Each day I look at your picture: A Tribute to Mom

My mother who was only 18 years old. It was her senior year at Hinton High School.
My mother who was only 18 years old. It was her senior year at Hinton High School. | Source
Hope you can see me as a baby. Can you guess how old I really I am? My profile pic was taken a few years ago, how old does that make me?
Hope you can see me as a baby. Can you guess how old I really I am? My profile pic was taken a few years ago, how old does that make me? | Source
Mom was actually bald in the picture from all of the chemo and radiation. None of us really liked the wig; but if it made her feel good that is all that mattered.
Mom was actually bald in the picture from all of the chemo and radiation. None of us really liked the wig; but if it made her feel good that is all that mattered. | Source
Uncle Clyde was my favorite Uncle next to Uncle Tom he was the last one to pass in March 2011. This picture was taken 7 months before God called him home.  He was only 52 and I was blessed to be born on his birthday.
Uncle Clyde was my favorite Uncle next to Uncle Tom he was the last one to pass in March 2011. This picture was taken 7 months before God called him home. He was only 52 and I was blessed to be born on his birthday. | Source

Born April 22,1943 in Sioux City, Iowa mom was the fourth of fourteen siblings, that was born to Ruth and Henry. Raised on a farm the family worked hard to put food on the table and provide for their children. They would warm the tiny little one bedroom home with a wood burning stove to keep the family warm. As the family grew they were moved to the attic and mom would tell us that it was icy cold in the winter. The siblings would sleep side-by-side to keep warm and rush downstairs in the morning to keep themselves warm while they were getting ready for school. Grandma would boil water and the children would take baths in a large metal bucket. From oldest to youngest they would bathe quickly before the water turned cold.

Out of the fourteen siblings we have lost Aunt Katherine ( Ovarian cancer), Aunt Nina(Stomach cancer), Uncle Clyde ( Skin Cancer), and our mother Rita ( Breast cancer). Cancer runs high in our family and it appears that all of us at some point in our lives, could be diagnosed with the deadly disease. My sister was diagnosed in 2010 after mom passed away and is currently in remission.

Cancer does not care if you are young or old. It does not care if you have family or not, its a disease that is killing millions each year. If not caught early the odds are it will be deadly and the families will suffer the loss of a family member.

The two-year anniversary of mom passing away will be marked on August 21. In the past two-years there have been moments of joy and sorrow. Moments of realization that she is no longer with us and then sadness turns to anger when we can't talk everyday or her laughter is now a faded memory.

The process of grieving varies from person-to-person. While some move on within months, others can take years. Being a person who is still grieving, I realize now that losing a parent is a journey. A journey into finding out who you are, why you are here and where you are going.

We feel abandoned, alone and while others are celebrating the holidays with their parents or family members we can't wait for it to end.

The poem was written as a part of my healing. A memory that was given and is now etched in my mind. Stored away for another day or time. To the mom who wiped my tears, taught me how to blow my nose and told me to keep my dress below my knees. She was the mother who taught me my first prayer and panicked when I had a first boyfriend. She would show up in curlers when I missed curfew and would be there through my struggles as an adult and mother. Although mom was a disciplinary, when I grew older she became my best-friend.

Each day I look at your picture, I see a smile upon your face

It's been two-years, I miss your laughter and warm embrace.

I remember the last time that I touched you, and felt your breathe

upon my cheek.


Your eyes how they faded, your skin was gray and drawn,

we new Cancer would take you and then you would be gone.

The memories that I have of you, are deep within my heart, and

I knew when God took you it was going to break my heart.


They say times heals all broken hearts, but I've had a rough time

getting through and starting the day anew.

You told me when I asked you, " Why do you have to leave?" You said,

"you will be alright, but yet I still grieve".

I am still trying to understand, why God had to call you home.


The laughter, the talks, are now etched in my memory and I feel

so all alone. I know one day mom, I will see you and all will be just

fine.

For now I will try hard to put a smile upon my face, for I know Jesus

has you and gets your warm embrace.

As I write this poem with love from me to you, tears flow from eyes

because I really miss you.

