First love never leaves

A far away place would be so nice right now.  I see the sunshine in 
an envelope engulfing the day in a torrent of golden rays.
Fantasy is not enough to turn back the feelings.  I have butterflies 
in my stomach. I remember how it started.  We had a little bet.  The 
wager was a kiss if I win and and a kiss if I lose. It was so nice and 
I waited for the day to settle the bet which was a week away. It was so 
surreal.  I could not believe that it was actually going to happen.  
I would go to bed at night for a week and think of us making out and 
standing on the deck and daring the silver moon to blush.  

I bought a bottle of wine as the day had come.  I really didn't know 
what was good wine from bad but I tried to look and just think what she 
would like.  I very shyly presented the bottle to her and she said, “I 
don't want wine now I want your lips.”  I had never kissed much before 
and I did not know what to do with my tongue but skill was not necessary 
as romance pulled me into its fold.  We kissed for hours in a tight embrace 
and ended up falling asleep on the couch holding each other.

Often we sat in the student union building and would meet each other 
between classes.  We would stare at people as they walked by and make 
comments and just observe.  I could not help it but her eyes would draw 
mine so close.  I could feel my throat dry.  I thought her eyes were 
magical.

I remember when we went home for Christmas break.  I got back a day 
earlier and drove to the airport to pick her up.  She liked daisies but 
they were out of season so I cut some out of several old National Geographic 
magazines and made her a card all covered with pasted flowers.  Inside 
I wrote, 

I miss you.
Life is a dream.
As the eagle soars
my heart does seem....

Lonely when you are gone. 

I love you.

I felt a little sheepish and it was also my first try at poetry.  She 
looked at the card and I could sense something as she handed it back.  A 
feeling came electrically over my whole body.  A tear came out of my wounded 
eyes and hit the middle of card and fell down the crease.  She said, “I met 
someone else” She had tears in her eyes.  She said “We will always be friends 
because you are my first love and you will always be in my heart.”  

She would be at our place on Friday to pick up her stuff.

So fantasy is not painted on the wall.  I need to get out of this place.

I left a note and it read,

You left your love at the front door
but I will leave it open so you can get your clothes.
I don't ever want to see you again.

I could not hold back the tears because it was so final.  I felt so sad.
I went and sat down at the big table at the student union building by myself. 
 I stared off into the distance.  I was there for hours and in a table far 
away I saw her come in and with her new love.  I had a sickly feeling in my 
stomach and I kind of wondered what I did.  They seemed so lively and happy. 
 A tear came out of the side of my eye and I wiped it.

Then I looked up and there is a beautiful woman standing before me.  She looked 
at me and said I have an extra cup of coffee.  Do you like coffee?  I remember 
her saying that her name is Jenny.  To this day, I have never asked her why 
she had an extra cup of coffee with her.  It didn't matter.  Jenny was my first 
love and is still my only love.   A fantasy has a way to set the mind in motion.

….......But reality warms the heart on a cold winter day.




Comments 15 comments

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QudsiaP1 5 years ago

Such a sweet event.


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cookibuq 5 years ago from Ireland / Hong Kong

Very touching...voted up and beautiful :)


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always exploring 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

Very beautiful!

Cheers


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Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

Thanks for sharing these beautiful and touching poem.

I am always a sucker for a happy ending !!!

Take care Ben.


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Ben Evans 5 years ago Author

QudsiaP1

Thank you very much for reading and stopping by.

Cheers.


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Ben Evans 5 years ago Author

cookiebuq,

I really apreciate it and am very glad that you stoped by.

Cheers


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Ben Evans 5 years ago Author

Always exploring. It is nice to have a good ending. Thank you.

Cheers


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Ben Evans 5 years ago Author

Eiddwen,

It is nice to have something turn out happy. It often does if we look for it.

Thank you so much for the good words.

Cheers


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know one 5 years ago from Australia

This is a very bittersweet piece of writing. I had to read it a few times, and maybe I don't quite get it, but I think I do. Complex and interesting, to me. :-)


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Ben Evans 5 years ago Author

Know one

It is bittersweet and I think you are probably getting it. It is a story with a twist into a good ending. I appreciate it that you read it.

Cheers


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sofs 5 years ago

Beautiful as life itself.. a very compelling story!

I do have a suggestion though can you edit it into a readable print please, something seems to have gone wrong with the font! :)


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Ben Evans 5 years ago Author

Thank you very much for reading. I am going to see what I can do about the font and edit it. I appreciate the heads up.

Cheers


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QudsiaP1 5 years ago

You can fix the font by going into "EDIT", there click on the text capsule edit. Once it opens, just select all the text, now look up where all the fonting characters are like "B" "I" "U" "abc", your current format is either preformatted or Heading 4.

Simply change your fonting to "format". I am sure that will solve the problem.

This is to wish you with all the greetings for this season and every other season.

Whatever the faith, religion or belief, united we stand as human beings celebrating each and every happy occasion that may come along our way.

*Merry Christmas* & a *Happy New Year*!!


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Truckstop Sally 5 years ago

Heartbreaks anytime -- including college are hard. She had me at: "I don't want wine now I want your lips.”

Glad you found your true love . . . they last a lifetime!


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amalee 5 years ago from Birmingham, AL

I love this.

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