeze and out of the sun as it moved across the sky, so long as we weren't out in the pastures, where there is virtually no shade. I miss the fresh air!

What a fascinating story of your house! When we visited New England - in the White Mountains where we stayed at a B&B - we visited a "castle" built in the early 1900s on a peak. Every stick of lumber was hauled up this amazing mountain with primitive vehicles. There was even a pipe organ in the great room, and modern plumbing, installed back then! One of the stories was about a certain hatbox, which apparently ended the marriage of the builder when it was discovered to belong to his mistress. May have been an augmented story - but it made for some good speculation!

Sabrina. I love that name, from the Audrey Hepburn movie, as well as my middle granddaughter, whom I've never seen since she was a newborn. She now has several of her own. She's on FB and occasionally we talk. She's very pretty but rather messed up, I'm afraid.

So your Sabrina senses the ghost! wow. I hope you get to meet this person. Wonder which one it is? The whiff of fragrance suggests the mistress! :-) Do you know any history of what happened to the people who lived there?

I do know you were raised in Montreal, which is why I figured you know French. On that same trip to New England, back in the 70s, on a sunny but chilly October day, our hosts motored us meandering up through the lovely countryside full of surprising waterfalls and gorgeous autumn foliage, and we crossed over into Montreal, where we ate a bite before heading back to the B&B at Sugar Hill by nightfall. I remember being puzzled at the French menu, but I did find something to order. (blush)

There was such a mystical quality about the place, quaint and seemed to have its own ambience and aromas. One of my early ancestors who fled Switzerland settled in Quebec - and became a governor-general. It's in our family Descendent book (none too flatteringly because he assumed a French spelling of the family name). I've found bits and pieces online:

Haldimand, Sir Frederick

Haldimand's appointment lasted until 1786 but he was in the province only until 1784.

As governor of Québec, Haldimand concentrated on defending the province militarily and the status quo politically.

Haldimand, Sir Frederick, army officer, governor (b at Yverdon, Swit 11 Aug 1718; d there 5 June 1791).

The French lyrics in my hub are the tragic ones on my hub. The hub's story, though, is how I first heard the lyrics in English, which were not at all tragic, and my discovery so much later of the original message of the song. Again, a kind of mystical quality about it all.

I'll enjoy hearing your response to it.


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BenWritings 5 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

amazing AMAZING stuff

ALWAYS makes me think, a lot


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Nellieanna 5 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ben! What a pleasure to see you here! Thank you for that lovely comment! I always feel you're a kindred spirit! Hugs.


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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

You have a gift for saying so much with so little, which is why I think it belongs in a tangible book! You're poetry is a delightful distraction. Need I say more?

Now, I wish I could figure out how to do layouts on here the way you do. I wanted to post something exactly as I wrote it, but I could not get the software on HP to cooperate with me.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you for those kind words, Shan! :-)

Well - if I figured it out, so can you; believe me, I detest the limitations. But it's also fun to figure out how to work within them, using just what IS provided.

Trust me, everything I do is simply a matter of using those provided options & features and using spacing with my keyboard. My graphic additions such as dividing bars and related little graphics are made offline with Photoshop Elements (any such program will do the same) and uploaded as photos onto photo capsules placed where I want them. If one hasn't access to a graphic program, there are some interesting things in the capsule toolbar which can be adapted to make dividing bars, in fact. They're simply text capsules, but appear as more, - hearts and other somewhat graphic keyboard things.

It's just simple stuff worked out as I was doing. Nothing difficult - though requiring planning and much review to see how it looks when seen altogether. That's the creative part - - getting it together to harmonize and 'paint the picture' that matches the words as well as is possible, considering the restrictions. After all, HP was set up for text writing, not for artistic presentation! haha.

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