I know however we are not far apart, my heart is still beating and

you gave me life from the start.

I love you mom.

My mother who was ravished by cancer before a week before she passed away. I understand it can be a little graphic; A hubber sent the flowers and there were tons of cards sent to her from writers' on HP. We still have them.
My mother who was ravished by cancer before a week before she passed away. I understand it can be a little graphic; A hubber sent the flowers and there were tons of cards sent to her from writers' on HP. We still have them. | Source

On August 21,2010 it will be two years since God called mom home. There are moments when realization hits me and all of us can't believe she is not with us. The tears I have cried used to be daily and now they come sporadically. Feeling angry, hurt, betrayed are all of the feelings we go through when we lose our mother's, especially when we believe they did not get enough time while here on Earth.

Cancer is a deadly disease. The estimated amount of lives lost through 2012 is 1,638,910 men and women will die through 2012. Of the 1,638,910,(848,170 will be men), (790,740 will be women). The Cancer's will come in all forms and effect all ages and races as reported by Seer. When we look at the statistics mom is only a small seed of the thousands of women who will lose their lives to this disease.

Mother's who have young children, older children and grand-children. We have to continue to fight this disease until there is a cure. When looking at the statistics the deaths are staggering, with all the money raised there has to be a cure.

If you have lost a mother, its the most heartbreaking experience a child can go through. We will never feel their touch, hear their laughter or feel their breath upon our cheek.

If your mother is fighting for her life, be supportive and cherish every moment you have with her. Some will survive and others will lose their lives; not because they are not fighting but the disease can move rapidly. Embrace every moment, cherish every second and build all of the precious memories while you can.

If you are grieving, it can take months or even years don't rush through and believe its abnormal for you to cry. There will be many who have cried years after their loss.

Write about your loved one, share pictures and moments, express your thoughts which is good for the healing process. Writing the poem above has enabled me to get through the pain. It may take months for me to read those words again; but they are a form of healing.


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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

AEvans.. I know just how you feel. It has been a year now that my mom has been gone. It has crushed and hurt me and like you said the tears came daily and not just everyonece in a while.. Like your mom my mom was so wonderful.. how hard life can be sometimes.. but just knowing she is with Jesus and that i will see he dowes comfort me.. Like you I write abotu ehr all the time.. It does helps so much.

God bless you my friend

great hub

debbie


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Deborah Brooks: So many of us have had such wonderful mom's. The memories are so amazing and the hardest part is not having them here. I to know that one day I will see mom again and that is something to look forward too. :)


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Lord De Cross 4 years ago

We feel your pain, and the bretayal that comes with no explanation to these early losses. Creating awareness and serve as a light of strong redemption can make us feel a little better. We have had these talks for months and time tries to heal what was left undone. We all react differently and we cannot stop time. We all wil depart some day... and as you said, hopefully we will share our parents' teachings and love the world. Money cannot change fate, and we need to gain strength through our personal spirituality. Thanks for being who you are AE. (((hugs))


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Lightshare 4 years ago

Great hub! U make me sad..


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CloudExplorer 4 years ago from New York City

My mother died of cancer back in November of 2006, and my grandad many years back as well, and so I know how it feels to be affected by such a tragic disease today. I'm sorry for your loss Julianna, it is a truly rough reality to deal with when our love ones return home, as you put it here in your hub, I know its been really tough for me.

They're all with the lord for sure, and I hope the positive message of healing that you left for folks towards end of your hub helps folks cope with it all, for me I've done all that you stated, and its worked wonders in my healing and grieving process as I write frequently about my mother as well & mostly by sharing her images on Facebook as I'm sure you've seen many times.

I can only hope for cancer to be cured some day, so no one could ever go through all the suffering that our people & families must endure when it strikes, and all the pain connected to it that we go through as witnesses and supportive family members.

I loved your poem, it was beautiful, and actually brought back memories of my mother as well, I think our mothers were very similar in ways for sure.

Beautiful tribute to your lovely mother Julianna, and thanks for having the strength to write it, as well as share this with us all, it makes a difference for sure.

