February 2, 1932

CXXXIX.

Illustration from Hemrichs' 1932 advertising calendar.  Grid from rocketcalendar.  Additional graphics by me.
Illustration from Hemrichs' 1932 advertising calendar. Grid from rocketcalendar. Additional graphics by me.
April, 1932
April, 1932 | Source
George gave me this birthday-of-the-week cup.  His birthday was Feb. 13, 1922. His weekday meant "Monday's child is fair of face."
George gave me this birthday-of-the-week cup. His birthday was Feb. 13, 1922. His weekday meant "Monday's child is fair of face." | Source

2-2-2013


That day

Of my beginning

Long ago

Has many anniversaries

Ever since!

I wince

How many

they be!

Oh, well.

I prefer it!


Each, - special and unique

In its own time.

Some, more memorable,

But all are mine

Unrelentingly.


I celebrate them all,

Anticipate this next, -

My eighty-first, -

As friend.

Who counts?


We never know

How many

There may be.

Essential that we

Make every moment

Count!


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



age 1-1/2 in Chicago for the 1933 World's Fair.
age 1-1/2 in Chicago for the 1933 World's Fair.

2-2-1972


If it should rain,

I would be dry

Under your umbrella.


On snowy nights,

Your warmth

Envelopes me.


Come summer heat,

Sweltering,

You'll refresh my brow.


Wind rattling my world

Is not unkind

For you are near.


Each scary, wary, weary thing

Is useful now,

As reminder of a year.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



NGM - February, 1932

Magazine's front cover
Magazine's front cover | Source
Magazine's back cover
Magazine's back cover

2-2-1973


Birthday Thoughts.


Alone.

I have an equal - me.

____

Plop.

It's Fertile Flux again.

____

Armadillos

Are not hard

Inside.

____

My heart is incognito.

____

A silver head

Can stop me dead;

Straining to see if

Underneath, it's you.

It never is.

_____

Clop.

I'll live.

_____

I am.

As is.

_____

Who are you, really?

And really - who am I?


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


Tilly The Toiler & Mac the clown paper dolls, circa 1932.
Tilly The Toiler & Mac the clown paper dolls, circa 1932. | Source

2-2-1974


Thoughts.


I've space sight

But closeup view

Is sometimes puzzling.

________

This is it

Perhaps?

________

If this vein runs dry.

Another must be tapped.

The flow continues

Somewhere.

________

When it happens here

I'll know it.

________

No search in progress

So finding

Seems unlikely.

________

You comfort me

Because you ARE.

________

The willow withers

Unmistakably, -

Profoundly forlorn -

Her drooping boughs.

________

My tears are dry

Too deep to cry.

________

Find this soul for me

Amongst shadows

Of the fall.

Restore again my life,

My all.

________

The magnitude

Of furthest galaxy

Depends not

Upon my eyes to see.

________

The earth,

A miracle

Containing sustenance for life

And letting love

Create itself.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


2-2-78








2.

My good old friend,

My poetry,

Help me tame

The mess;

Help to work it through

Again, and grow.


Not sublimation, this time.

Just illumination, this time.


For I am not the same

This time.

I know -

I am already whole.




Yes, 3 cents was first-class postage in 1932!  This stamp comemmorates the 1932 Olympics. Postcards were a penny.
Yes, 3 cents was first-class postage in 1932! This stamp comemmorates the 1932 Olympics. Postcards were a penny. | Source


1.

Green!

I love it!

Wallow in the green

Of everything!

Leafy,

Grassy,

Watery,

Froggy

Green!










3.

I'm tired of trying,

Knowing

I needn't.


If it is real,

I need not try.


But I'm impatient.

No way to reach you

But through thought.


Is there an answer?

I will know it

When it appears.


Please hurry -

And appear.

____© Nellieanna H. Hay



Celine - My Way

2-2-2013


My way

Is a quiet way,

A lilting song.


It's like a river

Firmly flowing

Underground.

.

It's always been

Truly found.

And will be

Till I'm gone.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


Advertising AT&T's new service!
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Corsets - circa, 1932,.  Another reason for a great depression?
Corsets - circa, 1932,. Another reason for a great depression? | Source

Yesterday When I Was Young-Shirley Bassey

at 13
at 13
at 17
at 17

Celine Dion & the Bee Gees - Immortality

composed by the Bee Gees

"So this is who I am,

And this is all I know,

And I must choose to live,

For all that I can give,

The spark that makes

The power grow . . .

. . . Immortality . . ."

2-2-2013



To live with few regrets

Is life's

Great gift.



To age with vivid joy

Is age's

Greatest lift.


. . . . .


But I like

A few loose ends,

Don’t you?



Source

Life - how beautiful!

And here am I

To live it!


______© Nellieanna H. Hay

(my family drove Fords, but conservative black sedans & trucks!)

Jazzy 1932 Ford Station Wagon.
Jazzy 1932 Ford Station Wagon. | Source

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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

What an exceptionally beautiful piece of writing, Nellieanna! Really remarkable. A true writer you are my friend.


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GusTheRedneck 3 years ago from USA

Nellieanna - I do not often bookmark items encountered on HubPages, but this wonderful article is an exception. Gotta show this one to my two daughters and their own products.

By the way - Happy Birthday. Enjoy it for the years you have now saved up.

Later this year it will be 82 for me. Time to grow up, I suppose. :-)

Loved the pix - the '32 Ford pickup like the one our scoutmaster used to run with - not much gasoline back then, but he'd haul us to Sunday night church service each week. Tillie The Toiler, earlier forgotten, and now back again as a reminder. Even a little round-key Royal typewriter. I remember my Dad beating on those round keys, one finger from each hand doing the keying. So - for those things and these words ("Ever since! I wince...") among all of the many other good ones, I thank you just a great big whole lot.

Gus :-)))


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lindalou1963 3 years ago from Texas

Lovely work by a lovely lady... happy birthday to you!


