Everything or Nothing at All.......

And just what does it mean to put these
or any words to the paper ....what hunger does it free?
Will they ever speak to my starving soul
or put a restless mind at ease

I will never be the same again after
the baring of this soul
I'm growing tired of the highway
poor from paying this toll

In the cavern within my own mind
in the abyss beyond my need
Longing souls reach out for some unknown
comfort ....or to quell some unfaithful greed

In secret lairs the hearts stones roll
away ....yes ....but they only roll downhill
I have had it with imagined rewards
my heart has had its fill

It is all for nothing .......some say
it's just a need but the need is lost
But while I've already payed the toll
even the highways been lost?

No..... no more will the wounds bleed out
nor the tearing of tissue heal
Of a mind seen lurking around insanity
my hands have lost thier feel

What though..... did I have in mind in
feeling my way in the dark
If I cannot succeed in swimming
I shouldn't swim with a shark

Out of depression and into regression
this candle has only one end
I can't win the race if I cannot run it
so why do I even pretend




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saddlerider1 5 years ago

Absolutely one of the best pieces you've produced on here although there have been many, this my friend is one of if not your best to date.

"Out of depression and into regression this candle has only one end I can't win the race if I cannot run it so why do I even pretend"

Although I struggle with life, I have found in order to keep my sanity at all, I must write, I must lay to white my burdens, my pain, my lost past, my childhood abuse. My tortured soul cries out to me to unveil, strip bare to the bone and cast the sins laid upon my heart and soul to those who may benefit when laying their ear close to my quill, to listen intently with the hope they may just hear it to. Everything or nothing at all, I say to you let it go, let it out and it will unfold...Peace and blessings to you my brother...

I have to put this on my Poet's site on FB amongst so many fine poets like yourself... Vincent is so proud of your work, simply amazing, close to being a masterpiece in my humble opinion.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Vincent-Moore/166422...


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Hyphenbird 5 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

"I will never be the same again after the baring of this soul"

A writer never is, especially a poet. Amazingly we do continue to pay the toll and if that is paid with words like the ones that come from your talen, I will travel it forever just to catch a line.


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tlpoague 5 years ago from USA

Amazing! I have often used my writing to express my feelings. It has helped me through many a dark moment. This was a beautiful poem full of raw emotion. Amazing! is the word that comes to mind. Thank you for sharing this touching poem.


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Very well done. Thank you.


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Paradise7 5 years ago from Upstate New York

This poem is so very beautiful, I believe I want to share it with many of my family members via email. Is that ok with you? I know my sister will appreciate it the most; there are others in the family that will immediately connect with it on the same level I did.

We do look for love; we are sometimes disappointed. Maybe it is better not to look, just to let love find you. It might be in a very different form than what you expect. The comfort you may find could also be in a totally unexpected form. There is no life without rewards; we just need to recognize them, that's all. It isn't our heart's desire or our mind's imaginings that are fulfilled; it is the needs of our souls, should we just let the light in.


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Movie Master 5 years ago from United Kingdom

Writing is such a theraputic outlet, I wish I had started writing years ago through some dark times...

Thank you for sharing, beautiful.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

TPoague , Thank you and I'm sorry I havent "caught up" with you, I have meant to !.....:-}


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Cardisa 5 years ago from Jamaica

I always tell you Ahorseback that your words always evoke something in me I am yet to define, but it's always a good emotion.


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singlmomat52 5 years ago

It is always great to read your Hubs!! I haven't been on much but I like to see what you have written even if I don't comment all the time. I did write a new hub a while back but this new thing they have on here I guess I haven't figured out. Keep up the good work I know everyone enjoys it!! Thanks for sharing this new Hub!!


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MartieCoetser 5 years ago from South Africa

Ahorseback, I’m so glad I’ve followed the link to this poem, posted by Saddlerider in his new FB page for Vincent Moore. This is the first time I read one of your poems, and it really touched a string in my heart. Yes, sometimes we get angry enough to shout: ‘Everything or nothing’. But then, the next day or thereafter, we realize we can’t challenge Life. We have no choice but to accept the half eggs or the empty shells. https://www.facebook.com/pages/Vincent-Moore/16642...


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Saddlerider , I tend to avoid FB but thank you so much my friend ,you humble this country boy! Such as the talent of yours and so many others , I am but an beginner! And a stumbling one at that. I feel neither articulative enough nor deep enough in though to even begin to find closure in words for some trials in life. If I can even begin to have the followers and readers that you have I will then consider myself a poet. Again thank you.....:-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Paradise thank you dear , you humble this beginner, your comment alone could be a poem ,do you realize that!. I have always loved to recieve these comments . Perhaps it in itself is my reward.Thank you!.....:-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Movie master , True , True ,true, it can help in unbelievable ways ,as I too wish I could have begun much sooner. To the point of insanity itself! It could have helped tremendously!....Thank you for your sharing ways........:-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Cardisa , When I think of what you have freely shared , I feel that I have the best of friends. If I could just free one persons soul by my meager words , I would feel so humbled. You my friend are the best!....:-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Singlemom , I and many have missed your bright smile and kind words , really !. Thank you so , and we miss you!....:-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Martie Coster , Thank you so much , my !, the kindness I have found here in hubpages . Amazing , humbling , appreciated !....:-}


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Rosemay50 5 years ago from Hawkes Bay - NewZealand

Saddlerider led me here from Vincent's facebook page and I am so pleased he did so. I too find writing very therapeutic. If you’ll excuse the crude expression, it is a way of spewing up some of the venom that lies within. A great part of the healing process. It takes great courage to bare your soul.

In secret lairs the hearts stones roll

away ....yes ....but they only roll downhill

You portray your feelings magnificently in your writing. You are without a doubt a poet.

God bless and hugs


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Rosemay50 , Thank you so much and God bless that Saddlerider for being so caring and reenforcing of others.....:-} I agree about the venom needing escape.


daddysgirl 5 years ago

No..... no more will the wounds bleed out

nor the tearing of tissue heal

Of a mind seen lurking around insanity

my hands have lost thier feel

I love it dad! Love and hugs


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Fennelseed 5 years ago from Australia

Your words flow so eloquently, these words from the very depths of your soul. In your words I see myself, longing for an end to the longing. However, you are able to express this feeling, of not being able to ‘win the race’ in a way that I never could. My latest hub has a similar theme, but my colloquial style is far, far inferior. The feeling, however is the same.

"No..... no more will the wounds bleed out

nor the tearing of tissue heal

Of a mind seen lurking around insanity

my hands have lost thier feel"

I have so much admiration your talent and your amazing courage. Keep writing my dear friend as there is your release.


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Daddys Girl , is her daddys girl!Love you sweety!oxoxoxoxoxoxoxo:-}


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Fennelseed , I have had a lifetime of training for these thoughts , Someone once said "You spend way too much time in your head " and I did ! Now that my mind is lost though ........? .....lol Thank you as always!......you are so kind.


jami l. pereira 5 years ago

Brilliance in its own splendor , wonderful piece ! i loved it! voted up all the way ...of course:)


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ahorseback 5 years ago Author

Jami , There are times when the words just seem to "cost" too much , I know you understand. I tend to be an isolator and it sometimes comes back to bite me ..LOL

Oh well , what do we do but write on!....Thank you fo sharing , really.:-}

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