Love always your budd Cloud Explorer & God Bless


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

lord de cross: We do gain strength through our own personal journey and spirituality. I know we have talked for months about it and time does try to heal; but it takes a long time for the pain to stop when you lose a mom. Time definitely has flown and I have become stronger since then.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Lightshare: Please don't be sad I am only commemorating my mother's 2 years and its a way for me to heal.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Cloud Explorer: I am so glad it brought back memories, beautiful memories and we can only hope one day they will find a cure. I have seen your mother's images and they are beautiful too. :)


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Angela Blair 4 years ago from Central Texas

Lovely and wonderful tribute, AEvans -- as you said, we all grieve differently -- but we all grieve. Peace be with you as you continue your journey. Best/Sis


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billybuc 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

My mother died of this disease in 2003....I am sorry for you loss, Julianne.....may you find comfort and peace. She sounds like a wonderful woman....only five years younger than me.

Peace and hugs to you,

bill


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marcoujor 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Dear Julianne,

So much we share in being a nurse, I lost Mom two years ago in May.

Ironically her maiden name was Hinton. Your sweet Momma graduated the year of my birth.

Your feelings are so relatable and you expressed the love you feel so beautifully. It does help us, I believe. With every word I write to and about Mom, I feel stronger because of her.

I would also love to congratulate you on your Hubbie award. You are an amazing woman. Voted UP and UABI. Hugs, Maria


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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

My mother passed away march 1st 2010 so I can relate to your beautiful tribute to your mom.


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Vladimir Uhri 4 years ago from HubPages, FB

Now I know where beauty nurse came from. Great family. Your mom is in my memory.


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remaniki 4 years ago from Chennai, India

Hi AEvans,

A loving tribute to a wonderful mother! I can understand how you feel about your mom's loss. It is indeed a loss that can never be dealt with or compensated for. May God give you all the strength to go through life with beautiful memories of your mother. God bless! Warm hugs, Rema.


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carter06 4 years ago from Cronulla NSW

Beautifully expressed story AE and therapeutic...I feel for you I really do, I also lost my mum to cancer, (many years ago now)and you never forget how terrible the disease is...take care...


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samsons1 4 years ago from Tennessee

What a beautiful tribute to your dear mom. Moms are special angels sent by God to help guide us through life. Your love and compassion are evident and symbolic of a lovely relationship. God promises that we and our loved ones will be re-united one day in a more beautiful place free of all cancer and disease. Voted up, useful, beautiful and shared.

blessings to you and yours...


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jainismus 4 years ago from Pune, India

I am so sorry to know about the death of your Mom. I know your feelings as my Mom died few years ago and that was the only day when I cried like a child. On other occasions of deaths of close ones, I was sad but not like after the death of my Mom.

Mother is the only person for whom we have special attachments and feelings.


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flashmakeit 4 years ago from usa

It breaks my heart to learn about the death of your mother. Cancer is a dreadful disease that can attack anyone and I hope someone finds a cure soon.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

billybuc: Each day is better , I believe its been hard because she was my best friend. Cancer is a horrible disease and pray for those who are going through it right now. (((Hugs))) back.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Maria, that is so interesting . I am sorry to also hear about your mom, she died right before mine. It is amazing that we right about our mother's and I believe that is a way to heal.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Curiad: So sorry to hear about your mom to and thank you for being able to relate to the tribute.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Vladimir: Thank you and so happy to hear she is in your memory along with your beautiful wife who also went to be with Jesus.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

remaniki: Thank you. Mom's are so precious and when we lose them we feel so all alone. God is making me stronger everyday and I am happy she was chosen as my mother.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

carter06: You don't forget how the disease ravishes someone's body, mind and soul. I wish I could hold her again, just one more time; but I know she is not suffering anymore. I am also saddened to hear about the loss of your mom too.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

samsons1: He surely has promised that hasn't he? I am looking forward to seeing my mom again one day. For now she is in my mind, heart and soul. Thank you for the blessings.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

jainismus: You are right about the bond with our mother's and I also cried like a 6-year old when my mother passed away. It's a very dull pain within my heart and it leaves a very empty hole. :( Sorry to also hear about your loss and losing a mom I do truly understand.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

flashmakeit: All of us hope for a cure and mother's are the heartbeats of each and everyone of us. Thank you for the condolences.