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xstatic 3 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

Welll... Happy Birthday to one of my favorite people! Thank you for sharing "you" down through the years in your wonderfully insightful poetry. The illustrations were priceless examples of times gone by as well. That headline on a National Geographic story "Tokyo Today" in 1932. If only they could have known what lay ahead. I suppose that is true of all of us, but then, we probably would not want to really know, at any time in life.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

You know, I've had this idea in my mind but just fuzzy. The timing got to me and it was becoming 'now or never' with that day coming up so soon. So I got into it- with no sleep, the way I used to love to create, and next thing I knew, I'd worked all night & it was 6:30 AM & of course, I couldn't abandon ship yet! Took most of today to fix the glitches and admit I'd done enough,plus tending to normal stuff like eating!

But it's seemed that every little thing reminded me of something else. Martie has encouraged me to start putting all my random memories which I sprinkle abundantly into comments into hubs about the years I've lived. I must confess that I only get excited about something specifically personal to me as it is spontaneous. So. . . .

I love history and geography & to read them, - but to write about them. I have to be right there IN it, which only seems to happen spontaneously, like this did - in some absurd hours of the day or night when I finally overcome the sense that I've nothing to say about it, though I really know I do & can't seem to stop it from pouring forth.

Tonight, with NO sleep since I woke up Sunday morning (& it is Monday evening & I've other stuff to do still, - - I'm just feeling really elated about this. I can picture others with memories like these! I love to share them! - Gus, thank you -YES!. Bllly- oh, yes ,and Jim, dear friend. We all have so many gems of remembrance. We like to capture those fleeting moments & the values which seem to be so fragile in today's world. We like all about today - but we hope those lasting things will find a ride with them.

At times the "Brave New World" seems excruciatingly bleak. I watched a video of a young woman crew-,member on the space shuttle, explaining the life style and duties as she floated around in the hard, unfriendly surfaces of that craft Of course, with no gravity - nothing was as sharp as it looked. But what really grabbed me was that she was so skinny, and her eyes so sunken, because extended weightlessness does that . They have to use special workout equipment to try to mimic normal activity. But too much activity will upset the solar panels. wow. They eat stuff dried or otherwise packaged. It's a brave new world. UH HUH. Somehow the life essence is missing. I want to say 'WHY?". Oh well.

Thanks for the birthday well wishes. I do need to get back to sleeping normally! :-)


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JayeWisdom 3 years ago from Deep South, USA

How generous (and so like you) that you give to us a splendor of gifts to celebrate your birthday!

You were a beautiful baby--already with an alert look in your eyes promising curiosity, who grew into a darling child, then a beautiful, wise and talented woman.

The Art Deco ads are marvelous, and the sight of paper dolls stirred some childhood memories for me. What a terrific hub altogether!

Dear Nellieanna...I'll wish you "Happy Birthday" a few days early and mark my calendar to wish again on the actual day. It is you who are the gift--to all who know and love you.

Best wishes...Jaye


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btrbell 3 years ago from Mesa, AZ

How great this is, full of your beautiful poetry, sprinkled with amazing pictures and loaded with beautiful music! Thank you, Nellieanna for this awesome birthday tribute. Voted it up and awesome and an early Happy Birthday to you!

Randi


Vincent Moore 3 years ago

Wow Nellieanna, this is an amazing accomplishement and to think all the hours you stayed up to put it all together. Happy Happy Birthday my sweet genius and brilliant poet. I am simply amazed by your overwhelming talent. Your craft that you laid out here brought back so many memories, grant you I was born in 48 yet most of these items were still around. Oh that Royal typewriter we had one in our flat and I use to as a boy tap away on its keys, opening and closing the case in amusement.

Cut outs, my sisters use to do them and wrap the flaps around their little barbies. National Geographic Magazine, I use to with the help of a flashlight read them under my bedcovers, along with comicsw of course and Mutiny on the Bounty, Huckleberry Finn, Beau Geste series and more. Corsets, my mother use to hang them in her closet and the odd time lay them on the bed, I remember once catching her out of the corner of my eye squeezing herself into one, she grinned and closed the bedroom door, I'm sure I must have flushed out cherry red on my cheeks.

And postage stamps were so cheap back then along with bubble gum and green leaf candies some of my favorites. Nellieanna I love those pictures of you, what a beauty you were and still are. My dear you are perfect and I hope I can make it to 81 I'm giving it a good try, so far no ailments, no medications and walking upright, exercising and eating mostly Vegan. Voted up and shared as always, Bravo my master poet and wordsmith.


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xstatic 3 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

So many great and well-desrved comments!


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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

Good to have such beauties back: You, your poetry and the magic memories this experience brought back.


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ALUR 3 years ago from USA

Great to see such an inspirational collection of poetry. Well said, displayed and articulated in simplicity and fluidity. Happy I found you...


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arb 3 years ago from oregon

Good morning dear, dear butterfly. The garden comes alive as though prepared in the dreams of one appointed to wake with words the sleepy life around us. If poetry were rain then I would turn the umbrella upside down and collect the words unto myself. I suspect that life will celebrate your birthday as it does everyday, as your waiting accomplice and co-conspirator. I pray the two of you a joyous day. I will smile at the end of such a day in quiet applause. Happy, joyous birthday, butterfly.


dreamseeker2 3 years ago

Oh Nellieanna, where would we be without your beautiful poems and sentiment. Your sharing and caring about life is so evident in your work. : ) Loved every part of this! To read this with my breakfast was what I needed this morning. Thank you for your wonderful ways and just for who you are. Voted up and awesome!! Happy Birthday, dear lady!


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AudreyHowitt 3 years ago from California

Beautiful hub Nellieanna. It is so interesting to see these reflections over time. Beautiful writing! And happy birthday!


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Isaac White 3 years ago from Welcome to my beautiful world, where magic is no longer a myth.

great group of poems.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Billy, thank you for such lovely compliments for me to cherish. Coming from a writer such as you makes it all the more valued!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Gus - your bookmarking my hub is high praise! Thank you. I'm honored that you would show it to your daughters and grands.

