GEORGIA ON MY MIND - Heritage and Discovery Part One

Drunk with love is bliss....
Drunk with love is bliss....

Dear Gramma....

I'm writing to you tonight because my therapist told me that it would be a good idea. Actually he told me that I should start a conversation with you even though you passed away about 13 years ago to help me explore my heritage. Since mom and your only daughter died when I was very young, I was told that to help me get more "grounded" and find a more "soul based" life....this is something that I need to do. When my therapist asked me about my "heritage" I realized since mom died and we did not spend a whole lot of time with our Southern relatives, I really could not come up with much history or people to relate too? I mean I have many memories of my old Southern aunts from many years ago at their homes with the china and lace table clothes and tea parties. The point is that there is a lot pieces of the puzzle missing when it comes to my Southern roots. Especially since most of my life has been spent in the entertainment business in Los Angeles. So here I am trying to discover that part of me. After thinking about this a lot today, I decided to put up a photo of Scarlett O'Hara...

You see gramma, I decided to transition into a more "soulful life" quite a few years ago, when my soul sort of pushed the "ego part" of me away and searched desperately for a new identity. Everything changed quickly and drastically and I went through a lot of pain. Because of you I was capable of doing this. You are the reason that I am searching for a better life and I am forever thankful for you and everything you were to me. I remember your silent strength and your love for American Indians and different cultures. How you loved shells and gemstones and you were always on an adventure to some far off desert. Yes, you were the most grounded person I ever knew. It was hard to get here but I have tried to remember everything I learned from being your granddaughter. The biggest thing I ever got from you besides love was FAITH. And this is what I think of when things get tough. It just happened slowly and then one day I was sitting in an office with a very grounded and spiritual man that assured me that we would remain platonic and he would help me heal and begin more "soul work." I told him that no one has ever said that to me before. That a man has never sat in a room with me without "wanting me" or treating me like an "object." It started a long time ago when I was desperate for love as a child without a mother. It was just that I learned how to get it in the wrong way. I had no choice since I was raised as an "object" and I felt love was adoration because this is all I knew. Now I know what love really is. It is knowing that someone loves me for who I am and not how good I look in a dress with spike heels. And so the process continues.....

But you see gramma, I am vey much a Southern belle. This I know for sure by the way I have been in my relationships. I am very romantic and intense and I love to love all the time in every waking hour!! I am like a character in a romantic Southern novel, tragedy and passion....that is me! I finally get it! Oh my lord kind sir......KISS ME!!!!!!!

Ok gramma..I got a bit carried away! Excuse me just for this one minute! But you see....this is how I feel about LOVE. I always have and I am like a lass longing for the greatest love in the world! Love is an adventure! Love is romance and passion that never goes away. Love is everything!!! Oh here I go again....

"Fiddle-dee-dee. War, war, war. This war talk's spoiling all the fun at every party this spring. I get so bored I could scream." Scarlett O'Hara


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ytsenoh 5 years ago from Louisiana, Idaho, Kauai, Nebraska, South Dakota, Missouri

I found this so entertaining.


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SilentReed 5 years ago from Philippines

I was thinking of Ray Charles when I saw the title.Still this is a very delightful read.Your grandma must have left a deep impression on you. Gone with the wind is among my favorite movies.From a frivolous girl metamorphosing into the pragmatic woman in order to survive the Civil War.A femme fatale,the character of Scarlett O'Hara is a memorable one.She was a woman to love.Call me romantic but I would never utter those famous last words of Rhett Butler :)


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Alastar Packer 5 years ago from North Carolina

"DON'T WORRY MISS SCARLETT, WE'LL STOP THEM YANKEES." And don't you worry Ms. G, your passion, optimism and love of people and life shine through your writing like the soothing sun-light on a relaxing Summer's early eve. True, were all one on this planet but there's everything right in finding one's roots. It can tell a person a great many things about themselves. Indeed, without that knowledge a person can often feel a big piece is missing from the jig-saw puzzle of their life. G, thank you for sharing this part of your self and out-look with us, it lifts the spirit and yes, fills one with FAITH. You are a true Southern Belle and peach of the very sweetest kind. Georgia surely tips it's hat to the fair lady.


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WillStarr 5 years ago from Phoenix, Arizona

Excellent!


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Jean Bakula 5 years ago from New Jersey

What a wonderful piece! Gone With The Wind is one of my favorite movies, and I indentified witht the South, even though I'm a Yankee! My husband & I always argue about Scarlett. He thinks she's a B***h. But she worked her fingers to the bone to save Tara, while all her sisters did was whine. OK, she did steal her sister's beau, but he must not have loved sis so much if he left her so easily. I love the way she ripped down those drapes and made that gown with Mammie, so she could go and charm the tax money from Rhett. What spirit she had! It's lovely that you are exploring your interesing heritage. Best wishes to you!


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GPAGE 5 years ago from California Author

ytsenoh....so glad you enjoyed my writing here! Best, GPAGE


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GPAGE 5 years ago from California Author

SilentReed....So glad you stopped by!! I love female characters that are intense and romantic!!! Especially if they have different traits that are interesting....Scarlett is indeed one of these sort of women that keeps you at the edge of your seat!! A true lady with fire! Appreciate you being here.....GPAGE


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GPAGE 5 years ago from California Author

OH ALASTAR KIND SIR!! THANK YOU FOR SAVING THIS LADY FROM THE BAD PEOPLE!!! ha

And frankly my dear, I DO give a damn! ha Also thank you for being here and leaving such a lovely comment. I truly appreciate it! This fair lady is very happy to see you here....

I'm enjoying this adventure to my so called "roots." Sort of makes things from the past look different from this angle....FAITH is everything......Lovin this piece of the puzzle that was missing....sort of makes more sense now.....and ofcourse makes me feel "peachy!".......ha G


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GPAGE 5 years ago from California Author

THANKS FOR STOPPIN IN WILLSTARR!!! I APPRECIATE IT!! GPAGE


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GPAGE 5 years ago from California Author

Jean....I really enjoyed your comment!!! Like you I love the character of Scarlett!!! Her passion, her fire!!!!! What more can a woman ask for? Like you I can see deeper into her actions. VERY entertaining.....I think she is much more interesting then most!!! ha

Thank you for being here. Best, GPAGE

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