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always exploring 4 years ago from Southern Illinois

Beautiful tribute to your Mother. I lost my Mother in nineteen sixty eight. I still cry when i look at her picture. Time is a healing factor, but we only have one Mother and when she goes it leaves a void that lingers. I am sorry for your loss. You will see her again. I believe that..


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BlossomSB 4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

A lovely remembrance of your Mother. We may fly the nest and build our own lives as adults, but our love for our parents endures. You must miss her very much. It's so consoling to know that one day we will meet again. Bless you.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

always exploring: When I look at mom's picture I cry too. She sits on our cabinet in the living room. I miss her to pieces! I will see her again and you will see your mom too. :)


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

BlossomSB: Our love really does endure and it runs deeper then the raging rivers that flow so quickly. I miss her so much there are days, when I am heart sick. We will seem them again one day. :)


mours sshields 4 years ago from Elwood, Indiana

A great tribute to your mother! I can relate. My mother has been gone for a little over 15 years. The hardest death I ever went through! It's so hard to see them suffer, too. You never fully get over it, but it does get better, in time.

I lost my brother suddenly a few years ago, too.

All my parents are gone now, too.

However, I know I will one day see them all again, and this gives me great hope! I know they are all watching over me, too.

God bless you!

Marcia Ours


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Mours sshields : Now I know I will never completely get over it. I am sorry to hear about the loss of your brother and when all of our parents are gone really feel like orphans sometimes. We will see them again one day and I will try to live each day to its fullest.


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Genna East 4 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

What a beautiful tribute to a wonderful woman. I lost my mother to cancer as well years ago, and there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of her and miss her. Thank you for sharing these beautiful thoughts and words.


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Vladimir Uhri 4 years ago from HubPages, FB

AEvans, when we cry those living above, smile. When we know it, our tears are tears of joy. I like to splash them to the sky and on light I want to make rainbow around HIS throne. Vlad.

Just my thoughts.


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MsDora 4 years ago from The Caribbean

A beautiful poetic tribute to your lovely mother. Glad you could use writing to help you deal with your grief. Treasuring the memories also help.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Genna East: Thank you and losing our mom's is devastating! I know that feeling about thinking about her and missing her, memories always come rushing back. :) ((( Hugs))) back to you and sorry for your loss too. :(


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Vladimir: Oh that is such a beautiful thought and one I shall never forget. :)


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vespawoolf 4 years ago from Peru, South America

What a beautiful tribute to your mother. You're a wonderful writer and enjoyable to read. I'm so sorry about your loss and you're right about the grieving process. It's so individual. We lost my mother-in-law to cancer several years ago and a dear friend is battling cancer now. Thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts and feelings with us. : )


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

MsDora: The memories are so many and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't talk about her. Another way to heal; but there will always be an empty hole in my heart.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

vespawoolf: I will pray for your friend, its all about the fight and when they grow weary the continue to keep on going. Mom fought until the last 3 weeks, she was tired so tired. I am not a Hospice fan because although they make them comfortable I don't know if its always the best thing. I have some regrets but believe I should honestly talk to them about my feelings and I really hope I did the right thing by taking her there. :(


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vespawoolf 4 years ago from Peru, South America

Hospice also helped us with my mother-in-law when she was in her last weeks. I thought their support was useful, as we'd never dealt with terminal illness before, but I don't always agree with their methods. You did the right thing! You wanted your mother to be as comfortable as possible and that's what matters most. It's easy to look back and wonder what things would've been like if we'd taken another path, but in the end your intentions and love for your mother are what matters the most. : )


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

vespawoolf: Thank you so much for clarity and insight that has been something that I have been pondering for almost two-years that makes me cry. I did want her to be comfortable although I do not like some of their ways when it comes to how they handle end-of-life. I believe now I can have a little piece of mind. :)


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Sharyn's Slant 4 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

Hi Julianna,

This is one subject where I can honestly say I understand. To me, there is no greater loss than that of a mother. I can't believe my Mom's been gone since 11/8/05. Some days, it seems like just recently she was here. There are still times when I feel anger that she was taken from us so early. There are times I really need her and it hurts that we cannot speak.