Oh- thank you for the well wishes. I enjoy each day of living. It's what keeps me fully alive. Perhaps I've saved some years by good health habits and view of life. But - whoever knows about future time? We have the day at hand. No matter how many more days or years may still be to come, unless I'm into and enjoying THIS one, they'd just be "more of the same-ole-same-ole" till they dwindled into oblivion. Far too many people just exist like that, sadly; - and it's not limited to senior citizens.

I see you're a person who LIVES your life! We're peers in the age classification & you're sparkling with LIFE. Grow up? - nawwww - I surely don't want to. haha! I'd bet neither do you! What on earth would we grow up TO nowadays? ;-) It's refreshing to know someone near my age who also enjoys joie de vivre.

Mementos of the times for the hub were hard to narrow down. But keeping them related to 1932 when I was an infant helped limit them, rather than bringing the entire decade into it, with things I with which I was more personally familiar. In those days, though, - there were few 'disposables' of anything, and they were built to last - so they were still around for awhle!

Do you happen to remember that Tilly the Toiler came back into precedence during WWII years, with women encouraged to fill jobs vacated by men off serving in the military?

I'm pleased that you recall these things. My parents had an old Underwood typewriter, (I think it was a No.5). He did business correspondence on it & I pecked away on it. But then it was on a portable Royal where I really learned to type. I should add that I really learned when I got a computer, - especially when I finally got online & things happened so fast in chatrooms that I had to speed it up & get more accurate to avoid errors (though I still make them!)


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Jaye, my dear, dear friend. What a beautiful comment & lovely compliments. wow.

I am pleased you received my hub as a birthday gift from me. It really was intended so. Maybe the only real gift anyone has is some of him/herself - in some way or another.

I've always liked Art Deco. Maxwell Parrish was one of my favorites - and George's; - his print from those actual days of Parrish's work hangs on a wall here in the den. Parrish was an artist who was 'commercial' - but what exquisite art! There are several other mementos of George's from the art deco era here, from his parents & uncle's things. My parents' had some items, too, though Mother was really into antiques, and at that time, - art deco was just 'modern stuff', nothing precious to her.

Paper dolls were 'big' in my youth. Sometimes we even made our own from the Sears catalog, using the models and then finding clothing illustrations which fit their stances, which wasn't too difficult. The Sears models struck only one of a handful of positions! Like 'row' houses. haha. But "real" paperdolls wre a treasure. My sister's husband was first cousins with Georgia Carroll, - singer, actress & wife of Kay Kyser, with whose band she sang. When I found a paper doll book with Georgia as one of the dolls - I was so excited. I bragged at school that she was my 'cousin-in-law' - to which I got only skeptical replies, such as "people's cousins-in-law aren't in paper dolls". haha.

Thank you for the Happy Birthday. I hesitated to publish this before the actual day - but I've always thought it wise to 'milk a birthday' - haha - & give folks time, as well. It will be obsolete after the actual day, after all! I relish all birthday wishes - any time!! George's b'day was the 13th so ours were usually formally celebrated together somewhere in-between.

Thank you from a grateful heart!


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kallini2010 3 years ago from Toronto, Canada

Dearest Nellieanna!

Happy Illuminated Birthday!

It's hard to say any better than you did! Any greener than you did, any wiser than you did.

Maybe the great gift of life is not only in living it, but in the ability and willingness to appreciate it,

for it is truly amazing

(save for a few total eclipses of hearts and minds!)

Hugs and love and all the best

on your Birthday!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Randi - thank you! I go back & enjoy the pictures & - especially - listening to the music myself. It was carefully chosen for this.

I graduated @ 16 from HIgh School in 1948! Could have graduated at mid-term, same year, when I was still 15. But my parents wisely wanted me to finish the full year & graduate with my class. Started college courses in summer school, taking music and art electives for fun before the regular fall semester. Lots of memories!

Hard to believe you and others of my grown-up friends were being born that same year, though some of my nieces & nephews were born even earlier and they're all grown now, too. My 'little punkin' seed' nieice, Carroll, now is the mother of daughters in their own maturity! My own children were born in 1955 & 1957 and have grownup children of their own, a couple of whom will soon be old enough to begin making their own families. It's amazing! I pinch myself often.

You're a dear to visit & leave me such beautiful comments! Hugs!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Vincent, my dear Poe-it! Thank you. I usually spread hours of preparation out in time more intelligently, getting sleep too; though this habit of going till it's done without sleep is one I've had to learn to control. I've always done this, with all my interests, it seems. Time's passage just isn't noticed when I'm into any of them. I'm surprised I've survived with so much sleep-deprivation! My only explanation is that I sleep really well when I do get high- quality-sleep! I confess to occasional cat-naps. My body decides those, the same way my other faculties decide to keep-at-it-till-done, I guess. I didn't catch any naps till I'd published this hub mid-afternoon after the all-nighter and then it was much later that I caught a good nap when I sat down to floss my teeth last evening. Then didn't really go to bed officially till nearly 4AM last night! Got up today @ 9:00. Seems like there are so few hours left in the day! haha. I know you understand that living alone means one does everything that's done for a family of one!

So you & Randi (above) were BOTH born the year I graduated high school! Now that's a time-line to which to fully relate! wow.

Reading under the covers with a flashlight was my habit too, from when I was still in my youth bed with the high side bars! What fun it was!

How funny about the corset episode seeing your Mom getting into one. My mother was a girt in the "Gay Nineties" of the 19th century and wore those really torturous straight-jacket boned corsets like Scarlett O'Hara was being laced into to achieve an 18-inch waist by Mammy for the 12-Oaks BBQ and ball! I tried to get into one - wow. It was awful, I had a naturally small waist at the time. So lucky we cab all be 'au natural' now! Only thing is,, I wish young women practisd better posture. Those undergarment required us to!

Yep - gum &candy were so cheap, though costs of things were in order with payment for things. The Great Depression was real. Even in the early 40s my folks bought a very nice brick house for $5000. They could have gone for a mansion at only $10000! Imagine! Things have changed!

