Eternal Pain

Memories, tears, pain & bitterness

Is all that you've left behind,

Leaving me in this eternal mess.


For those few moments spent with you,

I've to deal with this life times loneliness.

For believing in you & your sweet words,

I'm left with lingering doubts about love & my ownself.


Trusting you with my heart

Has proved me fatal.

I'm left with no emotions

And things I can never really tell.


Loving You sincerely

Has cost me more than my life,

You've left me with eternal scars that will never heal

And wounds that I can never hide.


I never thought those innocent eyes

Of yours would lie to me.

I should've known that mesmerizing smile

Would someday lead me astray.


I was in love with the angelic you

Who I thought existed.

I was in love with everything you did

And everyword you said.


I was in a state of trance where

Everything was so beautiful & perfect.

But your lies brought me back to reality

Leaving me completely blank & perplexed.


Though it was agonizing I let you go.

Because I thought I was better off without your lies.

I thought I would be better off without you...

But here I am sitting in the dark crying over the things

That could've been if and only if your lies were true.


I'm still here crying because of the fact

That I love you more than you would ever know

And I miss you more than I would ever show..

© Hajira Ehsan


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Twilight Lawns 5 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

This is so heartbreaking. I wish I could say to you that things will be better soon, but I think you know that that is not to be... not yet. What a deeply sad poem.


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kookoo88 5 years ago from Cripple Creek

Very dark yet very beautiful.


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

Things will be better someday Twilight but the saddest part is they'll never be the same.. Time is a potent medicine but its irreversible too, we can't turn back the time..

Thanks for ur kind words. I really do appreciate it :)


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

Thanks Kookoo :) Darkness kinds gives me a rush ...


Andy 5 years ago

OMG!! This is so heartbreakingly beautiful.. I can relate to the above situation really well..

Thanks for sharing


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

You have a beautiful heart my dear. It's such a world of confusion. Will we ever be reunited with innocence? God bless you dear one!


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

@Andy- Glad you liked it.. Thanks for reading and commenting.. I hope things get better for You someday..

@Micky- Thanks again. Your words are always so kind;they never fail to cheer me up..

{(Hugs)}


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What Is Q 5 years ago from Tennessee

This really is a beautiful and sad poem. My heart loves it. A very emotional piece. You're a good writer and I look forward to reading more of your work. :)


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

Thank u for reading this Q and for your kind words..

I appreciate ur feedback on this poem..

Have a nice day!


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Pollyannalana 5 years ago from US

Very good, an experience hard to find words for but you have.

Polly


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Freya Cesare 5 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

Emotion is not last forever. But when it flooding, write it down will make it little better. Then when you feeling better, than have bad memories only, you have works to love, enjoy and admire. Who knows will bring you a successful life later. With this kind of poem which is beautiful, it will be possible. Good luck! ^_^


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

@Polly - thanks for reading this poem.. An experience hard to find words for but far more difficult is to bear it..

Take care Dear one!

@ Freya- Thanks Freya for ur kind words, I really appreciate it... If i cud let go off the past, it would be a great deal than having a successful future..

{smiles}


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ROMANCER OF LIFE 5 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

Wow... this poem really is heart wrenching and deep. It's a beautiful expression of ones heart and emotions. Thank you for sharing your pain and journey with us.

Romancer


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ROMANCER OF LIFE 5 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

I'm sharing this on facebook. I know a lot of my friends will relate to it.

God bless!


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

@Romancer of life-- Thanks for enjoying this poem... Yes, this poem is really close to my heart and the scenario in here was something I was going through...

I'm honestly flattered that you liked it enough to thinking of sharing it with ur friends.. Thank u for all the support ;))

Hugs and blessings!!


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

It's just wrong for you to have so much pain. Close your eyes and remember this - you are not alone ...

Much love Hajira. I do love your work. Keep writing. Stay strong.


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

@Bbnix aka Will- Pain and sorrow are a part n parcel of life but I make sure to learn from them and value all those little things that lead to happiness and satisfaction..

Thank u so much for all the support.. U just made my day(or rather night) ;)

Blessings and smiles


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bbnix 5 years ago from Southern California

Its a beautiful day here in Southern California. Think of yourself as here with us in the warm sun and not a care in the world as often as you can.


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Cracknutcase 5 years ago from India,bangalore Author

@Will- Beautiful view..I can feel the Warmth of the sun from your words.. Thanks for everything ;)


Jeremy 5 years ago

Your words clearly depict the level of pain and hurt you are going through. I wish I could take your pain away and make everything ok, For you are a wonderful girl who deserves nothing but happiness..

Remember one thing-The person who breaks your heart even after being showered with abundance of love, is clearly not worth your tears and that beautiful heart...

Stay strong, Remember you are a "Princess of love"

-Jeremy

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