Evasion

Mysterious Woman
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Love is Found

3/11/13

I was not made to be fully understood, not by man or by woman. I do not fit in with the women of this world. I care nothing for what most deem as important.

Tho few ever really lose me, I was not created to be possessed or so it would seem. As it stands, I do not desire to be possessed. I do not pretend to know the future. My spirit calls your attention. It makes beauty shine thru a shell that does not fit societies view of beauty. I pour out love freely to those around me. It challenges your thoughts. Humanities limits cause you to doubt my intentions. Do I seek your friendship? Do I seek your passion? Do I want to use you? I must want something. This world only knows unconditional love without expectation when it is directed to children and in some cases even that fades with time. How can I really want to shower my affection and love to friends? I must want something more. There must be an agenda, a hidden desire. For how can I spend so much time, whether hours or days, with someone and not want more than what I have? It is difficult to understand.

My legacy is to love. I know the many levels of love and have been put on the path to experience every level, most of which do not involve intimacy. I do not belittle the word. I do not throw it around and scatter it carelessly like confetti. I don't even have to say it. It is felt like heat radiating from within me. It is seen in my actions. It scares some. The few that I would adopt as lovers may not have me for long. I am not a guarantee. Few can see me as I truly am. Few were designed to accept the lack of urgency and stress. Humanity is fueled and thrives off of dramatics. I was created differently. Its as if the elements were given a chance to take on a human form, temporarily. I pour into you without fear. I rain down and explore you. I don't fear limited time or hurt. I don't fear your judgement. I am completely free. I fade in and suddenly appear like a storm. I allow passion to light up the sky like lightning. I take all the time you are able to give. Time with me flows as naturally as a kite being pulled by the wind. I embrace you as you are. I dive into learning you. I seek to inspire without the futile human desire to change you. I am uninhibited. I bask in your company and let it warm me like I would in the sun. Attempt to forcibly tighten your grip around me and I will flow thru your fingers like water or wind. Lose sight of the present to worry about an uncertain future and I begin to fade. Limit yourself from me or deliberately fight against the natural flow and I will evaporate as quickly as the evidence of rain does on a sunny day. Allow doubt and fear to force distance and the wind will carry me away from you. There is no hurt and no dramatic end. Fade in, fade out. Appear and dissipate. No regret, no remorse, no awkwardness. A season, a chapter, a saga, an era. They begin and they end, naturally and peacefully and still a part that never fades. I have been the learning experience. I have been the one that got away. I have been the burning question. I have not been the destroyer of the heart. I have not been the biggest regret. I will never be on the long list of normal situations and sad outcomes.

No, be it by friend or by lover, I will never be fully understood nor do I need to be. People will stumble through my life and doubt and wonder. They will continue to bring me close and distance themselves. They will test and question. As always, I will delight in the fact that they never truly let go of me. I am the constant and that is a blessing. Perhaps that is the reason that I have no intention and no secret burning desire. The caring and affection given to me, tho on different levels is never taken from me. Can you imagine the amount of love that equates to? Can you fathom the endless supply. I have no need to find what I have in abundance. I am far more fortunate and blessed than the poor soul who only seeks the fleeting love that comes from relationships and lust. The gifts of love and loyalty bestowed upon me with out having asked for it is like a crown that I wear proudly. The satisfaction flows freely through me daily. I am amazed and full of endless gratitude. I am faithful to my own nature. I understand. It's thru connection that I live and thrive tho I may never again know the depths I once came close to knowing (to be seen clearly and accepted).

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writinglover 3 years ago from Lost...In Poetry

As usual, the passion you put into your hubs is outstanding. The emotion is almost tangible. Voted up beautiful! :)


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xstatic 3 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

Wow! This is passionate, but this is cool too, as is the entity you describe. All men want to know her, yet none can possess her, it reads like water or wind running through your fingers, as you write it. Beautiful!


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epigramman 3 years ago

Lovely comments by Sir Jim above and Writing lover who obviously prefers superior writing - and yes you are truly a cut above the rest or as I read this - a visionary writer creating a visionary manifesto.

To me it read like science fiction with a touch of Blade Runner and the mystery is so thick here it's like a fog which of course just adds to the beauty of your work here.

I love how you write and compose your words (as in all of your pieces) ...... it's partly poetry but reads like flash fiction or a short story .

Again you are exploiting my cinematic mind - I love 'less is more' in writing (my style most definitely) and I saw Ingmar Bergman's Persona which is all about less is more in filmmaking. Thank you for the honor of reading this exceptional piece of writing. You rock my world and I look up to you for inspiration too.

Currently listening to the Yardbirds, a groovy blues band from the 60's featuring Jeff Beck and enjoying a beer but this piece called Evasion has haunted me and yes it has evading my senses most profoundly.

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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Thank you for air you wonderful perspective. People who saw Arlene and I dance would say we were in "love", for want of a better word.


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Laurinzo Scott 3 years ago from Phoenix, Az.

What beautiful words, and the images that accompany those words, and what a good descriptive, as xstatic says like water running through the fingers

What a apt way that you Moms describe that person who is soooo elusive... I think I have met the same, and may have even been so years ago...


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Writinglover - Thank you so much for finding and reading my work. I really enjoy seeing you. I love that you take in the passions I store here.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Xstatic- I enjoy your visits to me. When I write, it pours out of me. It is very unplanned and unedited. I never know how it will fare with my male readers. Thank you so much for spending the time on my work. It is so appreciated.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Colin! Wow, I am honored by the amount and quality of words my work inspired in your comment. Superior?! It makes me blush and pull back with a smile. I love that I can cause pictures in your mind. It is an amazing compliment and I am immensely grateful.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hello my hatter friend. The word is often misused and misunderstood but there is no better word. Thank you for visiting me and commenting on my work. I do so appreciate and enjoy it.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Laurinzo - It is nice to see you again. Thank you for the beautiful comment. How interesting that you would wonder if you saw yourself in my words.


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton

I found it!!! wow Moms.. how do you do it? You've invented more ways of showing emotions than any other hubber here that Ive read.. and get ready for this.. you manage to maintain a greater output with a higher level of quality..yeah? LOL.. You say you'll never need to be understood by friend or lover.. just something about that phrase that makes your style different.. wanting, motivating yet here is the OXy-- Not wanting and not motivating .. sometimes I overestimate the fiction and read it like non-fiction..:)


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

So... You think I'm high quality... :) That is awesome on any level of interpretation, lol. Thank you!

Frank- you have read almost every meaningful work I have put here on hubs. It only makes sense that the bond that you have created over such a long time gives you the insight to see thru the secret. As far as the last line of your comment... you would be reading them correctly. Truth hidden in finction.


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton

yeah I enjoy undressing you.. I mean your truth ..undressing your truth


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hahaha, super smooth Frank. People should do what they enjoy.


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Frank Atanacio 3 years ago from Shelton

lol yeah... Say What?


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hahaha, you are fun Frank. Indulge in what you enjoy. That is all I said. ;)


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PHILLYDREAMER 3 years ago from Lodi, New Jersey

This is a very unique way of living. I admire it, but I don't think I could ever do it myself. When I love I burn with intensity brighter than the sun. People tend to keep their distance, others get burned, but once in a while you meet a person that can burn just as brightly as you and it creates some magical moments.


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Moms-Secret 3 years ago from Central Florida Author

Hey Philly. You and I are not that different than. We both pour out. I guess our differences lie in the aftermath. I do not believe in forever. I believe in purpose so when my purpose has been met, letting go is not so hard for me and I am not stuck in the memory after. I simply make the good worth the inevitable bad.

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