In Del Rio during my childhood, there was no ice-cream wagon. People made their own with hand-crank ice-cream machines. But there was a Tamale Cart which made the rounds with freshly made, hot tamales for a penny each! All the kids begged for pennies to run & buy some & we usually got the money so everyone in the house could also enjoy them when we brought our newspaper-wrapped treasure back home. Tamales are made by wrapping in corn husks to be cooked. Then the Tamale Man wrapped the orders Spanish-language-newspaper to keep them hot. There was a special aroma & flavor which permeated. OH - I've never eaten any so yummy since.

Good for you! I also remind myself to walk, stand & sit upright. I'm convinced that will has much to do with it, & that habit creeps in to help cause people to become stooped as they age in many cases. Staying active, eating right - & - ahem - sleeping adequately - are also major choices! That's why I've been being a good girl about sleep - but - this time, I was so caught up in it and the calendar was yelling at me!

Thank you for such a lovely response, dear friend.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martin - I'm always so pleased to see you've visited. Thank you for the wonderful words! How good if this brought back some memories for you, too!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

ALUR - I popped over to 'meet' you on your own hubsite and saw some enticing hubs! Hope to get back and read more. I appreciate your perceptive words here in response to my hub! Many thanks!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Now my day's complete when you've visited my hub garden, Alan, where I await your responses to its blossoms. Nothing wrong with a 'sleepy world around us', though. :-) It 's a restful sort of 'goes-with' the time of year, though I observe from your own hubs that you don't let cold weather stop you! Today I'm eagerly awaiting some of that cold. It's been too warm - up into md-to-upper 70s for days & none too much cooler at nights. The front blowing through brings cooler temperatures for a bit. I had to close doors that were open to allow air through. But - Aha! The temperature have dropped from 8o to mid 50s accompanied by some boisterous storming & needed rain. There are tornado warnings a bit to the east. My poor japonica bushes are confused & covered with buds about to burst into bloom! Of course, it usually blooms in February, but not quite so early! Yet I've already picked a couple of early flowers.

Your umbrella is surely the yellow one I'm picturing you holding upside down in a lovely position when gathering poetry raindrops! I love that. I'm feeling my birthday being well celebrated, for sure. Your smile and words for it are special presents! Thank you And birthday hugs for you!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hi, my very dear Gwen! No danger of my not being here! But thank you for expressing that! I'm glad it enhanced your breakfast, not otherwise! ;-) I do care deeply about life, as you perceive. I'm assured of having a lovely birthday. Thank you for adding to it!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, Audrey. Reflecting over time seemed like an appropriate way to celebrate a birthday, one I am enjoying fully. Thank you for the well wishes and your very welcome visit.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, Isaac - Thank you! Glad you came by and enjoyed the poems!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Svetlana. How fine an observation. I think it is the ability to embrace and appreciate life which gives it its best opportunity to give of itself. Great thought and indeed, amazing - when one thinks about it. Sort of makes each individual a co-conspirator with LIFE, doesn't it? I'm thankful to be able to cooperate! :-) Thank you for an especially warming comment. Hugs.


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Pearldiver 3 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

NGM $3.50 per annum subscription rate! Wow... Immortality keeps excellent company and holds the door open for those worthy of writing greatness with humility and perfect illustrations... Happy Birthday sweet lady... keep your dance card open for you have many more to enjoy and to show so many, such magical steps! Beautiful words and historical journey Nellieanna.... take care ... PD xoxo


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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

What a lovely gift you have given us, Nellieanna, with this fascinating compilation of personal history, poetry, photos and miscellania from 1932 until present. As you pointed out, 'life is beautiful' ... and so are you, m'dear, so are you!

Happy ahead of time Birthday and many, many healthy more!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Rob, Isn't that subscription price unbelievable! Plus their color illustrations weee poor quality & in the minority to the majority of poor quality B/W ones. So maybe we do get what we pay for, with the gorgeous NGM now @ $15 per annum.

Thank you for the elegant complimentary words! Definitely - my dance card is current & open! My history is in 'current events' mode! It's a wondrous part of my plan for longevity, plus great good fun . :-)

Thank you, dear friend!card is current & open! My history is in 'current events' mode! It's a wondrous part of my plan for longevity, plus great good fun . :-)

Thank you, dear friend!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Dr.BJ - thank you for the joyous comments! Sometimes I must pinch myself, it's such a good life we have for the taking! Hugs.


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ImKarn23 3 years ago

You are truly an amazing, inspiring, incredible woman! EIGHTY-WHAT??

honestly, Nellie - from your attitude and your thoughts - i swear i thought you were maybe 65ish.(could be because you're beautiful inside AND out?)

Your love and respect for life and the world is a heart-warming, and - your poetry is simply gorgeous!

up and sharing forward..

up and sharing on..


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Fossillady 3 years ago from Saugatuck Michigan

Nellieanna, you put together such thoughtful hubs between the way you lay them out with touching imagery, music to touch our hearts and ears, and without a doubt, words that flow and reach inside. This is how I want it to be when I'm 81, to look back on my life with grace, pleasantry and the highest wisdom. Thank you for showing us some of your memories! P.S. The photos of you are so cute when you were just a little tike and then beautiful when you were 17! Kathi xo


Sunnie Day 3 years ago

Happy Birthday my sweet, lovely, talented, beautiful, gorgeous, thoughtful, loving, angelic, inspiring, incredible, amazing, sentimental, articulate, generous, exceptional friend, and if you do not believe me read all your comments once more because we are all in agreement.

Love and hugs,

Sunnie


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mckbirdbks 3 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Happy Birthday. I am in awe of the consistency in your life. Each link in the chain stronger than the last. You found your strength early and have been building ever since.


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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

Nellieanna, my dearest CyberMamma, how I wish I could give you a REAL hug on your birthday. On the other hand, virtual is good enough for us, not so? May you have the most wonderful birthday and all of the very best ahead. Good health, lots of energy and creative thoughts ... everything you desire in abundance.

This is a heart-touching hub with profound, touching poems and images.

