For That I'm Sorry - Poem

For That I’m Sorry

What I wish is
that I wouldn’t just
barely remember
The times back when 
your soul used 
to breathe
And how I wish 
you’d have died 
in December
In the cold 
seems a more fitting time 
to grieve
But instead 
on that day 
the sun was shining brightly
against my favorite color 
of blue in the sky
And as I tried 
to put my running shoes on
You found it a good time
to die
Now I have to live 
with the memory
All the details 
of my very worst day
And not many words 
exchanged between us
When there was so much 
we had to say
It’s been a hard time
Been a really hard time 
for me
And the only way 
not to make it any harder
Was to purge you 
from my memory
For that, I’m sorry.

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bballbeadle 6 years ago

I know what your poem refers to, but as it is written people can get many different interpretations from it. Yet, when all is said and done it is about loss, a grievous, life-changing loss. And that kind of loss is what binds the whole world together, because none of us will escape it, no matter how privileged we are. It is what makes us human.

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kaltopsyd 6 years ago from Trinidad originally, but now in the USA

Oh what a sad poem but so beautifully written! That's the best I can say.

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JBeadle 6 years ago from Midwest Author

It is sad... about my dad who died when I was 15. A guy who in many ways was a stranger to me but with time I realized he was a lot more there than I'd given him credit for. As a self-protection I guess I blocked out some of the good memories and this was an apology to him for doing that.

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kaltopsyd 6 years ago from Trinidad originally, but now in the USA

Oh, I understand. I'm sorry. This is a very good way to pour your feeling out though,

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AmyTaylor 5 years ago

Awesome way with words. Although it hurts to remember everyday this pain, your words are comfort to those who have lost someone so tradgically...I am so sorry for your loss because I do know how you feel.

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JBeadle 5 years ago from Midwest Author

Thanks for the comments Amy. Sorry for your loss as well. The holidays can be rough without the ones we love but I'm sure they'd want us to keep our heads up and enjoy what we have vs. dwell on our losses. So that is what I do try to do. Hope you can as well. Thanks again for your words.

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