Feelings: Hopeful

I'm writing this because my best friend is actively trying to kill himself. Let me ask you a hypothetical question. If you had a solution, a tool, an answer that could potentially save someones life. Would you not try to use that to help them. To save that persons life?

What am I supposed to do? How can you put me in this position?
I can barely take responsibility for myself, yet you do this to me.
If I didn't care I wouldn't bother, if I didn't treasure life, I'd let you die.
You want help, we all want help.

Sadness, loneliness, shameless apathy.
Depression, suppression, voiceless impurity.
You want to take your own life, then by all means do so.
You want to end your pain and suffering? Well get in line.

You're weak, insecure, absurd. You have shoulders, you have ears.
Use them.
The ups and downs we go through are unfair and unjust.
Find the cause, find the solution. It's rather simple.

If you had the ability to save a friend and didn't. That's betrayal.
I value you too much.
I am not a betrayer. I will do everything in my power to help.
You just have to let me.
You just have to let me.

You just have to take a shower and shave.
I shouldn't have to hold your hand but I will if I must.
There are a lot of things I shouldn't do but I don't care
I don't care about being liked, or admired.
I have to do this.
You can't live with yourself?
I couldn't live with myself.
Something can be done about it.

I am expressing myself as your deepest, most loyal friend.

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Jennifer Orcutt 4 years ago from USA

I am so sorry to hear about your friend. A few years back someone I knew took their life, and it's definitely a sad situation that leaves you with the unanswered question: "why?" The fact that you are there for your friend, shows loyalty on your part, as well as patience and endurance. Hang in there! I hope your friend does too! And keep writing! It is through poetry such as this, where others can read and relate to your circumstances!

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