Feel free to use the collage I've made of you for the Lollipop Award. It will fit perfectly in here as well. You were, and still are, a beautiful, sophisticated lady with the most beautiful spirit, heart and soul. I am so proud to be your daughter in CyberSpace.

I love you too much!

(((((hugs)))))

PS: And I am echoing Sunnie's comment.... Call it our song for you...


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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Happy, happy Birthday Nell. I hope all your wishes come true and many more to come. Loved those pictures. You were such an adorable little girl and a lovely young woman and your beauty just shines on. God bless and hugs. Passing this on.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Leslie! Wow - I'm really flattered! @ 63 to 65ish, I was building a cabin with George at the ranch - all by ourselves.

But calendars don't lie! Nor do witnesses. (Oops - no witnesses to the event still living, but I, myself!) I attest that I will be 81 tomorrow!

I'm rather proud of it, really. I mean, how many folks can claim the number, much less good health & full-speed-ahead LIFE with it? I wish there were more who could! My peer group keeps shrinking and my magic wand is not programmed for anyone else's longevity, it seems.

Much more than flattered, m'dear - I'm honored by your regard and respect! Thank you from a grateful heart!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Kathi - that pleases me to know that my stuff reaches inside and touches you.

It's a lovely byproduct of the years, perhaps. But it's not exclusive to them; - I read so many younger folks' words which simply mesmerize me. I figure it 'goes along with' one's life all THROUGH the years. Perhaps that lengthy life record to back it up 'cuts more ice' with others.

It's sad, though, when someone with so much to share loses the ability to do so because of health factors. Mere memory loss is a major limit which can hinder a person. My beloved George retained most all his faculties up till the end, but his progressiivly tenuous memory made it so difficult for him to link thoughts & keep the flow in sync. It affected both reading & expressing himself, even playing or singing music. He developed a habit of writing everything down that crossed his mind, almost. That loss then ushers in other limitations. But even at 86 when he died, he was still more interesting & involved in things than many much younger & healthier.

For your lovely compliments - thank you, gracious lady. Thank you for sharing my peeks into the past! There's much NOW to hold our attention and to challenge our initiative!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Sunnie - awgeewillikers. My goodness! What can I say to such generous, kind words! "I'm gonna bottle them up for frequent reference" might fit best, after a resounding, "THANK YOU!"

Birthday wishes such as these are certainly keepsakes! Hugs.

Mike - thank you for a most perceptive comment. But variations in links which don't show up forged the chain with fire. What's consistent is what I overheard my dad mentioning to my mother when I was about 3 or 4: "She's a very determined little girl!" At the time, I wasn't too sure it was a compliment! But it became a phrase which has resounded in my mind ever since like a mantra in the most trying of times & a power tool for building! :-)


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martie, dear heart! - - Oh, a real hug would be glorious - but, yes, - virtual hugs are very good, too. Thank you!! (hugging back).

My birthday promises to be wonderful & fully milked all month! tee hee. Good stuff afoot and a-mind. ;-D

Thank you for permission to use the delightful collage you made for some of my pictures! It would fit beautifully, especially here, you're right! I prefer prime focus be on Leslie on the Lollipop Award to her;- though I can think of an appropriate way to use my collage there, too, perhaps. Will see. . .

I'm proud to be YOUR mamma in CyberSpace. What a lovely song from you and Sunnie! Tra-la-la. . . How could my b'day NOT be fantabulous? I'm so blessed!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Rasma, my precious friend - thank you! My wishes are alive and going in each and every moment! Thanks for the encouragement! I appreciate your lovely comments! :-)


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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

Now 02-02-2013, 11:30am down here, and hear me sing -

Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday to you!

Happy birthday dear Nellieanna;

Happy birthday to you.....

:)

The collage look perfect and beautiful just where you've put it in here!

Have a lovely-lovely day, my gorgeous, CM.

PS: I only stalk people on their birthdays, and especially when I love them with all my heart :) :)


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, darling Martie! That's so special!! Birthday greetings from South Africa-coming right here to me in Texas. wow.

I placed the collage there, beside the poetry about living life with no regrets - - it was so fitting.


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JayeWisdom 3 years ago from Deep South, USA

I hope you had (and are still having) an absolutely glorious birthday today, Nellieanna. Here's a wish for an entire glorious year!

Jaye


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

You're so sweet, Jaye. I loved your card, too! It's been a delightful day, full of pleasant surprises and remembrances!


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marcoujor 3 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Happy Happy Birthday, dear Nellieanna!

May this year to come be filled with joy, peace and adventures. Love you and every word you write. Hugs, Maria


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, dear Maria. I'm looking forward to it! Love you too!


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travmaj 3 years ago from australia

May I wish you Happy Birthday - I just came across this wonderful hub. Your joy of life and living comes shining through. Wonderful memorabilia, beautiful words and so much I identify with. Now my mind is whirling - thank you so much,


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Travmaj! It does my heart good to read your comments, especially that your identify with some of my memories!


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Genna East 3 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Ahhhh. An Aquarius…I knew it! Many of our best poets share this sign. :-)

Seriously, though, I just love your poetic voice.

“But all are mine

Unrelentingly…”

Celebrating the birthday as a friend is the signature of someone who loves and appreciates life. This is the greatest gift, Nellieanna.

I can see the thoughtful muse and talented, inquiring mind in those bright and perceptive eyes in the photograph taken in 1932. Your poetry written in years past is so interesting in that it seems to meld in perfectly with your thoughts today, in retrospect, with each passing year. And the wonderful photos of the times and the days from the past intersect with that journey. What a marvelous life you have lived. :-) I lift my glass in toast to your birthday, dear and splendid poet…and many more.

Happy Birthday!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah, thank you, dear Genna! Aquarius is an interesting sign, for sure. Many of our presidents share it too! :-) I'm glad my leanings go to poetry rather than politics!

Yes, i t is a joy to share one's birthday. I also think that one's mother deserves more of the celebration ordinarily given to the birthday person! Anyway - I'm following my friend's (her birthday is the 3rd) plan - the entire month of February is our birthdays! I told her husband he was lucky it's a short month, because I believe the plan involves some sort of celebration every day of the month! So far, it's working our well! All the marvelous comments are celebration enough! Such dear friends!