This is a beautiful tribute not only to your mother, but to yourself. You have a great awareness of how writing helps the grieving process. Please do not ever let someone tell you that you should be feeling better because "oh, so much time has gone by." Everyone's grieving process is different and there is no right or wrong.

Just a thought, but if you'd ever like to chat about "hospice" - I would be more than happy to do that. My thoughts and feelings about it would be coming more from the point of view as a home health aide taking care of patients in hospice. I do have experience with hospice for my grandmother. In the case of my mother, it was sudden, unexpected (and it sucks).

Also, I wanted to say that my birthday is April 22. Very cool. Please take care of yourself. Sending hugs,

Sharyn


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vespawoolf 4 years ago from Peru, South America

I'm so glad I could help, even if only a little bit. This is such a difficult situation to deal with and yet I can clearly see your inner strength and faith shine through!


IntegrityYes 4 years ago

I definitely voted up. We certainly miss your mother. That is so powerful and moving.


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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. A terrific tribute to your mom. Just remember moms never go away they are there constantly watching over us from above and will love us forever until we meet again. Your mom was so beautiful. I lost my mom in 1996 at the age of 84 and I have missed her ever since but at the hardest of times I look toward the sky and I know she's there. With faith, the love of mom in our hearts and the Lord beside us we will make it through this life. God bless and hugs from Riga.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Sharyn: I would like to talk about Hospice because I am still having issues with my decisions for mom. Thank you for understanding and I find as the days grow closer to her death, I become more depressed. :( Glad to know you both share the same birthday. :)


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

vespa: I work hard on it everyday and some days are better than others. All of you also keep me going through the mist of the pain. :)


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Integrity Yes: She was amazing! I so miss her laughter, smile and presence.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Gypsy Rose Lee: That is a beautiful way to see it. Sometimes I look to the sky and smile. Yes we will meet again one day and they are looking down upon us. :)


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Dolores Monet 4 years ago from East Coast, United States

I am sorry for your loss. My own mother perished of the same cancer over 10 years ago. She was lucky enough to be one tough cookie and actually took a shower hours before her death. When my sister offered to help her, she said, "what do you think, I'm a baby?"

Being in another town was hard and when we realized that her time had come, a snow storm kept us from running to her bedside. The last time I saw my mother, 3 days before she died, we were laughing. I found a photograph of my mother as a baby just learning to walk - she had the same expression on her face as the last time I saw her. I keep that picture on display to remember the delightful person she throughout her life. Love never dies.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Dolores: Mom didn't hold a conversation the last week of her life; but she did eat an entire meal and smiled alot and tried to get out of bed. When she opened her eyes and said my name before Jesus called her home it was devastating for me. Love never does die and mom's pic sits in our living room and I see her everyday. It still hurts and it will be two years in 4 days. I am moody but I believe its because of the anniversary date coming up. Thank you for your condolences and I am also sorry to hear about your loss too.

Everyone on her as lost their mom that is commented so I know I am not alone and all of us miss our mom's tremendously.


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moonlake 4 years ago from America

So sad about your Mom cancer is a horrible thing. What a nice tribute to her. Sorry for the loss of your Mom.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

moonlake: Thank you. Missing her bunches but I know I can't bring her back to Earth; but I can have very fond memories of my mom for the rest of my life.


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Denise Handlon 4 years ago from North Carolina

Many blessings to you, AE. I understand and can relate. My mother passed on December 25th 2003 from lung cancer and that first Christmas following her death was devastating for me. I think of her often. My husband died of esophageal cancer 2005 and I write poems and pieces about experiencing that grief of missing him.

