Fighting the Muse

A Greek Muse Reading
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Concentration is a fickle muse. Drifting in and out of the sun's rays.

The pressure of physical distractions pulls apart the strings of concentration. Pain filtering from joint to joint, nerve to nerve. Cracking joints an unusual, daily, auditory distraction.

Forcing the threads together, I call the muse back to me. Fighting through the pain steadily calling the muse away from me. Attempting to weave words together to form importance, struggling to focus on the theme of my writing.

Failure.

The muse runs away. Concentration blows out the window. My hand shakes as I lose my grip. The pain is fierce in its conquest. Tears flood my eyes, threatening to consume the last of my strength.

Defeat.

I curl into a ball, attempting to shield myself from the onslaught. Futile in my efforts. My own body is attacking me, destroying my passion and flow. Trapped inside my body, I want to escape. To have the pain end. To no longer be limited in my activities. To be able to sit without having my hips burn with pain. To be able to write without my elbows feeling like they are going to fall off. To end the constant aches of my body's joints, spreading now to other bones and muscles. Just stop it all.

Concentration is a fickle muse. The pain secedes for now. The muse comes back as the sun's rays fade. I pick up my pen and fight through the lingering pain. A strange source of inspiration. A source I do not want.

Free my body.

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shea duane 5 years ago from new jersey

interesting hub


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fancifulashley 5 years ago Author

Thank you, I think.


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Cutters 5 years ago from South Carolina

wow not bad! I do not know what muse is, I have to look it up but overall I liked it. Good job!


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snakeslane 5 years ago from Canada

To carry on and write in the grips of pain, a truly awesome accomplishment, thank you so much for sharing this fancifulashley, I wish you success in connecting with your muse,


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fancifulashley 5 years ago Author

Cutters-A muse is from Greek mythology. It is an entity, usually a woman, that lends inspiration to artists. You can see at the beginning of the Odyssey that Homer consults the muse for help in writing the story.

Snakeslane-Thank you very much! Writing helps instead of just sitting there in class.


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jeremiahjpwalton 5 years ago from New England

well written hub. good post


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cdub77 5 years ago from Portland Or

You're very raw about the pain you struggle with and how it keeps you from fulfillment here. I'd like to see you take even more chances by being more direct about that pain through stark images that are as uncomfortable for us as readers as the pain is for you, but that's not easy or perhaps even what you'd want to do. However, I think that becoming even more vulnerable in your writing will make it more beautiful! Keep it up!


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fancifulashley 5 years ago Author

jeremiah: Thank you.

cdub: Thank you for the advice.

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