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hawaiianodysseus 3 years ago from Southeast Washington state

Happy Belated Birthday, Nellieanna!

(or, in Hawaiian, Hauoli la hanau, Neleana!)

I am so honored and grateful to make your acquaintance. You are indeed an ageless 8th wonder. This hub was of significant and priceless value to me because, as a full-time eBay seller, one of the niches I specialize in is vintage print ads. I think it is more than just mere coincidence that I was drawn to this particular beautiful hub before any of your other fine selections.

I want to apologize for not making connection with you earlier. The eBay work has been very busy lately, and that is a good thing. Also, I am in the midst of Karen Hellier's fabulous Ten Hubs in Ten Days Challenge. I am so pitifully behind, and today is the last day...but I am stubborn and resilient and determined to give it my best effort.

Please, by all means, I welcome you to enjoy some of my hubs as time permits, and I will certainly do more of the same with your literary treasures.

In addition, I would be honored to be a follower and will be doing so in just a few seconds.

Blessings and aloha from the (now rainy) Pacific Northwest! See you 'round the corner at the Hubsville soda fountain!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Hawaiianodysseus, new friend! I am especially pleased with your visit - and my new Hawaiian birthday greeting! Thank you!

So you now know that I'm "vintage"! It's funny about things one had all one's life, they hardly seem vintage to me! Things my parents had saved from much earlier, though - those definitely qualify. I've been too generous with some of them, though, giving them to special people as special gifts.

I can imagine what a constant activity the eBay work is! As you say - a good thing for you! To also take on a hub-a-day - wow! I could do one a day, but only if my innards pushed me to do it spontaneously. The thing is, too - afterwards, the comments, which I try to answer very personally.

My parents started their married life in 1917 in the PNW. They lived in Seattle, but sold home medical books door-to-door (or farm to farm) all over the area, including into Canada. They were there a couple of years - - though it was 'way before my time! My eldest sister, Harriet, was born in Swedish Medical Center in Seattle, Sept..1918. The other 3 of us were born in Texas.

Oh, my - I just read the beautiful fan mail you left me! Thank you for such gracious words - and for following me, of course. You may be sure I'll read more of your work, especially when I need a boost and a 'shot in the arm'! Thank you!


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Deborah Brooks 3 years ago from Brownsville,TX

So sorry I missed your birthday I was in Alabama.. at an Authors expo.. You are such a beautiful lady,, I hope you had a wonderful birthday.. you are such a inspiration to me.. many blessings to you always..

shring

Debbie


lovedoctor926 3 years ago

When I read your work, I feel like I'm floating on a white, puffy cloud. Happy Birthday my dear friend. I was also in Alabama for Debbie's book signing event. I love your work and this collection of poetry is amazing!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Debbie - Sorry to be slow replying. Saturday turned out to be an even bigger day than I'd expected. I mentioned that I was going with my friend, Val, to a luncheon. But when I was stepping out the door and setting the alarm system with the remote device, it set off the alarm instead - - very loudly and uncontrollably. It took a lot of fiddling with the buttons on the box to finally turn it off! This is the 3rd instance since January it's happened. The result is that it's a 'panic alarm' requiring a police visit! Not only does it delay whatever mission I was about to embark upon, but it ends up with a $100 fine for false alarm, and that ignores that I've told them on the phone that it's not a real alarm - plus was not my own doing!

So after the cop came and left, I was quite flustered, which isn't my normal condition. I had put some good music on my cellphone, though - which was calming me down somewhat. haha. I picked up Val and we had our luncheon & I took her daughter home after she's stayed with her Dad so her mother could go.

When I got home I found my front door unlocked and slightly ajar! I inspected the house (with a knife & that overactive remote for the alarm in my hand) and found everything OK. I can only figure that when I slammed the door in anger when I left (not attempting again to set the alarm on it) - it must have jerked back out of closure, though I thought I turned the key. Or - did I? I'd gone back inside for a bottle of water to further calm me down, so maybe I didn't lock it again. Whew! Scary!

Anyway - - not to worry about missing the actual day of my birthday! I like to milk it all month anyway! In fact when I got home after all that, I had a glass of wine and a slice of my frozen birthday cake as a reward for surviving it all! haha.

So you see how ordinary I am! :-) I'm pleased if I'm an inspiration nevertheless! Thank you! You are too!


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Marlene - Oh, yes - I know you went to Alabama for Debbie's book signing and I much prefer you doing that! I thought it was a most kind, loving and generous gesture. I enjoyed reading about it, too.

Thank you so much for your praise of my poetry! I love the thought of the white, puffy cloud, though there is ample 'meat' in it, too. But, then, clouds have substance, as well; - often in the form of various significant forms of precipitation & even some electricity at times! Fits my Aquarian birth sign, depicting pouring of the water all around!


Vickiw 3 years ago

Hello Nellieanna, you are obviously well-loved by many Hubbers, and I am so admiring of your ability to enjoy them, and to write your absolutely beautiful poetry. You are inspirational to me, as a newcomer, and I hope to read many more of your Hubs. By the way, my best friend is a lovely lady 86 years old, and a marvellous artist and companion.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, Vickiw! I'm honored and pleased at your visit and kind comments! Newcomer you may be, but I perceive that you're already so well received! Thank you for sharing a little of yourself.

Actually, most of my life, I've been the youngster! haha. Three much older siblings & my beloved George was a decade my senior. I started school a couple of years early, so my peers have usually been older. Now a dear friend with whom I share outings and lengthy phone chats is a lovely 86. (But she's not into electronics! Never even went from LP records to tapes, much less CDs! Definitely no computers! Has a cell phone for safety but seldom remembers to bring it with her!)

But I'm really rather age-blind. Beyond all the gadgets, also - personality is what matters, isn't it? It's timeless!


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blondey 3 years ago

O m gosh, you were a beautiful baby! Beautiful photos, and love Celine's songs, and you present your life as such a beautiful flower~ you're a special flower of God~ very classy woman, I admire your positivity is an understandment. I am in awe of you.