You are correct-grief is a journey and no one can say when or how, if ever, it will end. It is an individual's own work. Take care, be gentle with yourself during this time, and continue to reach out, write, and share.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Denise: I am sorry to hear of both of your losses. Bless you for sharing your thoughts with me and I know you also went on a journey. God will get me through it; but I will also be glad when the date passes. :( I also write for the examiner so that keeps me focused and now I have more writing jobs outside of HP all thanks to HP. :)


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one2recognize2 4 years ago from New York

Dear AEvans, I was deeply touched by this tribute and am sure she was smiling down on you as you wrote it. The poem was absolutely beautiful and I am so sorry for the loss of your mom. May God continue to bless you with the gifts bestowed upon you and may your memories of her continue to guide you throughout your most difficult moments. XOXO.


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

one2recognize2: I do have beautiful memories and thank you so much for your kind words. The words came as I wrote the words, those were words bestowed upon me. :)


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Jlbowden 4 years ago from Long Island, New York

AE:

My heart goes out to you and my sincerest sympathy. Illness and disease, especially cancer, is a friend of no one. Hopefully medical researchers find a cure for this horrible disease that claims the lives of many families, and causes them in turn much suffering in the way of grieving, year after countless year.

Your mom certainly sounds like a wonderful person and I can see a lot of her in you, by viewing your profile pic. And I can also tell by viewing it, that you also have special qualities as she did. God had a special place for her and that is why she was called back to him from the earth. There is a time and a reason behind every plan, our Grandmaster and creator has.

I know this is very hard on you and your immediately family and the grieving process can be long and burdensome, but know that someday you will meet up with her again. Until then, I am sure she will want you to be happy on earth doing what you do best and that is being kind and thoughtful to others and writing great articles like this one, which I not only thought was awesome, but also was very beautiful and voted up in addition.

I know that someday I will have to deal with the same pain that you and your immediate family are going through, because myself, being an only child, will most likely have more of a tough time when my mom is called on by God as well. She is one special woman like your mom was to you. And I will surely miss her daily when God calls her home as well. It is a tough ordeal to go through and deal with, but you have us your friends here within the hubpages community to help you get through even the toughest of times.

Also I couldn't help noticing what a cute baby you were in the picture and turned out to be a very beautiful woman indeed, just like that of your mom. And not great at guessing, but I would have to say that even though you look quite young, I am going to take a wild guess that you are about 42 years old. Let me know if I am not too far off base.

Remember your mom is still a very large part of you and also instilled deep in your heart,even though God had taken her before her time. and will always be with you, until you are both reunited once again.

Jlbowden


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Jlbowden: Thank you. so much for your thoughtful words. I know with you being an only child will be hard; but sometimes having siblings is also a lonesome trail. My sisters' and I have different opinions and talks about mom. I believe being an only child would be nice you can embrace cousins, friends and other family members who care.

My mom will always be a big part of my heart and my life; but she has given two of us the ability to become all that we will become. Yes, I will see her again one day and I am looking forward to that. :)


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Jlbowden 4 years ago from Long Island, New York

Hello Ae:

Yes-I certainly meant all of those comments and even more. I know it is still difficult for you, but eventually this like everything else we are burdened with, will also pass on. I try to think of what Jesus had reiterated in a verse in the Bible and that is and it goes something along these lines...."Put all of your burdens upon my shoulder, because I am mild mannered and understanding and my yolk is light despite the burdens I bare." Not sure if that is the exact wording for this scripture, but if you ever have heard of this scripture in the Holy Bible, you will recognize it right away. Also thank you for your thoughtful words in addition, in giving me feedback when the day comes when I too, must deal with the grieving process, when God decides it is time to take my own mom as well. Take care and stay strong in the faith-that is the most important thing in life!

Jl


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

Jlbowden: I will stay strong in my faith and through God I will definitely get through all of it. :)


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LazyAndAmbitious 4 years ago from Serbia

Beautiful hub. I am grateful that I still have my mom, but my grandma died 2 years ago and she was like my second mother. Still miss her and not being able to talk to her. We had a great time laughing the day before she died. The worst thing that can happen is to get in fight with someone and he dies short after. Once again, beautiful hub!


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AEvans 4 years ago from SomeWhere Out There Author

LazyAndAmbitious: Be grateful you have your mom its such a blessing. :) Sad when someone leaves this earth; but we will see them again one day, on the other side. :)

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