So glad Deborah Brooks shared this of you.

God bless you- a little late- on your birthday. My mom is 80 now and she is so special. She looks great for her age, like you.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Blondey - thank you for such lovely comments and compliments! I'm glad Debbie shared with you, too! What a delightful surprise! I like to milk a birthday - so there's no such thing as late! :-)

I'm not surprised your mom looks great - she has a beautiful daughter! She must have had you later in life, as my mother did, me! Mother always looked vivacious and youthful, too.


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MrsBrownsParlour 3 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

Nellieanna, This is such a lovely autobiographical journey. The photos and stories are all so interesting and beautiful; it is intimate and yet connected to the surrounding timeline of your life. Very well-done.

"My heart is incognito."---love this! I think inside my head all the time that I'm out in the world incognito. :-D

The existential "Thoughts" is profound. My favorite verse is "The magnitude Of furthest galaxy Depends not Upon my eyes to see."...such inscrutable wisdom in a microcosmic reflection. It is a freeing death-of-self to realize that Life is just flowing through us anyway, and it prepares us for inevitable physical death because there is a spiritual existence all around that just allows us to observe it.

I love green---plant-green is the color of life to me! I also noticed your mention of Maxfield Parrish in a comment, and I love his work too; it's so lush and full of life.

This is all such a beautiful, lilting, river way of writing about life.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah, yes, Lurana. I'm also out in the world incognito. I feel both related to all others and totally alien at the same time, sometimes. I can believe it's not a unique feeling, though. As anyone looks around at other lives going on - mostly oblivious of himself or herself - it's almost inevitable to have a rather unattached feeling, at the same time one realizes that, probably, so do they!

I have only brushing knowledge of existentialism. A bit more of Zen. I suppose if one's own realizations gathered here and there & generated from one's experiences and exposures happen to coincide with such more formal thought-forms and processes, there's bound to be an echo. Does it matter much? If the awareness 'rings true' for one, making her way through life, it's already there? If it doesn't, it's already absent. Doesn't hurt to hear or read it, but doesn't have much effect one way or the other.

I like studying philosophies, but not to 'find' my own, really. Seeds and nourishment may have 'grown' my own, but when it grows in my soil, it's unique.

That one - 'the magnitude . . . depends not upon my eyes to see', is, I think, the basis of my personal faith. That I can't know and don't have to know in order for what IS to BE fills me with faith and confidence. From it has evolved: "There is no problem", - which essentially is my 'religion', if it can be so called. I know only that 'IT' doesn't depend on my defining or knowing it, or even ever to have dreamed of it. What is, IS. If it were fully discernible to me, with the preceptors given human beings, 'IT' would just be any old 'it', except for the fancy dressing that would be - inevitably, is - piled upon it to give it credibility & status as being beyond the trivial of here and now.

You've described this so beautifully: ". . . a freeing death-of-self to realize that Life is just flowing through us anyway, and it prepares us for inevitable physical death because there is a spiritual existence all around that just allows us to observe it.. . . . " Even to this, though, I must allow the freedom to be or not to be according to its own truth beyond my ken.

Somehow desperate - well, I'll call it as I see it - lack of faith seems to make many folks have to build 'beliefs'. Plots and characters made by people to still the fear and doubt, as if doing this will 'make it al right', as though it wouldn't be all right without them! Whatever it IS, being the only 'all right' there is. We may have glimpses of it, but we cannot know it, even partially.

Oh, well, enough of that. :-)

My dear George had & loved a vintage Maxwell Parrish print which he'd inherited. The one named "Contentment", painted in 1927 for an Edison Mazda Lamps calendar. It hangs here on my den wall. We also acquired a book of all Parrish's works, which is here on the coffee table. How I'd love to have almost every illustration from its 448 pages framed and out in the open to see! He was born in 1870 and died in 1966. A sort of DaVinci of his day and art forms, in my humble opinion. He did justice - and more - to all subjects he painted.

Thank you so much for your comments, dear Lurana. It's nice to share.


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MrsBrownsParlour 3 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

"That I can't know and don't have to know in order for what IS to BE fills me with faith and confidence."....I completely agree. That's my ineffable. It comforts me, in fact, that the universe is so big because I cannot be an Atlas with the world on my shoulders (as would be my worrying nature to imagine).


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Smiling. No, nor can I, though it wasn't so much feeling responsible to support it like Atlas that had me in straits. That would seem also to contradict what I was sensing, that it's ineffability really is beyond knowing ANYTHING about it, especially fully-formed suppositions claiming to be truth. Such conjecturing seems bound to simply switch from one presumption to another.

It was more realizing that I'd thought I needed to embrace answers presented to explain "IT" (or to devise my own) which instinctively I felt were surely window-dressing the truth, at best, and misleading attention away from the admission that it IS ineffable and doesn't require being explained OR fathomed, nor can it be by me or any other human being.

That led me to realize that the impetus to need & supply answers & to have grips on what is essentially ungrippable 'from here' is the opposite of faith and that faith is to not know and be OK with that. Doesn't say anything is NOT, just that it's unKNOWable on this mortal plane.


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DzyMsLizzy 3 years ago from Oakley, CA

What wonderful sentiments you have expressed; and their then/now juxtaposition with items of nostalgia...

I do remember those kinds of paper dolls, but I'm enough younger that mine were "just plain" representations, with no national significance assigned.

I was given a portable typewriter as a high school graduation gift, and used it for many, many years, until computers came along. I still used it even then...until it finally started having problems and no one was repairing them anymore, AND it got very hard to find ribbons for the thing....that's when I made the full-on transition to computers, but there are times, especially when writing poetry, that I miss the old manual machine: I loved playing with the spacing and arrangement of words on the page in ways that are just not possible with a word processor...or at least, not without great difficulty...

You may have a few years on me, but I waxed nostalgic, nonetheless. Voted up, awesome, interesting and shared.


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, MsLizzy! What a pleasure to see you here! Paper dolls were such fun. My friend and I made up life-stories for them, as well as for our other dolls, especially the "Storybook Dolls" we just loved. Those were rather small bisque dolls with beautiful cherub faces and soft 'real' hair. Their arms moved but their legs did not. Each one was a storybook character and they came in beautiful boxes, white with pretty polka-dots. http://www.nancyanndolls.com My nieces who were, of course, younger, had 'Madame Alexander" dolls instead.

I love your story of the portable typewriter. I wrote my letters and poetry by hand, though. I loved arranging the poetry lines with spacing that just 'happened' in the writing, the way I felt it. At first on Hubpages when I began, it was possible to get a little more variety to the lines, in fact. Then things changed and now there are only a couple of ways to achieve anything beyond a block look. This one has a couple of examples of that freedom of spacing:

http://hubpages.com/literature/Facets-Of-Verse

I suspect I may have some years on everyone on Hubpages - maybe everyone online! haha.

I so thank you for visiting and leaving such delightful comments!


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MickeySr 3 years ago from Hershey, Pa.

In very abrupt terms, I'm recognizing what I like so much in your poetry ~

. . . text-wise, you put together phrases that, apart from the context (your context) suggest so much in themselves . . . they are song title-like in that that prompt you (your readers) to all manner of possible emotions and/or tales ~

"Under your umbrella"

and

"The flow continues

Somewhere"

. . . and idea-wise, there is so much to pause and consider, to reflect on and examine 'self' regarding ~

"I like

A few loose ends"

and

"My poetry,

Help me tame

The mess"


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah, thank you, Mickey. Such in-depth response. It's gratifying to be perceived.

In a way, I wish I could say that I carefully planned them to do accomplish all that, though I realize they somehow do. But the fact is, I wrote so much of my poetry with no thought of how or if it would resonate with anyone else, not even necessarily with me. If it had any conscious 'purpose' at all, it was to be a kind of journal of my inner life which I could refer to to make sure that I was alive and well during a difficult time of my life when holding on to it was threatened). It was my proof, plus it was relatively 'safe'.

I literally reread it constantly to be sure. It really did 'help me tame the mess' - I wasn't the mess, but I was immersed in it, so it helped keep me from becoming an integral part of it!! :-)

Words are such magic. One has thoughts that are real and contain truth, but perhaps they don't really become clarified to oneself until verbalized. That's what my poetry did for me. So perhaps it helps verbalize and clarify - or just remind - other folks of their own thoughts and experiences - which may help keep tabs on their own core.

I am incapable of writing it just for that purpose, though. I wonder if anyone can, except by simply 'living' their poetry - or prose - themselves. Even writing a purely factual article contains the expression of the writer; but poetry has the advantage of not needing to worry about 'facts'; just to express truths.

I appreciate concise, clear lines for that very reason. If explanation is needed within a poem - it's more prose masquerading! hehe. But then, that's just my view and style. There is writing that seems to marry prose and poetry. Maybe it's that song-title characteristic in them which you mention. Good point. Song titles do simply suggest the whole story, enough to stimulate & ponder one's own and to whet the appetite to hear more of the song's story.

I spent hours this evening texting with my 16-hr-old great-granddaughter who can't wait to be 18 so she can be "free". haha. She's very bright and responsible, but all she could think was that I wasn't in her shoes, so just couldn't know how it was. :-) Was I ever that young? haha!Yup!


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Michael-Milec 3 years ago

Hello Nellieanna. Astounding piece of poetry solemnizing two thirds plus one year of journey enjoying life.

Voting awesome and beautiful.

Congratulations wishing you blessings and prosperity uninterruptedly..

.( By well orchestrated incident, came to know just few days ago.)

Please, by your permission let me relate to your words left on billybuc's commenting space directed to M-Milec's impediment among Hub-writers. Not trusting my feelings seems to me after all attempts to " fit in", it might not be my place to belong. Considering myself as a toddler in this type of writing, getting in after a quarter of century giving up writing for good , a friend and brother, insisted on my coming back to" you have something to say". A year ago , when my contribution started I've found favor with many exceptionally kind human beings , excellent writers, allowing my presence while helping my growth in countless areas of my deficiency . My past rejection and humiliation among that time peers, have by rejection what I was spending for, has destroyed my self confidence without any abjective reason or my contribution to it. ( When above everidge is eliminated, the rest remained is equal.)

[ forgive , me please, delete after reading if you want, I just thought you deserve to know. ]


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Michael-Milec. Thank you so much for visiting my birthday hub and leaving such lovely comments about it. I appreciate your wishing me blessings and prosperity. Each day brings its own, doesn't it? Won't be all that long before I'll be celebrating m 82nd! :-)

I cannot tell anyone what to do, but I am saddened that your experience has damaged your confidence to write what you know, from your own heart in your own way. That's really all any of us can do and what we do. If I may share my own experience, until I joined Hubpages, I did almost all my writing in the utmost privacy. I wasn't writing to be read, but simply to express myself and have a way to review myself. I had very little criticism because so few people saw what I had written, but on the whole, my efforts in other creative areas were ignored, taken for granted or - if I dared to suggest sharing them with a wider audience, they were considered unworthy. Since I wasn't very interested in 'performing' anyway, I just kept doing what I did within my limited little world. When I did join Hubpages, at the urging of a writer-friend, I had no intention of even writing hubs and absolutely no interest in EVER sharing my lifetime of poetry writing. Kindness encouraged me, plus I discovered the value to myself in simply organizing hubs and presenting them, no matter what anyone might say or not say. You see, writers always must write, first and foremost, for our own selves. We cannot base our confidence on others - either the good or the bad receptions! Public favor is always fickle, even if you're at the top of your profession! It's like the tides - no more, no less. We may be popular one day and forgotten or criticized the next. We DO what we DO because we ARE who we ARE.

Anyway - I will look forward to your giving it another try, IF you wish to, but not because of others' opinions, including mine!

There is no way I'd delete your lovely comment!! Thank you for bothering to let me know your feelings. I respect them.

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